is it me? is it i din get myself (& my concerns) across too clearly or i simply trusted tat ppl juz knew wat i wan? i guessed i shd hav learnt nvr 2 pin my hopes on anything since at the end of the day, i'm still stucked at i am & i dunno when can i go. this is really really sad 4 me. i walked into the ofc tdy realising all ard me r collz, not frens which meant i was bored out the whole time & i really wished itz the last time i ever had 2 be in tat place when i walked out tdy. i hope, i pin, i dream of the day i could finally do tat but tat day doesn't look in sight & i'm juz pretty upset.
SC said i wasn't making an effort 2 mix into HER group coz i cun join them again tmr nite but i already set up an appt. there is no way i'm dropping my long-time pals 4 an awkward session & i was informed by her only tdy. i find her words totally unfair but i din say much again, juz like how some unglamorous power struggles stuffs cnt be said 2 me but could be conveyed 2 others. it made me felt like a 2nd-grade fren & itz not the 1st time i felt left out like this. not tat we muz definitely share such stuffs but i guess tat feeling of left out is plain sucky when u tot we r quite gd pals. so i dunno if she will ever understand my situation like how i guess everyone will hav 2 suffice their secrets when i'm ard & i had 2 smile awkwardly when i dun understand their jokes if i ever join THEIR gathering. y shd i subject ppl & myself 2 the situation juz bcoz i wan 2 mix in & top of all, i'm not part of THEIR group? okok, i noe the argument, if i nvr ever try, i will forever be lonely. too bad 4 myself then but i juz dun feel like entertaining. i dun mean 2 complain but i hav been bottling it up 4 sometime.
is tat y i dun hav as much frens as i might hav like 2 hav? i'm comfy wif the current 'frens' state tho.
btw, i heard agnes b cheaper in japan & we juz got the tentative confirmation tat the trip is still on at this moment. i really hope the trip is on.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
short short notes
thy BF got a vy gd increment & some bonus, so i'm promised some material rewards...ha...tat shd cheer me a little. i guess i dun mind hvg more burberry blue label bags or some other nice stuffs i can find in japan...hee.
1 month 2 the japan trip...i really hope therez enough ppl 2 mk the tour. if not, we already hav aussie as a backup...not bad too...i'm quite pleased at the tot of gg back :)
1 month 2 the japan trip...i really hope therez enough ppl 2 mk the tour. if not, we already hav aussie as a backup...not bad too...i'm quite pleased at the tot of gg back :)
Thursday, April 10, 2008
CRAZY
I muz let this madness stop! itz juz wk & wk & wk all the time! itz 3am & i'm really vy vy tired! i really felt like dying! who is still tying figures (another of the same species embroiled in this madness) at this hour when u cun even c properly! when can all this madness end? it has been long enough...i really cun take it anymore if it doesn't stop soon...this job nids so much time & attention tat i'm paying 4 it wif heavy consequences.
when can i hav my life back? when can i hav my time back?
soon soon...WTF, wat the all-4-the-future tat i got myself into this madness?! i can really hate myself at times.
when can i hav my life back? when can i hav my time back?
soon soon...WTF, wat the all-4-the-future tat i got myself into this madness?! i can really hate myself at times.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
happy April Fool's Day!
i decided 2 loaf 4 a while tonite altho we r pending MIC review on thurs & PIC review on fri. nice. we juz went into the job tdy. nicer. so i tot a gd rest 4 me wld be gd 4 this final (i hope itz final) rush. the toughest period seems 2 be over yday. i tot i'll die coz so many times thru it, i tot i cun sustain but this is a total new experience. clearing stuffs wif the Empress of our firm...i tot she will boot me out soon but it nvr happened & she was more patient than i tot. the rush was horrible tho...hvg 2 sustain 16-20 hrs days over a whole week inclusive of weekends + tiring (16-20) days frm b4...i've been leading this life almost all the time since like sep? i really tot i'll die altho there were some slacks in between but since nov, itz like ki siao working. the finale ended wif me running 2 the same place 3 times yday. wah kaoz...i was dead tired, & i meant really terribly exhausted tat i can lie down & dun even wan move again. i nearly reached breaking point a few times coz it was juz amending & amending & amending & worse, i had 2 face slave driver 4 a week straight. tat can really kill. discussing wif the client till 5 am sure isn't the best way 2 start the weekend & knowing u hav 2 go back wk on a sunday at 9pm on saturday when u tot everything shd be okay aft the discussion wif client (until they peng & really wan give in) really tears me apart. i had 2 admit i really cun handle the stress anymore, so imagine the relief when the go-ahead was given 4 binding until the run-3-times but itz all over! i survived thru the shit! & i tin i left a mess back 2 slave driver 2 do the final clearing up! haha.
another rushed week has started. reporting is nex mon. nice. so we got like 3 days 2 clear everything? oh no, it shd be 1 or the MIC has nothing on thurs. i decided 2 push it 2 the back of my mind...& let all the rush start tmr. do i dread all these? i dunno also at times bcoz coming back 2 tin of it, it was vy satisfying 2 c the end-product but gg thru it was hell. i will not deny tat it has went thru my mind many times wat wld the scenario be if i shd choose 2 stay but everytime the stress came 2 boiling pt, all i wan 2 do is 2 escape frm it bcoz it has reached a pt where i dunno how i could handle it anymore. i cun channel my frustration. i got upset when i din perform up 2 the standard i tot i could reach. itz juz so easy 2 get all frustrated & juz snapped. i hate me in tat moment. no matter wat, i tot i shd keep my cool & maintain a high EQ when it comes 2 wk but i juz cun. maybe the stress was really too high & i was facing a person i really dread working wif but r they valid excuses? u might meet wif this everywhere...i dunno. i tin i'm at a lost on how 2 resolve this & i finally can empathatise wif wat CP told me earlier on y she wan quit come aug. even the used-to-be-super-on ken is adapting a heck-care attitude & seems wan 2 leave...hmm, the firm shd pay S-L J even more 2 get him 2 spread more propaganda but he's vy not free now...haha.
i hope no one cancels on the japan trip again coz we need at least 10 ppl 2 make the trip. kaoz. i dun wan 2 miss it aft like literally begging 4 my leave. yes, itz tat pathetic. i had 2 tok my way 2 get the leave. itz like so precious. haiz...maybe i can comfort myself wif the fact i'm quite impt 2 the team so MIC was adamant i be ard...haha. now i feel better...hahaha.
tdy's april's fool day but no one ard me seems 2 be in the mood 4 tricks...i tin everyone's real exhausted. the ofc crowd shrunk by a bit aft yday. more magical than Q-ing 4 hello kiity. so i kept forgetting tat tdy's april's fool day.
i'm not gg 2 david tao's concert lo. i found a perfect excuse. we r celebrating mum's bday. there will be some travelling over the nex 2 wks in the family. Bro's gg KL on a business trip this weekend & Sis' gg Penang over nex weekend & we r edging closer 2 the japan trip (which hopefully will not be cancelled).
btw, a little secret...something seems 2 be developing between FAT & Magic Pills. itz a bit of joke & topic in our family altho i tin mum din really wan 2 tok abt it on the surface but secretly, she's kaypoh too...hahaha. Sis set a 4 layer check 4 the guy 2 pass if they shd ever mk it tog...i tin we r all a bit protective over the little sister. i tin i'll be real sceptical & the guy has 2 do a bit 2 win me over...i'm the 3rd layer wif Sis being the final one. it sounds a bit weird but itz like this in my family, if Sis' okay, mum & dad shd be okies too, so thy BF has been approved by her. poor FAT's future will hav 2 pass more layers of approval. can take a leaf out of thy BF's book tho :P
another rushed week has started. reporting is nex mon. nice. so we got like 3 days 2 clear everything? oh no, it shd be 1 or the MIC has nothing on thurs. i decided 2 push it 2 the back of my mind...& let all the rush start tmr. do i dread all these? i dunno also at times bcoz coming back 2 tin of it, it was vy satisfying 2 c the end-product but gg thru it was hell. i will not deny tat it has went thru my mind many times wat wld the scenario be if i shd choose 2 stay but everytime the stress came 2 boiling pt, all i wan 2 do is 2 escape frm it bcoz it has reached a pt where i dunno how i could handle it anymore. i cun channel my frustration. i got upset when i din perform up 2 the standard i tot i could reach. itz juz so easy 2 get all frustrated & juz snapped. i hate me in tat moment. no matter wat, i tot i shd keep my cool & maintain a high EQ when it comes 2 wk but i juz cun. maybe the stress was really too high & i was facing a person i really dread working wif but r they valid excuses? u might meet wif this everywhere...i dunno. i tin i'm at a lost on how 2 resolve this & i finally can empathatise wif wat CP told me earlier on y she wan quit come aug. even the used-to-be-super-on ken is adapting a heck-care attitude & seems wan 2 leave...hmm, the firm shd pay S-L J even more 2 get him 2 spread more propaganda but he's vy not free now...haha.
i hope no one cancels on the japan trip again coz we need at least 10 ppl 2 make the trip. kaoz. i dun wan 2 miss it aft like literally begging 4 my leave. yes, itz tat pathetic. i had 2 tok my way 2 get the leave. itz like so precious. haiz...maybe i can comfort myself wif the fact i'm quite impt 2 the team so MIC was adamant i be ard...haha. now i feel better...hahaha.
tdy's april's fool day but no one ard me seems 2 be in the mood 4 tricks...i tin everyone's real exhausted. the ofc crowd shrunk by a bit aft yday. more magical than Q-ing 4 hello kiity. so i kept forgetting tat tdy's april's fool day.
i'm not gg 2 david tao's concert lo. i found a perfect excuse. we r celebrating mum's bday. there will be some travelling over the nex 2 wks in the family. Bro's gg KL on a business trip this weekend & Sis' gg Penang over nex weekend & we r edging closer 2 the japan trip (which hopefully will not be cancelled).
btw, a little secret...something seems 2 be developing between FAT & Magic Pills. itz a bit of joke & topic in our family altho i tin mum din really wan 2 tok abt it on the surface but secretly, she's kaypoh too...hahaha. Sis set a 4 layer check 4 the guy 2 pass if they shd ever mk it tog...i tin we r all a bit protective over the little sister. i tin i'll be real sceptical & the guy has 2 do a bit 2 win me over...i'm the 3rd layer wif Sis being the final one. it sounds a bit weird but itz like this in my family, if Sis' okay, mum & dad shd be okies too, so thy BF has been approved by her. poor FAT's future will hav 2 pass more layers of approval. can take a leaf out of thy BF's book tho :P
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
tots b4 sleeping :x
juz had a small cup of instant noodles, my dinner, supper or breakfast. had an unhappy day. was already tired enough as it is by the proceedings of normal routine wk when the day juz went downhill coz slave driver is aft me again. & the day juz buang. tears started 2 flow, all the stress coming on. i decided 2 face all like normal wk but in the end CFA settled 4 me. wat a cool aic...i enjoyed her email...& immediately shared it wif one of my closest work confidiante, S-L J (dun say nvr share gd stuffs wif u...haha) & i hope it perked up his day altho it was a bit late...ha. wahaha...a bit bad of me. If i got the chance, i will paste wat i said 2 him here, i'm quite proud i stood up 2 him. wat an asshole. I tin i worked better aft tat altho still real slow. I tin i'm exhausted at this juncture...i bet i'll be late again later altho i'm stopping now so i can mk it 2 wk earlier later. still got a lot 2 go :(
sat's SC's bday...i tin i shd be more patient at times...i also dunno watz wrong at times but she's still being a nice collz or rather, fren & amazingly, we r still hanging out wif each other. sometimes i hope i'll leave earlier than her coz i dun hav much frens at wk & i'll be real lonely if she leaves 1st. selfish tots :P
not much of happenings except wk, wk & more wk! haiz...wat a sad life. by the time i am free frm wk, itz almost time 2 leave. quite nice too. anticipative.
tdy's grandma's 6th death anniversary. how how fast. i started 2 tin a bit of the past, how i wld happily walked frm her place 2 the nearest mac 2 buy some fries & got all happy & proud of myself coz i was only in Primary 2. how sleepy days were spent at her place while mum went 2 play mj at some place we dun like. how she took care of us when FAT was borne. how she always look sad & lonely twds the end of her life. how it felt the morning we knew she's gone. how i cried my heart out the day b4 her cremation. i'm not especially close 2 her but she's like a integral part of my memories. i tin i felt especially sad when i tot of how she was pushed ard by my uncles during the last days of her life. is tat wat she deserved aft working hard her whole life? watz the use of wah, so many children or grandchildren or great-grandchildren at her funeral when no one really wanted her when she was still alive? i tot she's better off gone...she shd be happier. ah ma, r u? altho uncle still doesn't noe how 2 take care of himself or rather, he's escaping frm reality at times. we have nagged & scolded all we can but haiz. ur eldest great-grandson is having a shotgun marriage. a person might live only 4 a while but the memories left behind can be so vivid.
sat's SC's bday...i tin i shd be more patient at times...i also dunno watz wrong at times but she's still being a nice collz or rather, fren & amazingly, we r still hanging out wif each other. sometimes i hope i'll leave earlier than her coz i dun hav much frens at wk & i'll be real lonely if she leaves 1st. selfish tots :P
not much of happenings except wk, wk & more wk! haiz...wat a sad life. by the time i am free frm wk, itz almost time 2 leave. quite nice too. anticipative.
tdy's grandma's 6th death anniversary. how how fast. i started 2 tin a bit of the past, how i wld happily walked frm her place 2 the nearest mac 2 buy some fries & got all happy & proud of myself coz i was only in Primary 2. how sleepy days were spent at her place while mum went 2 play mj at some place we dun like. how she took care of us when FAT was borne. how she always look sad & lonely twds the end of her life. how it felt the morning we knew she's gone. how i cried my heart out the day b4 her cremation. i'm not especially close 2 her but she's like a integral part of my memories. i tin i felt especially sad when i tot of how she was pushed ard by my uncles during the last days of her life. is tat wat she deserved aft working hard her whole life? watz the use of wah, so many children or grandchildren or great-grandchildren at her funeral when no one really wanted her when she was still alive? i tot she's better off gone...she shd be happier. ah ma, r u? altho uncle still doesn't noe how 2 take care of himself or rather, he's escaping frm reality at times. we have nagged & scolded all we can but haiz. ur eldest great-grandson is having a shotgun marriage. a person might live only 4 a while but the memories left behind can be so vivid.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
i felt i had 2 blog...
i was surfing the asiaone website when ya, i saw australia again. i've said 4 the umpteenth time i wan go tasmania & adelaide & i managed 2 convince Sister tat nex yr's big trip wld be aus but SCC wld prob be bored out in tasmania? i have beautiful memories there & in my own selfish tots, i do wan visit brisbane again altho it'll be my 4th time there but therez something tat will stay etched in ur memories again. So nex, i'll convince everyone 2 start the trip at bris...they wld wan go gold coast bah which means i can go surfers' paradise again! haha.
we finally settled on the japan trip! we r gg osaka/kyoto/mt fuji/tokyo. all in 5 days.
excited:
have been researching on the places we'll be visiting...i tin i'm dying 4 a break (& a new job too). have been researching on where can i get burberrys blue label (thks baby!). been researching on wat universal studios & disneyland has. told FAT we will surely overspend & she seems afraid coz i tin we will lose ctrl. the trip has dented a hole in my savings, so i hav 2 wk harder 2 curb spending frm now till even the bangkok trip or i'll be broke till the end of the yr. oh, i shd research on the hot spring thingy at mt fuji, i tin we r all quite anticipative of this. woo...cun wait till may...
i finally broke down in office last fri. it was unexpected but i wasn't really happy abt it coz news really travelled fast. ppl can tin wat they wan regarding this but they dunno the real reason 4 it happening & i prob cun explain it tat well. so i really wait till seeing thy BF b4 unleashing all the tears the minute i got on the car. sorry baby, i noe it was hard 4 u...2 c me this way again & again over wk ever since u came back. u dun deserve this. it will be over soon. i feel vy tired suddenly...like i've aged overnite. i wish i can go back 2 my old corner where i'm only surrounded by ppl i wan 2 c & tok 2. i miss being surrounded by familiarity. i feel more comfortable wif thy BF's dogs than most ppl. i will find myself missing esp Ah Girl (MY dog) not seeing her 4 a while but there r a lot of ppl i rather i dun hav 2 socialise wif. missed the nhss days where altho i was hanging wif the same old ppl like everyday but i nvr felt tat uncomfortable. slowly i tin i understand myself, wat i really wan. i nvr felt comfortable in my current surroundings. how can it be healthy when u juz felt like hiding whenever wk is mentioned. thks 2 tat i hate sundays.
toking abt lighter stuffs...thy BF's dad's family business might be gg public. i was shocked. the shock is those kinda if-u-look-at-him-i-nvr-felt-like-he's-a-director's-son & now he's gonna be the son-of-a-director-of-a-public-listed-co. i juz felt quite weird. will always remember eliz's director joke...how we had 2 plot vy hard 2 mk him dump his vy horrible schoolbag & i simply wun be able 2 associate his dad is a director. ha. maybe itz my own family fortunes...my dad has been in the same position like all his life & when young, we din hav the luxury like anyone else. when everyone was playing sega, my bro (he's vy whiny & idiotic then, keeping asking 4 one) got a lousy TV games console which hung all the time & other sucky stuffs. maybe tatz y my aunts looked down on us then (yes, deep in my heart, i tin they used 2 look down on us, like how my dad is gg 2 remain poor forever & mum nvr went 2 sch, so i nvr liked entertaining them. thks 4 planting the desire 2 excel tho). so watching too much tv serials, i tin directors (not the shoot film one) r like big shots & when thy BF's belongings look like they hav been wif him like 4 as long as dad stayed in his position, i just cun put the father & son together. i tot a director's son wld behave the way they do on tv shows. i tin the job as more glamourous than it ever was. baby, i tin u'll understand wat i mean?
david tao is coming 2 town again but i hav no $$$ 2 watch him 4 a 3rd time liao. hav i really aged overnite? where hav all the excitement of seeing my fave singers experienced previously gone? is it bcoz i've been seeing less of shiling 2 be affected? or maybe i'll be gg wif her 2 genting 2 c mayday soon? haha...sounds quite unlike me altho they r gd. i hvn even been seeing francis the magician online. his absence is felt as he used 2 be online during this kinda hrs in the past, so i can find someone 2 tok 2 at this wee hrs when i'm bored out by the wk. wk is boring enough & i'm further bored out, can imagine the gratitude when someone toks 2 me...haha. it seems like only a while ago we were meeting week in week out & shiling's psm loves speculating abt us all the time...haha. i tin i do really miss these buncha frens. i shd mk the effort 2 sleep less & meet them more often. or gals, if u c this, meet me k? haha. wld anyone still be interested in a chalet?
saw this frm a website: meaning of chanea: oak wood
huh? at least itz an elegant substance? maybe i shd drop cherie and name my daughter tat in future but i dunno the pronounciation exactly.
itz 8.23am & 12 degrees Celsius in Chanea, Crete, Greece now. tin i'll go dream i'm there now :P
we finally settled on the japan trip! we r gg osaka/kyoto/mt fuji/tokyo. all in 5 days.
excited:
have been researching on the places we'll be visiting...i tin i'm dying 4 a break (& a new job too). have been researching on where can i get burberrys blue label (thks baby!). been researching on wat universal studios & disneyland has. told FAT we will surely overspend & she seems afraid coz i tin we will lose ctrl. the trip has dented a hole in my savings, so i hav 2 wk harder 2 curb spending frm now till even the bangkok trip or i'll be broke till the end of the yr. oh, i shd research on the hot spring thingy at mt fuji, i tin we r all quite anticipative of this. woo...cun wait till may...
i finally broke down in office last fri. it was unexpected but i wasn't really happy abt it coz news really travelled fast. ppl can tin wat they wan regarding this but they dunno the real reason 4 it happening & i prob cun explain it tat well. so i really wait till seeing thy BF b4 unleashing all the tears the minute i got on the car. sorry baby, i noe it was hard 4 u...2 c me this way again & again over wk ever since u came back. u dun deserve this. it will be over soon. i feel vy tired suddenly...like i've aged overnite. i wish i can go back 2 my old corner where i'm only surrounded by ppl i wan 2 c & tok 2. i miss being surrounded by familiarity. i feel more comfortable wif thy BF's dogs than most ppl. i will find myself missing esp Ah Girl (MY dog) not seeing her 4 a while but there r a lot of ppl i rather i dun hav 2 socialise wif. missed the nhss days where altho i was hanging wif the same old ppl like everyday but i nvr felt tat uncomfortable. slowly i tin i understand myself, wat i really wan. i nvr felt comfortable in my current surroundings. how can it be healthy when u juz felt like hiding whenever wk is mentioned. thks 2 tat i hate sundays.
toking abt lighter stuffs...thy BF's dad's family business might be gg public. i was shocked. the shock is those kinda if-u-look-at-him-i-nvr-felt-like-he's-a-director's-son & now he's gonna be the son-of-a-director-of-a-public-listed-co. i juz felt quite weird. will always remember eliz's director joke...how we had 2 plot vy hard 2 mk him dump his vy horrible schoolbag & i simply wun be able 2 associate his dad is a director. ha. maybe itz my own family fortunes...my dad has been in the same position like all his life & when young, we din hav the luxury like anyone else. when everyone was playing sega, my bro (he's vy whiny & idiotic then, keeping asking 4 one) got a lousy TV games console which hung all the time & other sucky stuffs. maybe tatz y my aunts looked down on us then (yes, deep in my heart, i tin they used 2 look down on us, like how my dad is gg 2 remain poor forever & mum nvr went 2 sch, so i nvr liked entertaining them. thks 4 planting the desire 2 excel tho). so watching too much tv serials, i tin directors (not the shoot film one) r like big shots & when thy BF's belongings look like they hav been wif him like 4 as long as dad stayed in his position, i just cun put the father & son together. i tot a director's son wld behave the way they do on tv shows. i tin the job as more glamourous than it ever was. baby, i tin u'll understand wat i mean?
david tao is coming 2 town again but i hav no $$$ 2 watch him 4 a 3rd time liao. hav i really aged overnite? where hav all the excitement of seeing my fave singers experienced previously gone? is it bcoz i've been seeing less of shiling 2 be affected? or maybe i'll be gg wif her 2 genting 2 c mayday soon? haha...sounds quite unlike me altho they r gd. i hvn even been seeing francis the magician online. his absence is felt as he used 2 be online during this kinda hrs in the past, so i can find someone 2 tok 2 at this wee hrs when i'm bored out by the wk. wk is boring enough & i'm further bored out, can imagine the gratitude when someone toks 2 me...haha. it seems like only a while ago we were meeting week in week out & shiling's psm loves speculating abt us all the time...haha. i tin i do really miss these buncha frens. i shd mk the effort 2 sleep less & meet them more often. or gals, if u c this, meet me k? haha. wld anyone still be interested in a chalet?
saw this frm a website: meaning of chanea: oak wood
huh? at least itz an elegant substance? maybe i shd drop cherie and name my daughter tat in future but i dunno the pronounciation exactly.
itz 8.23am & 12 degrees Celsius in Chanea, Crete, Greece now. tin i'll go dream i'm there now :P
Thursday, March 06, 2008
BAS****
my better mood for the coming weekends was spoilt by this idiot, asshole, bastard or watever u can tin of. u cun get him on the phone 4 the whole day when u nid help. tat bastard doesn't noe therez no internet access at client's place & my hp had 2 go out of batt. he doesn't wan 2 reply on issues tat u nid him 2 solve & in the end, he pushes the thing 2 u back! juz bcoz he has got a lot of jobs doesn't mean he can behave like this, throwing stuffs like nobody's business & providing no guidance or assistance at all. who the hell ask him 2 take more than he can cope! & the firm can tolerate this kind of nonsense. no wonder everyone had 2 leave. i'm thinking of throwing him this letter when i quit:
Dear BASTARD,
it was hell working with u & itz not even fair 2 describe u come frm hell bcoz u r worse than that. u r really terrible as a superior, as a co-worker & as human. no wonder no one can really sympathise wif u if u really coughs out blood. no wonder everyone tries 2 avoid u like plague, yes plague, bcoz we r afraid of the germs & not U! u r pathetic really, dun u tin so? u shall get justification 4 all these or u hav already bcoz...always remember, someone is watching & judging by ur idiotic face, u wun hav ur way forever. lastly, i hope u live well & long, away frm everyone.
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i feel better.
Dear BASTARD,
it was hell working with u & itz not even fair 2 describe u come frm hell bcoz u r worse than that. u r really terrible as a superior, as a co-worker & as human. no wonder no one can really sympathise wif u if u really coughs out blood. no wonder everyone tries 2 avoid u like plague, yes plague, bcoz we r afraid of the germs & not U! u r pathetic really, dun u tin so? u shall get justification 4 all these or u hav already bcoz...always remember, someone is watching & judging by ur idiotic face, u wun hav ur way forever. lastly, i hope u live well & long, away frm everyone.
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i feel better.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
curry & curry...lotus root soup & lotus root soup
i'm hvg some pros wif the tummy (again). itz like stomachache & diarrhoea & i dunno wat it is. i had western med yday & po ji wan tdy. i had curry yday & tdy. great.
thy BF's mum & my mum might secretly hav some therapy thing gg. my mum cooked curry 4 my grandma's death anniversary yday & this aft, i reci a sms frm thy BF telling me his mum cooked curry tdy. 1st OMG. when i reached his place, there was lotus root soup also. FAT is off frm wk tmr & she's gonna ask mum 2 cook her 拿手 lotus root soup (baby, so u noe watz 4 dinner tmr...ha). Great. 2nd OMG. come 2 tin of it, itz quite amazing & amusing.
went 4 an interview tdy. not a bad experience but i started pondering if i shd accept if they EVER offer bcoz i've been receiving some calls frm agents lately altho there still isn't much gg on but itz still a gd sign. 2 quote thy BF: 守得云开见月...hopefully lah :)
tdy SK & i had this nice kopi & toast at this kopi stall at golden shoe. both of us reckon itz the best ard the area so far & the stall looks rather nice. i kinda miss the toast now. nvm, therez tmr which is my last day on my fave job 4 the peak. gg back 2 slave driver frm fri :(
making some more research on japan & getting pretty excited. was chatting wif SK over kopi abt travel & i juz feel so so happy tat i'm gg somewhere soon altho the trip is not booked yet. FAT juz applied 4 the dbs takashimaya card which offers discount at takashimaya japan! hopefully we hav time 2 go there. personally i'll love 2 visit mt fuji 4 the fresh air...ooh. therez quite a bit 2 look fwd 2...1st offpeak (yay!), 2nd japan (Yay!), 3rd off days & more off days (YAy!), 4th bangkok (YAY!) & oh yes, getting a burberrys blue label bag 4 my bday (!!!). someone promised this & i write it down 1st...heehee :p
k...time 2 give back the com 2 FAT so she shuts it down later...ha
thy BF's mum & my mum might secretly hav some therapy thing gg. my mum cooked curry 4 my grandma's death anniversary yday & this aft, i reci a sms frm thy BF telling me his mum cooked curry tdy. 1st OMG. when i reached his place, there was lotus root soup also. FAT is off frm wk tmr & she's gonna ask mum 2 cook her 拿手 lotus root soup (baby, so u noe watz 4 dinner tmr...ha). Great. 2nd OMG. come 2 tin of it, itz quite amazing & amusing.
went 4 an interview tdy. not a bad experience but i started pondering if i shd accept if they EVER offer bcoz i've been receiving some calls frm agents lately altho there still isn't much gg on but itz still a gd sign. 2 quote thy BF: 守得云开见月...hopefully lah :)
tdy SK & i had this nice kopi & toast at this kopi stall at golden shoe. both of us reckon itz the best ard the area so far & the stall looks rather nice. i kinda miss the toast now. nvm, therez tmr which is my last day on my fave job 4 the peak. gg back 2 slave driver frm fri :(
making some more research on japan & getting pretty excited. was chatting wif SK over kopi abt travel & i juz feel so so happy tat i'm gg somewhere soon altho the trip is not booked yet. FAT juz applied 4 the dbs takashimaya card which offers discount at takashimaya japan! hopefully we hav time 2 go there. personally i'll love 2 visit mt fuji 4 the fresh air...ooh. therez quite a bit 2 look fwd 2...1st offpeak (yay!), 2nd japan (Yay!), 3rd off days & more off days (YAy!), 4th bangkok (YAY!) & oh yes, getting a burberrys blue label bag 4 my bday (!!!). someone promised this & i write it down 1st...heehee :p
k...time 2 give back the com 2 FAT so she shuts it down later...ha
Monday, February 25, 2008
cun wait...
juz finished reading my frens' blogs 2 get some updates on their lives. sometimes we r so caught up wif life, sometimes i'm (or we) so lazy, we dun meet up as much like b4 or bcoz i'm meeting thy BF like everyday? heehee :P
i had a super slack day tdy & this shd continue 4 the nex 2 days. i cun help but kept declaring itz my fave job out of the whole damn peak. SK 'accompanied' (i tin he wans slack also...hahaha) me 2 orchard 4 the agency interview & we ended up shopping at tangs till like 3pm...OMG, no one shd noe abt this. btw, there r some pretty gd stuffs at tangs. they r hvg a sale. i wonder wat stunt r we coming up wif tmr...altho i hav another agency interview tmr. things seem 2 be looking up a bit...juz when i got a bit used 2 things...hmm, it makes me a bit happy altho i tin i will juz buang it. i literally stuttered when the lady asked me 2 describe myself...i cun stand this. y muz i describe myself everytime?! i'm so so sian...& i ended up blabbering nonsense (again). & SK was so confident i'll get the job when i'm like i will buang bah, i hope the interviewer dun asks too much. btw, SK is this damn clever guy wif like a double major & he got 1st class honours, plans 2 go 2 an ivy league 4 mba...wah lau, i felt a tad inadequate 2 him. i juz wan 2 hav time 2 slack all i wan, enough $$$ 2 tour ard the world (& if best, dun wk) & hvg my loved ones ard me...& quit this stupid job. i visited thy BF's workplace yday & i tin itz nice. No office environment can be worse than ours liao, i felt like i'm in some pig sty at times.
juz cfm will be gg bangkok wif the nua-z team in jul. will be stucked wif killer most of the time coz ZJ & SQ r gg 2 phuket 1st, so following killer who sounds like she's all ready 2 mk a kill 4 the shopping & we'll be taking tiger which i've nvr been on. shd also be concluding the japan trip this wk wif the natas fair coming up...so excited albeit wif a bit of guilt coz i had 2 go off at a crucial part of a job but well, i dun tin i'm tat irreplaceable & i'm pretty sure my junior can do a gd job :). doing some research on burberrys blue label which is only available in japan, i got FAT excited too. oh ya, we went 2 Q 2 get into LV last sat bcoz FAT's best fren, Yami (short 4 yami yoghurt, eliz might remember...hahahah) wanted 2 get a wallet. there r so many rich ppl ard man. tat we hav 2 Q in even get in. none of us got anything altho even Sister was rather tempted. i wasn't...maybe bcoz i hav the purse & wallet liao...haha but i saw a nice male wallet which i wld hav got 4 thy BF if i had seen it like 2 yrs earlier.
was watching thy BF playing his game last nite when therez this computer character wif the words 'slave driver' in the name. brings a chill 2 me. cun wait 4 march 2 be over so tat i wun hav anything 2 do wif him anymore. i'm not afraid of him. i juz detest working under him which will land me in an unhappy period which is till 31 mar.
looking thru some of the japan tours...getting excited :P
i had a super slack day tdy & this shd continue 4 the nex 2 days. i cun help but kept declaring itz my fave job out of the whole damn peak. SK 'accompanied' (i tin he wans slack also...hahaha) me 2 orchard 4 the agency interview & we ended up shopping at tangs till like 3pm...OMG, no one shd noe abt this. btw, there r some pretty gd stuffs at tangs. they r hvg a sale. i wonder wat stunt r we coming up wif tmr...altho i hav another agency interview tmr. things seem 2 be looking up a bit...juz when i got a bit used 2 things...hmm, it makes me a bit happy altho i tin i will juz buang it. i literally stuttered when the lady asked me 2 describe myself...i cun stand this. y muz i describe myself everytime?! i'm so so sian...& i ended up blabbering nonsense (again). & SK was so confident i'll get the job when i'm like i will buang bah, i hope the interviewer dun asks too much. btw, SK is this damn clever guy wif like a double major & he got 1st class honours, plans 2 go 2 an ivy league 4 mba...wah lau, i felt a tad inadequate 2 him. i juz wan 2 hav time 2 slack all i wan, enough $$$ 2 tour ard the world (& if best, dun wk) & hvg my loved ones ard me...& quit this stupid job. i visited thy BF's workplace yday & i tin itz nice. No office environment can be worse than ours liao, i felt like i'm in some pig sty at times.
juz cfm will be gg bangkok wif the nua-z team in jul. will be stucked wif killer most of the time coz ZJ & SQ r gg 2 phuket 1st, so following killer who sounds like she's all ready 2 mk a kill 4 the shopping & we'll be taking tiger which i've nvr been on. shd also be concluding the japan trip this wk wif the natas fair coming up...so excited albeit wif a bit of guilt coz i had 2 go off at a crucial part of a job but well, i dun tin i'm tat irreplaceable & i'm pretty sure my junior can do a gd job :). doing some research on burberrys blue label which is only available in japan, i got FAT excited too. oh ya, we went 2 Q 2 get into LV last sat bcoz FAT's best fren, Yami (short 4 yami yoghurt, eliz might remember...hahahah) wanted 2 get a wallet. there r so many rich ppl ard man. tat we hav 2 Q in even get in. none of us got anything altho even Sister was rather tempted. i wasn't...maybe bcoz i hav the purse & wallet liao...haha but i saw a nice male wallet which i wld hav got 4 thy BF if i had seen it like 2 yrs earlier.
was watching thy BF playing his game last nite when therez this computer character wif the words 'slave driver' in the name. brings a chill 2 me. cun wait 4 march 2 be over so tat i wun hav anything 2 do wif him anymore. i'm not afraid of him. i juz detest working under him which will land me in an unhappy period which is till 31 mar.
looking thru some of the japan tours...getting excited :P
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
irritating...
i juz wanted 2 go sleep but the damned notebook refuses 2 shut down! ##$%^&&****(%$$
itz bad enough tat i'm in an unhappy job. ki siao liao :(
at 2.01am, i accidentally restarted the com! wat am i doing 2 myself?!
sometimes i really felt like throwing the notebook on the wall 2 vent my frustrations. altho it has been wif me 4 1 & a half yrs & i probably might miss it when itz gone but itz juz irritating now.
tok abt ending monday blues :((((((((((((((((((
now it shuts down finally :x
itz bad enough tat i'm in an unhappy job. ki siao liao :(
at 2.01am, i accidentally restarted the com! wat am i doing 2 myself?!
sometimes i really felt like throwing the notebook on the wall 2 vent my frustrations. altho it has been wif me 4 1 & a half yrs & i probably might miss it when itz gone but itz juz irritating now.
tok abt ending monday blues :((((((((((((((((((
now it shuts down finally :x
Thursday, January 31, 2008
二月咯...
thk god january's over. i've crossed my 1st hurdle. tasted how the big rush can be like. i cun take 18-20 hrs days 4 long...much less than say 2 sustain it 4 a mth. i can feel my heavy eyelids trying 2 close. itz really a crazy crazy rush 2 the end. luckily Shake-Leg J is ard (Y NVR REALLY SHAKE LEG?). i was asking him this qn everyday & not a day passed by w/o us trying 2 get ZJ back & thinking how better it will be wif her ard. i enjoyed this interactive moments wif my collz. i've known ppl during this yr which i knew has become my frens (altho not much of them). sometimes i tin the current environment can be rather special. i get 2 brush my shoulders wif a lot of diff kinds of ppl. i might not c it now but i felt i hav grown more as a person, got stronger (i tin) & better knowledge. i'm still amazed at the array of knowledge i came across at times which is wat i came 4 altho itz a harsh realistic world.
speaking of the job, i'm glad i got 2 noe 3 nice 'old' ladies...sometimes u muz believe yuan fen...out of so many ppl, i juz tot i can really click wif them & there r such enjoyable moments until they left 1 by 1 & when we meet now, we came frm all directions...ha but i'm gg 2 make sure i join u gals come jul or aug...ha! missed out on the afternoon ang pau exchange session bcoz we were rushing, rushing & rushing. yes, an ang pau exchange session when only Flying Killer (or Fly Sky Kill Hand according 2 silly SQ) can distribute ang paus...so auntie & their lunch update only serves 2 remind the funny (or awkward?) times we cun decide where 2 eat, go aft eating...itz a really buang team but hanging out is fun. will always remember the monopoly at the c-thru-thing at cineleisure. some silly stuffs. others inclusive of gg all the way 2 katong 4 5* chicken rice & ended wif lo hei wif cornflakes which SQ & i r extremely sore abt. ha. S-L J & i were saying how nice if these 3 r ard tdy 2 help wif our job coz they were all on the job previously, then we can literally shake leg liao...haha. my shake-leg job nex wk has been postponed which meant i hav 2 spend my morn on CNY eve in ofc :(
HX-killer seems 2 be really sick...he's coughing all the time. i'm afraid i'll get infected. i dunno. i hav mixed feelings abt this person but i'm quite happy tat wif my current state, he's not looking 4 me. he forced me 2 unleash the low-EQ behaviour i dun like when i'm working. btw, tin he's the most hated guy in the dept now. he unites the assistants who worked under him. dun wish my time on wat scary things he can do but 2 illicit such contempt isn't easy too. wonder how he really really feels abt all these.
juz checked the hdb website...the number isn't as scary as the prev one. thy BF says he has a gd feeling abt this one. i tot it will be nice if we can move on or i tin we r kinda stucked & the current situation cun be improved 2 help. 肯 was asking abt the wedding venue but no place 2 stay, wat wedding 2 tok abt? hmm, i've been trying 2 save hard & the busy schedule is helping a bit coz i dun hav much time 2 shop, miss all the sales = lesser new clothes, shoes, bags & other accessories or is it bcoz thy BF has been paying 4 things? haha. i'm quite pleased but not satisfied coz a conversation wif S-L J strucked (i noe itz like tat lah but it juz strucks me again) me tat if we get a ready flat, my savings might be gone soon. i often ponder is it i spend too much in the past or i was already earning vy little? looking at the bursting wardrobe, i tin i noe y :P
CNY is coming which also meant 双方家人就要见面。 yes, itz 双方家人 & not only 双方家长 coz both our families r gg 2 genting tog. not literally tog bcoz we r borrowing transport. we were pondering abt how shd be it be like when the parents met. it all seems a bit weird 4 me.
i got 2 sleep. 睡是为了能走更长远的路 :)
speaking of the job, i'm glad i got 2 noe 3 nice 'old' ladies...sometimes u muz believe yuan fen...out of so many ppl, i juz tot i can really click wif them & there r such enjoyable moments until they left 1 by 1 & when we meet now, we came frm all directions...ha but i'm gg 2 make sure i join u gals come jul or aug...ha! missed out on the afternoon ang pau exchange session bcoz we were rushing, rushing & rushing. yes, an ang pau exchange session when only Flying Killer (or Fly Sky Kill Hand according 2 silly SQ) can distribute ang paus...so auntie & their lunch update only serves 2 remind the funny (or awkward?) times we cun decide where 2 eat, go aft eating...itz a really buang team but hanging out is fun. will always remember the monopoly at the c-thru-thing at cineleisure. some silly stuffs. others inclusive of gg all the way 2 katong 4 5* chicken rice & ended wif lo hei wif cornflakes which SQ & i r extremely sore abt. ha. S-L J & i were saying how nice if these 3 r ard tdy 2 help wif our job coz they were all on the job previously, then we can literally shake leg liao...haha. my shake-leg job nex wk has been postponed which meant i hav 2 spend my morn on CNY eve in ofc :(
HX-killer seems 2 be really sick...he's coughing all the time. i'm afraid i'll get infected. i dunno. i hav mixed feelings abt this person but i'm quite happy tat wif my current state, he's not looking 4 me. he forced me 2 unleash the low-EQ behaviour i dun like when i'm working. btw, tin he's the most hated guy in the dept now. he unites the assistants who worked under him. dun wish my time on wat scary things he can do but 2 illicit such contempt isn't easy too. wonder how he really really feels abt all these.
juz checked the hdb website...the number isn't as scary as the prev one. thy BF says he has a gd feeling abt this one. i tot it will be nice if we can move on or i tin we r kinda stucked & the current situation cun be improved 2 help. 肯 was asking abt the wedding venue but no place 2 stay, wat wedding 2 tok abt? hmm, i've been trying 2 save hard & the busy schedule is helping a bit coz i dun hav much time 2 shop, miss all the sales = lesser new clothes, shoes, bags & other accessories or is it bcoz thy BF has been paying 4 things? haha. i'm quite pleased but not satisfied coz a conversation wif S-L J strucked (i noe itz like tat lah but it juz strucks me again) me tat if we get a ready flat, my savings might be gone soon. i often ponder is it i spend too much in the past or i was already earning vy little? looking at the bursting wardrobe, i tin i noe y :P
CNY is coming which also meant 双方家人就要见面。 yes, itz 双方家人 & not only 双方家长 coz both our families r gg 2 genting tog. not literally tog bcoz we r borrowing transport. we were pondering abt how shd be it be like when the parents met. it all seems a bit weird 4 me.
i got 2 sleep. 睡是为了能走更长远的路 :)
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
b4 the MAD rush...
i decided 2 capture my tots b4 the mad rush begins...
in the best simulation, this shd be the worst week 4 this peak. it looks better when Jan is over. hope i'll be fine. i noe i'll prob not be. i'll be working under the most dreaded (i tin) guy in our dept.
lately i hav this craze over watching the jap version of meteor garden. i tin everyone has this fairy-tale thing in their mind. we all do fantacise a tad dun we? i'm sure every girl dun mind a tsukasa in their mind & a rui as a gd fren :P i'm contemplating buying the dvd or wat coz i keep missing the show. itz gd 2 indulge in such things once in a while. being in reality 4 a long time juz tires u out. i mean i can feel reality at wk all the time & i wk such long hrs, so itz scary. yday XY was asking me abt nice getaways & i recommended perhentian. despite not knowing wat i'm in 4 when i decided 2 go on the trip, itz 1 of my most memorable & nicest getaway ever. i tin i'll remember the hut, nice meals (altho we got sotong every meal), clear blue water, picturesque scenery, snorkelling (altho i cun swim & drank a lot salty seawater) and juz hanging out 4 a long long time. how nice.
went 2 JB over the weekend & added more items 2 thy BF's wardrobe...he got a real colourful wardrobe (*proud look on the face)...haha.
i was toking 2 ivy juz now & we were missing the gd old times at lecture again...those kinda get-old-remember-past thing. itz sometimes hard how 2 believe how fast things r gg & how things hav changed...even looking at ur surrounding tdy & tmr & finding them different. i was reading abt the interview zoe tay gave abt her being 40 & started wondering how wld it be like when i'm 40? will i be a career woman or maybe a hag then? i look at the younger ppl ard me all the time & sometimes amazed how time hav passed...even FAT is turning 21 k? OMG, it seems like yday she's doing silly stuffs (okay, she still is doing them all the time, the latest being her getting out of m'sia w/o the chop on her passport) & chubby (or fat, if u like), now she's a grown-up girl, working and can enter genting casino liao. well, my uncle loves 2 bring it up everytime. i dun understand the excitement. 2 me at times, she remains a little girl...i dunno...itz like maybe my mum watching us & thinking we r kids all the time? altho i hope she can stop liking cyndi wang, watching a show repeatedly (it reminds me of a FREN & she noes who she is) & stop complaining she is fat coz she is big (in my opinion) & not fat.
hmm, this seems like a nice post...took my mind off wk. juz finished some & starting some more again later. i support the fact tat we shd hav more life...working too much is not gd.
in the best simulation, this shd be the worst week 4 this peak. it looks better when Jan is over. hope i'll be fine. i noe i'll prob not be. i'll be working under the most dreaded (i tin) guy in our dept.
lately i hav this craze over watching the jap version of meteor garden. i tin everyone has this fairy-tale thing in their mind. we all do fantacise a tad dun we? i'm sure every girl dun mind a tsukasa in their mind & a rui as a gd fren :P i'm contemplating buying the dvd or wat coz i keep missing the show. itz gd 2 indulge in such things once in a while. being in reality 4 a long time juz tires u out. i mean i can feel reality at wk all the time & i wk such long hrs, so itz scary. yday XY was asking me abt nice getaways & i recommended perhentian. despite not knowing wat i'm in 4 when i decided 2 go on the trip, itz 1 of my most memorable & nicest getaway ever. i tin i'll remember the hut, nice meals (altho we got sotong every meal), clear blue water, picturesque scenery, snorkelling (altho i cun swim & drank a lot salty seawater) and juz hanging out 4 a long long time. how nice.
went 2 JB over the weekend & added more items 2 thy BF's wardrobe...he got a real colourful wardrobe (*proud look on the face)...haha.
i was toking 2 ivy juz now & we were missing the gd old times at lecture again...those kinda get-old-remember-past thing. itz sometimes hard how 2 believe how fast things r gg & how things hav changed...even looking at ur surrounding tdy & tmr & finding them different. i was reading abt the interview zoe tay gave abt her being 40 & started wondering how wld it be like when i'm 40? will i be a career woman or maybe a hag then? i look at the younger ppl ard me all the time & sometimes amazed how time hav passed...even FAT is turning 21 k? OMG, it seems like yday she's doing silly stuffs (okay, she still is doing them all the time, the latest being her getting out of m'sia w/o the chop on her passport) & chubby (or fat, if u like), now she's a grown-up girl, working and can enter genting casino liao. well, my uncle loves 2 bring it up everytime. i dun understand the excitement. 2 me at times, she remains a little girl...i dunno...itz like maybe my mum watching us & thinking we r kids all the time? altho i hope she can stop liking cyndi wang, watching a show repeatedly (it reminds me of a FREN & she noes who she is) & stop complaining she is fat coz she is big (in my opinion) & not fat.
hmm, this seems like a nice post...took my mind off wk. juz finished some & starting some more again later. i support the fact tat we shd hav more life...working too much is not gd.
Monday, November 26, 2007
survivor
itz really nice 2 hear updates abt ur frens. counting, i hvn seen the odeon gang 4 sometime lo. ever since kelly & juliet left their respective places, everyone seems 2 be busier. somehow somewhere in my mind, the gd old days r playing. i started missing those days when i needed a fax machine. this wun be a pro in the gd old days. & i wun hate gg 2 wk...haiz. the gang seems so so busy these days i hardly get an update abt them, maybe i was real busy. i tot i will die during the past 2 wks where i worked 16hrs days almost everyday thru saturdays & public hols. i woke up 2 wk, came home only 2 sleep & i can dun c my sisters 4 a whole week & they SHARE a room wif me! tat was real exagerrating. i slept thru my sundays like a mad hog. i almost broke my record reaching home at 3.45am. i really wish i dun hav 2 go thru the torture of trying 2 sustain things the nex day or the nex nex days when u slept at 4am, then knowing u'll be lucky 2 reach home at 2am the nex. & damn, itz not even the peak & this is not even a big job. i can feel my brains sleeping even when i'm awake. i hope i can get thru this physical & mental torture came jan. i tin TAT job shd be the toughest one working wif a super slave driver. itz tough stucked in the middle wif NO authority at times. ur subordinate's suffering & looking 2 u & u tried ur best in toking 2 the top, yet no solution came out of it. ppl tin we shd complain but deep down inside, we all wonder if any actions will be taken. ended up we juz wan 2 get it over & done wif. sometimes i wished i had more guts, maybe life will be better. maybe i'm expecting too much of myself at times too, maybe tat is the best way? i dunno, no one can provide a gd answer.
spent the day trying 2 reflect & hide...haiz, $$$ are really hard 2 earn these days. u really hav 2 wk till vomit blood & worst, they might not let u off then. there were times when i tot itz the same as last yr & i shd relax a bit but things r even tougher this yr, yet i tot i wan hold on 4 tat pay increment, so i'm biting nails & tooth 2 hold on. it will be worthed. i can look fwd 2 the cny genting trip 4 middle of peak, & THE trip 4 the end of it. cun wait.
something perkier: Ann keeps wanting 2 go st james powerstation 4 some reasons...but S & i tot we more suited 4 family-friendly games & K! YAY! i reckon ZJ will agree too. maybe we shd all practise mj, so we hav excuses 2 meet up when we r real old...hee :P
i finally saw the movie promo 4 Chipmunks...SC kept saying Shake-Leg J (dun shake until cnt-stop hor) looked like one of them & i totally can only recall 3 squirrels. She was like S-L J looked like this one & i was totally 'huh?'. quite funny too...oh, tat also reminds me of funny 'mickey mouse' incident...haha. the job is fun at times. at times only. wif the rite ppl.
lastly, hope i survive this wk fine.
2 update my wishlist:
1) The Creative player doesn't hav a 'hold' function, so i'm pondering again. i tin i'll drop it in the end :) saves $$$
2) The wristlet. S's fren cun find one tat fitted my budget (which i tin might be quite ridiculous...haha), so i tot i'll get it online.
3) New job. i sent my CV somewhere again. i hvn sent it 2 S!!! but then again, i tin her organisation might be flooded by my CVs...haha.
spent the day trying 2 reflect & hide...haiz, $$$ are really hard 2 earn these days. u really hav 2 wk till vomit blood & worst, they might not let u off then. there were times when i tot itz the same as last yr & i shd relax a bit but things r even tougher this yr, yet i tot i wan hold on 4 tat pay increment, so i'm biting nails & tooth 2 hold on. it will be worthed. i can look fwd 2 the cny genting trip 4 middle of peak, & THE trip 4 the end of it. cun wait.
something perkier: Ann keeps wanting 2 go st james powerstation 4 some reasons...but S & i tot we more suited 4 family-friendly games & K! YAY! i reckon ZJ will agree too. maybe we shd all practise mj, so we hav excuses 2 meet up when we r real old...hee :P
i finally saw the movie promo 4 Chipmunks...SC kept saying Shake-Leg J (dun shake until cnt-stop hor) looked like one of them & i totally can only recall 3 squirrels. She was like S-L J looked like this one & i was totally 'huh?'. quite funny too...oh, tat also reminds me of funny 'mickey mouse' incident...haha. the job is fun at times. at times only. wif the rite ppl.
lastly, hope i survive this wk fine.
2 update my wishlist:
1) The Creative player doesn't hav a 'hold' function, so i'm pondering again. i tin i'll drop it in the end :) saves $$$
2) The wristlet. S's fren cun find one tat fitted my budget (which i tin might be quite ridiculous...haha), so i tot i'll get it online.
3) New job. i sent my CV somewhere again. i hvn sent it 2 S!!! but then again, i tin her organisation might be flooded by my CVs...haha.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
wishlist
i hav 3 things on my mind.
1) a Creative MP3 player (pinkie :))
2) a Coach wristlet
3) a new job
the 3rd one seems a bit unachievable at the mo. the other 2 might do fine & they fit my budget altho it will be vy vy nice if i can find a nice website which ships coach products. they r real cheap in the US.
i'll make do wif these at the mo :)
1) a Creative MP3 player (pinkie :))
2) a Coach wristlet
3) a new job
the 3rd one seems a bit unachievable at the mo. the other 2 might do fine & they fit my budget altho it will be vy vy nice if i can find a nice website which ships coach products. they r real cheap in the US.
i'll make do wif these at the mo :)
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
dun read this post :P
the rain is still gg on...but i tin itz a rather nice nite...& i juz shut down the notebook 2 prepare 4 bed.
monday is over! how how nice...which means the weekend is approaching...i love weekends...itz slacking time!
quite a bit of stuffs hav happened lately...writing down them all wld be quite a bit...hmm, leave it 4 a great memory day.
as i wrote, the rain seems 2 be getting heavier. i shd sleep or i wun even be able to wake up tmr.
i hope thy BF gets his due tmr. baby, i tin i feel more nervy than u but i tin u deserve all of it...ha.
lastly, i hope everything will be smooth again tmr =)
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................................
oh, a funny thing happened tdy. my AM's actually wearing the same specs frame as me! how vy weird...i wish i had my new pair done earlier.
oh, i'm quite proud of myself lately. i hvn been shopping much. i am saving $$$ *proud look on the face but...i nid 2 figure out how 2 trf $$$ properly into my SCB a/c 2 earn more interest. it fails everytime. i dun tin itz user pro (i SERIOUSLY DOUBT SO)...muz be the bank.
oh, itz getting heavier & heavier! i shd go 2 my cozy bed asap.
monday is over! how how nice...which means the weekend is approaching...i love weekends...itz slacking time!
quite a bit of stuffs hav happened lately...writing down them all wld be quite a bit...hmm, leave it 4 a great memory day.
as i wrote, the rain seems 2 be getting heavier. i shd sleep or i wun even be able to wake up tmr.
i hope thy BF gets his due tmr. baby, i tin i feel more nervy than u but i tin u deserve all of it...ha.
lastly, i hope everything will be smooth again tmr =)
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................................
oh, a funny thing happened tdy. my AM's actually wearing the same specs frame as me! how vy weird...i wish i had my new pair done earlier.
oh, i'm quite proud of myself lately. i hvn been shopping much. i am saving $$$ *proud look on the face but...i nid 2 figure out how 2 trf $$$ properly into my SCB a/c 2 earn more interest. it fails everytime. i dun tin itz user pro (i SERIOUSLY DOUBT SO)...muz be the bank.
oh, itz getting heavier & heavier! i shd go 2 my cozy bed asap.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
BLUE-y...
i'm feeling super BLUE now. the shit will start as early as tmr...oh, the 3 mths of slacking has ended! i miss the gd old days. will miss all the lunches, tea breaks & most imptly, gg home early! wuwu...
meet up wif S & ZJ yday...& we laughed our heads over SPF 200 products & ended the day angry (almost) coz we were denied a proper K-session coz they ate into our time...we only sang 4 2 & a half hrs & it cost $31! me & S were whining & grumbling...we were hvg a vy gd time altho our eyes r closing on us. it was also a super full day coz we were almost eating & drinking all the time frm thai express, billy bombers 2 K. i tin the tummy & bladder working super hard...ha. i started 2 miss this time last yr...when we were gg 4 the same job but i had much lesser responsibilities & dun hav 2 care so much. i can feel the stress seeping in liao...hmm, i got 2 take some deep breaths & cool down...relax. i completed the sinful weekend wif botak jones juz now...itz not tat nice in my opinion.
saw wenwei at paragon yday...still crappy as usual & YES, his hp no. nvr chg & we ended up calling him 4 the exact location of botak jones tdy also. i dun seem 2 c my frens nowadays...i ponder abt it at times & i do get a bit upset at times when i read some stuffs yet the inner me did not feel like doing anything. am i the one thinking a lot but a lot of chgs hav been taking place bah? i cun seem 2 pin my tots on it at times.
我虽然不爱孤单 却也不怕孤单
i tin this wks 4 me a lot. my tots r disoriented at this juncture...i tin itz the sleepiness & the shit awaiting frm tmr :x
meet up wif S & ZJ yday...& we laughed our heads over SPF 200 products & ended the day angry (almost) coz we were denied a proper K-session coz they ate into our time...we only sang 4 2 & a half hrs & it cost $31! me & S were whining & grumbling...we were hvg a vy gd time altho our eyes r closing on us. it was also a super full day coz we were almost eating & drinking all the time frm thai express, billy bombers 2 K. i tin the tummy & bladder working super hard...ha. i started 2 miss this time last yr...when we were gg 4 the same job but i had much lesser responsibilities & dun hav 2 care so much. i can feel the stress seeping in liao...hmm, i got 2 take some deep breaths & cool down...relax. i completed the sinful weekend wif botak jones juz now...itz not tat nice in my opinion.
saw wenwei at paragon yday...still crappy as usual & YES, his hp no. nvr chg & we ended up calling him 4 the exact location of botak jones tdy also. i dun seem 2 c my frens nowadays...i ponder abt it at times & i do get a bit upset at times when i read some stuffs yet the inner me did not feel like doing anything. am i the one thinking a lot but a lot of chgs hav been taking place bah? i cun seem 2 pin my tots on it at times.
我虽然不爱孤单 却也不怕孤单
i tin this wks 4 me a lot. my tots r disoriented at this juncture...i tin itz the sleepiness & the shit awaiting frm tmr :x
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
PEEPERS!!!
something sad happened tdy. Hotmail & YAhoo Mail have been blocked in ofc! YES, itz BLOCKED. CP & i had some hoo-hah over it. we juz cun believe it happened...when will we lose gmail too? i feel so disconnected. we can only rely on the silly ofc email so tat perhaps they can spy us? haiz...life juz gets sadder when i cfm i hav 2 do 1 of my dreaded jobs. I wish i'm like SC who seems 2 be able 2 leave...SAD! training is ending soon which means the wk will start soon. a meeting on mon left me feeling a tad stressed again & i hav been gg thru the wk in my head like a few hundred times? in the best simulation, i shd be a gd guide & everything shd go fine (like they said: itz easy)...ya rite, y cun they bloody understand...i tin they got poor memories & cun remember wat they went thru. okay, i can look fwd 2 the japan trip nex yr. oh man...i cun c the bangkok trip frm here...someone/thing save me!
no interviews so far...i got sad again naturally...this kinda things mks u lose confidence. either my resume is really really bad or wat i've been doing so far isn't quite rite...i really dunno. i cun take leave on thy bf's bday. i feel so bad & SAD again.
no interviews so far...i got sad again naturally...this kinda things mks u lose confidence. either my resume is really really bad or wat i've been doing so far isn't quite rite...i really dunno. i cun take leave on thy bf's bday. i feel so bad & SAD again.
seems like quite a bit of sad things taking place...wat shd i comfort myself wif? food? clothes? hmm...maybe i shd meet S on sat aft all...we can laugh like mad again...seeing her poked face...wahahaha.
juz caught ratatouille (is it correctly spelled?)...itz rather nice...the rat's quite cute. tatz all...i dun wan someone 2 peep at me typing.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
【迦南美地】
我们在不同的环境下慢慢长大
接下来的路不知是怎样， 就像照片里的一样的不知往何处， 但不管如何都要咬紧牙关过去。。。终究会找到迦南美地。 对于人生， 我还是充满期许， 毕竟快乐的事情和遇到的好人比较多。 所有一切努力只为未来。。。而想着未来， 我想我是幸福的 ：）
用着不同的想法看着世界变化
直到我们相遇的那一刹那
心与心的碰触开始为彼此牵挂
浪漫的故事写下了一篇篇情话
虽然动人的情节难免会有分叉
但有着爱的缘故,我就不怕
直到天上来的祝福充满着希望
不管在哪里 只要和你在一起
就像走进了迦南美地
每一处都有甜蜜布满空气
爱情的真谛没有什麽能代替
不管在哪里 只要和你在一起
就像走进了迦南美地
每一天躺进爱里 握住生命
来不及回忆拥有温馨的爱意
在你我心里
【迦南美地】在兩千年前，是上帝賜給人們耕耘家園、經營夢想的應許之地，它被形容是一個流著牛奶與蜜之地，充滿著甜美的花香和豐碩的果實，代表著希望、歡樂、幸福與滿足！雖然在現實生活裡，處處充滿挫折、不安、悲傷和猜忌，人們逐漸失去了夢想，但在「迦南美地」，人們沒有貧窮、飢餓，毋須擔心、驚嚇， 歡樂取代了憂傷，幸福填補了傷痛！
就这样被歌词感动了。。。虽然非常简单， 却那么轻易打动人心。
接下来的路不知是怎样， 就像照片里的一样的不知往何处， 但不管如何都要咬紧牙关过去。。。终究会找到迦南美地。 对于人生， 我还是充满期许， 毕竟快乐的事情和遇到的好人比较多。 所有一切努力只为未来。。。而想着未来， 我想我是幸福的 ：）
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
blabberings b4 sleep...
throat still feeling a bit sore at times...therez still phelgm...i'm still sick? itz not bcoz i'm back 2 wk. i suppose me, S & J were rather noisy tdy...but they wun be ard anymore frm nex mon...how sad but all the best 2 them & DUN EVEN FORGET those internal postings! bye bye S...my dear lunch kaki & ki siao collz...
3 more days 2 go b4 weekend & nex break...how nice! & it might be hell aft tat...coz nobody has called me up rdg any jobs yet, so i guess i might hav 2 stay & 忍过 everything.
tmr's papa's bday...me & wws went 2 buy a gift 4 him juz now & i kept asking him: wat shd i buy if itz ur dad? i seriously tin i hav pro buying gifts 4 his family...coz they look like they hav most of the stuffs unlike my parents whom we hav 2 force them 2 buy things at times, so we ended up buying 4 them.
yawnz...
3 more days 2 go b4 weekend & nex break...how nice! & it might be hell aft tat...coz nobody has called me up rdg any jobs yet, so i guess i might hav 2 stay & 忍过 everything.
tmr's papa's bday...me & wws went 2 buy a gift 4 him juz now & i kept asking him: wat shd i buy if itz ur dad? i seriously tin i hav pro buying gifts 4 his family...coz they look like they hav most of the stuffs unlike my parents whom we hav 2 force them 2 buy things at times, so we ended up buying 4 them.
yawnz...
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