koon...

i nid 2 sleep!

i wan 2 SLEEP!! but my hair is still wet...

i'm a groggy, grumpy fellow these days. itz not even PMS lor...it muz be the sleep. When can everyday be a non-working day? i'm only looking fwd 2 weekends nowadays & then grumbling abt the end of it starting sat nite, then sun morn...thy BF can vouch 2 it...every wk w/o fail, his silly gf will grumble...haha

went 4 a midnite casino royale last wk...itz not exactly the best choice since at times, i cun concentrate bcoz well, itz past bedtime...i'm getting old, i cun keep late nites like this...tsk.

i shan't blabber on like this...mabe some shopping therapy will do me good...hee

almost lost it =D

i got in!! i tot i've lost this blog bcoz i juz cun recall my gmail a/c when i actually got none...haha.

hvn been blogging 4 vy long lor...busy wif wk...a job i dun like...i can cfm it more & more by the day & i'm not attempting 2 hide it when ppl ask. it dipped my life 2 a all-new low. i nvr felt i'm so lousy b4 can. itz tat serious...haha. cun wait 4 jul...btw, we better get our salary reviewed, everyone's getting a bit disgruntled too, maybe not only a bit...dun count on us lor. been hearing ppl gg over 2 aus 2 wk, gg back aus, comes frm aus...i miss the place...thy BF & i hav been comparing some places 2 Southbank but therez seriously no fight...

so i decided 2 post this "2 become 1" wannabe pic...artistic ne. realised i din take much pics of the place despite being there quite a few times...hmm. haiz...i shall suggest a family trip there in 2 yrs' time...we'll go HK & maybe japan 1st.

i wan 2 get an evening bag...4 D&D...yes, i'm gg bcoz i've nvr been 2 one b4 (dun count the one in KL). i manage 2 scramble a dress frm sis, i suppose i'll wear an old pair of heels or the new pair i bought last sat, so i nid a bag. anyway, rumaging thru my stuffs mk me realise i nid more bags (i seriously cun even find a white or beige one...OMG), shoes (blacked covered, black slip-ons & many many other colours), clothes...as thy BF said, itz nvr gg 2 be enough...NEVER!! haha...CHRISTMAS is COMING!! (for someone ~~)

FAT wans an ipod 4 her bday can, so the vy nice me am waiting 4 her reply if she wans an ipod video or normal one (i seriously hope she chooses the cheaper one bcoz thy sister is getting broke...unless i get a pay raise) & i juz told her the prez is 4 2 yrs...haha...i enjoy the look on her face...wahahahaha

FAT bought a kinda weird cake 4 her bro juz now...itz his bday...it has this biscuit bit at the bottom...& the bday boy is too full 2 eat but she doesn't care...she wans eat...wat a stupid girl...haha. itz kelly's bday too & while frantically searching 4 my secondary email juz now, i found out itz another sec sch mate's bday...blimey...is it a gd day? 1 lesser day 2 staying at tat place...itz a gd day =P

blabberings typed out on 02 Nov 06, 0.30am

i shd be sleeping...but i decided 2 write something b4 i go off...

cheated by kelly...wahahaha...she din tok 2 me 4 more than 10 sentences b4 gg off...i hope she reads this tho she'll be prob too busy. i'm not advising her on gg or staying...dun wan 2 prove extra helpful again...keke.

itz thurs loh...how happy...the wk is ending!!! YAY!!!

i'm thinking whether 2 get the purple bag frm little matchgirl...itz nice & i like the colour ley...hmm, but i juz spent $30 eating at din tai fung...can u imagine? all johnny's fault...wahaha. worst still, in the end i still din get the tix 4 phantom...haiz...i hope we get decent seats. i dun wan 2 risk getting beaten =P

i hav quite a bit of paper cuts all over my fingers...i dinno auditor = labourer at times...the boxes r so damn heavy & i always knew paper is dangerous. i cun c my bruise at my back which i got frm knocking myself against a desk...i felt so miserable then. this job really sucks at times. haha...i manage 2 tok bad abt the job again...wahaha.

juz realised my new shoes gave me blisters =Z

blabberings typed out on 29 Oct 06, 6pm

sunday is ending soon...i noe nice times fly fast...can tat be said the same of my seemingly-sucky job now? i hav no qualms 2 say i hate it. i hate it bcoz i hate it. no offence to anything or anyone. period.

spent the day watching a bit of tv, cooking pasta & barley water, cleaning up the place...left the washing 4 now. hmm, i'm not training 2 be a housewife...juz fulfilling some filial piety thing. my parents r off 2 their fave holiday destination 4 the weekend, so everyone's helping out a little & since tdy is rather hot (& i'm getting heaty, bit my lips twice =Z), so i decided 2 cook the barley water which i hope is drinkable. had a tiring but enjoyable shopping trip yday, itz a sisters' day out & funny things kept happening. angela & i were off 2 c the doc tog...we delayed the trip so much we reached the clinic at 12.30pm, almost dying of hunger then. we happily gobbled our crystal jade (btw, the spinach bacon thing i ate was vy nice, so was fat's pizza bread) breads, thinking abt the sakae lunch treat from my sis coming up @#$#@$#%&^&, her world's-BEST-local-**** delayed her leaving time & left the 2 of us flabberglasted & badly needing a seat (coffee bean's closed), we ended up at pastamania & fat (always not full enough & wan 2 eat something) tins we shd order a pasta. then the pasta came seemingly-not-very-cooked. up 2 this point, i was feeling so sucky, hvg a bad headache frm the heat & juz felt like gg home. we went 2 seiyu aft tat, aft buying things, i recovered! so miraculous huh...hee. my sis finally arrived & she's hungry, so the 3 of us went 2 sakae (finally) at 4+...& kept staring the conveyor belt, thinking therez not much we wan eat...the worst part is fat getting a headache frm watching the conveyor belt too much...she's ridiculous as ever. shopping continues aft the meal but we seem lacklustre. & sis got hungry again ard 8 2 our surprise (& agony). fat & my mealtimes were vy irregular yday...so we headed to the foodcourt where we spent half an hr thinking wat my sis shd hav...the elderly couple beside muz tin the 3 of us siao...3 persons sharing a bowl of black-rice-porridge cnt decide on main course. itz sure tough deciding 4 3 persons bcoz therez nothing we all wan 2 hav & we nearly switched destinations. when we happily settled on korean ginseng chicken, it was sold out. so aft another 'long' round of discussion, my sis bought some chinese gyozas & some hot & spicy soup which wasn't nice -_"'. when we finally reached the busstop 2 head 4 home, we saw a stall of wanton mee which looks vy nice...^&&*&($$$##@ tat concludes the day but i love spending it wif my sisters =D

watched the departed on thurs...understood y andy lau had some comments abt the amt of vulgarity in the show. it gets irritating at a point i felt like giving up the show. i cun really stand vulgar language, so i tin the original was better. andy lau is better. i felt ridiculous abt the way his character died in departed. itz like they dun hav enough time 4 tat & juz hav him die anyway.

argh, i can feel the ulcers coming up. sian...i dun wan 2 miss my food nex wk...but i better watch out in order not 2 get a sore throat. it seems like a busy wk & 1 i'll happily pass thru. thy bf is coming back nex sat. i noe everyone tins i shd be vy happy but i cun help getting emotional at times coz it wasn't easy...esp thinking abt wat the past mths hav been like. things i hav been thinking abt 4 mths r finally gg 2 happen soon bah, juz spending time & doing simple (not silly hopefully) stuffs tog & i can nag 2 him abt all things sucky in person liao...YAY!!! sometimes tho, i do hope i'm the one gg over & we r gg 2 live over there bcoz i'm juz so tired of the place (tatz how a sucky job hais u) but of coz, we hav nothing 2 be there yet & my glutton of a bf cun wait 2 be back 2 eat...his savoury glands r vy active now. i can understand. i miss the variety of food here even tho i'm only there 4 2 wks+.

a discoherent heap of stuffs written again. i juz wan 2 be able 2 recollect these tots in some time 2 come coz i noe i'll forget. i nid memory pills at times. btw, anyone nids a webcam? mine has served its purpose 4 the last time juz now...YAY!! =P

b4 i wash up...keke

i'm blogging b4 i go wash up...*to someone in particular =P

lovely...tdy is fri!!! i'm quite a fiery person tdy...due 2 the cramp...& hormonal thing...*i wan chocolates!!!* i'm thinking of shopping in this state! i wan some belts, earrings, clothes & shoes!!! i wan a haircut! shd i go 4 shoulder length? i noe i'll regret when i c all the flyaways...but sometimes i'm so tired of seeing the same me in the mirror everyday. i feel so sian of dressing up...muz be the job =P

i keep thinking my suitability on the job...itz juz not vy me...yet this is wat i kept hawking 4...haiz...so my odeon darling was vy shocked when i asked her 2 keep a lookout of jobs 4 me...haha...i like teasing her...itz vy funny...wahaha.

i'm trying 2 cancel some membership thingy i got in my 1st job...PISSED...they nvr got back...damn it, i shdn't hav procrastinate...SIAN!!

my uncle is hvg a bday dinner tmr...so funny...maybe tatz the 1st time he even had such a celebration in his life, so we muz give face...but fat already fell sick...haiz...haha. sometimes i look at my uncle & tot itz so sad not 2 hav a family by him at his age, so i try 2 be nicer (when he doesn't go out of his way 2 irritate us when he noes we will be!) =)

okay...time 2 wash up :P

random (& messy) tots...=P

i'm supposed 2 sleep...but i guess i got all the time 2 do it during the technical update tmr...ha. was told itz real boring. my latest job group seems nice...but not everyone will be back 4 the finals tho...had fun chatting & joking ard...will remember the walkthrough joke...ha. i'm in an environment where everyone is quite open abt their non-intentions 2 stay 4 long & tatz something i hav 2 get used 2...was told i'm actually in a vy gossipy environment, so always dun only c things on the surface. lately i hav been thinking wat do i wan out of this job...a smoother path 2 the nex job? meet more ppl? somehow i feel i'm still out of the picture looking at things inside...no, i'm not imagining tat i'm not in the situation but somehow due 2 past experience, i ahh, dunno how 2 express it in words...am able 2 look at certain situations & laugh it off? i'll hav frens in the co but perhaps not close...hmm, do i mind tat? i dunno...altho it seems gd 2 be involved but sometimes i'm glad i dun hav tat many contacts, i'm not energetic (& rich) 4 so many entertainments. i sounded kuku when i told ppl i love gg home aft wk...an ex-jobs cultivation. nowhere is more comfortable than home bah...i love being at home, love my family, love honey, love my bed, love the comfort & sense of belonging...i'm blabbering...haha

i got my cds, some miscellaneous & a vy ugly necklace frm my uncle, they look those u chant wif...wonder how he got himself 2 buy tat & all the way frm taiwan somemore...waste money! i spent 5 days of isolation (not much actually) when they were. finally went 4 langyi's dad's claypot rice...it was nice! itz always fun hanging out wif the gals...altho i'm kinda paiseh 2 c them still making the effort 2 accompany despite being vy tired...thks thks! *bows...we hav many yrs of friendship, so NO no signboard lah...haha.

jay singing in bossa nova...altho critics tin itz kinda weird but i tin itz nice...thinking wat he'll do in the mtv & concert...some tango? david's is well, vy david but still nice. 2 someone (pirate) in particular, i hvn (& dunno if i will) upload the album into my com.

my sis juz told me how much i still owe her...OMG...it means curbing my spending 4 another 2 mths...huh...when can i start saving? i keep thinking i nid shoes lately...stop it!!! it gets so solemn thinking of my financial status & how i hav save 4 this & tat so i hope i'll be rather busy wif wk so tat i dun get 2 spend much. thinking back...i used most of my finance 2 get myself 2 vy enjoyable & memorable trips in aus this yr, so itz worthed it & someone shd start saving 4 our HK, Japan & NZ trips in future...haha...& i hvn mentioned taiwan,bangkok, greece, ITALY, tasmania & more 2 come...ha.

speaking abt bangkok...they r experiencing a military coup. nobody noes watz gg 2 happen frm there but i juz hope no bloodshed...itz depressing seeing such news everytime. i hvn been 2 thailand b4 & i do hope 2 go 2 1 tat i've heard fondly of =)

finally we got the chalet 4 dec...thks 2 yinghui...it has sort of become a yearly thing huh...how wld things be in 3, 5 or 10 yrs' time? i noe it wun remain the same...i realised i do like reminisicing the past. i cun resist changes but some things r best left where & how they r isn't it? the world wun slow down 4 anything but itz moving so fast tat prob most of us can hardly catch it?

alrite...bedtime...YAY...2 more days 2 weekends!!!!!! =D

*is there anything u wan 2 tell me 4 tdy?* =P

*is there anything i wan 2 tell u 4 tdy?* erm, all these silly stuffs? =b

i wan to be AWAY!!!

there were times i'm grateful of the position i'm in & there were times i simply hated the position i'm in. i wish i hav a more carefree life but i cun stay unemployed. i wish i'm happier yet i'm let down by my pressure & emotions again & again. where has my inner peace gone? i keep worrying & stressing myself up...this is not wat itz supposed 2 be...wat went wrong?

telling myself: itz wk, juz wk! all in the normal course of wk! stop brooding over it will u?!

am i depressed? i tin i am. dun ask me y i got it, i wished i knew.

dun hav 2 worry...

got in finally...some pros wif logging in juz now...

itz sep liao!!! finally...i managed 2 stay 4 a mth on the job! i tin i'm beginning 2 empathise wif shiling's job sense more & more (no...i'm not fighting wif her 2 be star***'s most LOYAL employee...haha). i dun really like the enviroment...itz like a sch...scary...an extension of a certain tertiary institution. i was so not used 2 it, then i found out i lack audit sense in my brains...i'm hvg the newcomer's syndrome...confused by all the doc & how they link...maybe i do nid some homework. i'm stressing myself up again, the work perfectionist in me...i guess i really nid 2 relax but peak period is up soon & anyway, my schedule is rather packed, i'll immense myself in wk bah & try not tin so much...then there will be no more insonmia, loss of appetite...siao ley me, wk until like tat & i dun earn much 4 all this...ha

i tin i had insonmia last nite bcoz i was thinking abt life & death last nite...i was vy surprised 2 read abt crocodile hunter, steve irwin's death...my last vivid memory of him was seeing him on tv telling us not 2 bring certain items into aus while clearing customs. i remember getting quite nervy seeing tat coz i was trying 2 bring in a lotus root (under eliz's advice) which was not allowed...wat a irony & final twist 2 his life. i juz simply felt vy sad upon reading the news...the meaning here once again is u cun take things 4 granted...wat or who might be here tdy might be not the nex day...so so sad yet itz an unavoidable aspect of life. i nvr like thinking how wld i feel if ppl dearest 2 me moved out of my life 1 day, i get totally upset & terrified wif the slightest tot...i remember crying myself 2 sleep when i tot of how ppl ard me wld leave me 1 day. i do quite dread being alone when my family goes away 4 their holidays. itz so much worse than 'if u got a choice 2 be alone & u chose it'...therez like no channel 2 drive away the loneliness...maybe bcoz i do feel rather lonely at wk now...yes, i hav ppl ard me but itz juz so so diff. miss hvg juliet, doris & kelly 2 tok 2 & we can tok abt anything, dun hav 2 withhold anything bcoz we understand each other. sometimes, i asked myself, y am i struggling 2 adapt? is it really tat bad or i juz simply dun wan 2 adapt? y do i constantly affect myself wif all these tots when i hav told myself 2 let go, be myself, be happy? but deep deep inside, i noe i'm unhappy...i broke down into tears vy often, i dunno when's the last time i've laughed really happily & i tin i'm at the unhappiest period of my life so far...yet sometimes i find it hard communicating 2 ppl on my feelings. they will prob tell me itz like this or look at me like some weirdo, thinking i'm a spoilt brat who cun stand the slightest stuffs. sometimes i tin perhaps my communication is not gd, ppl mistook my points & i do get tired of toking aft a while. is changing 2 adapt the only way 4 survival? wat happens 2 happiness? dun i nid 2 be happy, if not y do i survive at all? 2 mk ppl share my unhappiness? argh...i tin i'm getting carried away wif all these, btw, ppl at my workplace r quite nice so far but...therez always a but. i miss my buddies. maybe it wld be better if therez msn during wk, at least i dun feel so disconnected.

oh no, got 2 sleep liao...itz gonna be a long day tmr...gg 4 forbidden city, actually glad i'm meeting the gals...i nid sanity BUT i dun tin they will provide me wif tat...haha.

2 mths 2 go...maybe tatz when my sanity will come back...=P

getting busy soon...

hmm, my wk schedule is starting 2 c some additions...i'm gg 2 banks...as i wld hav liked altho i dun mind some variety...juz dun put me mainly in insurance. itz kinda scary when a collz starts showing me my schedule when i came back frm lunch bcoz it was still empty when i chk my staff trak in the morn...starting 2 anticipate how it'll be like...hope i meet a nice senior like sherly. she said i'm the nicest person she met in the co so far...blimey...but itz a compliment anyway...ha & i'll consider visiting jakarta since i'll hav a guide...haha . 1 gd thing i got being in this co is tat i get 2 mix wif ppl of diff nationalities & races...i felt multi-national & itz nice 2 noe multi-cultures =) btw, therez a nice fish soup stall at amoy fd centre...long Q tho but then, there seems like Qs everywhere there. lunch is normally a sweaty affair which urs truly definitely hates, esp when the weather is vy hot now.

met pauline last nite...we went 4 the crystal jade porridge as usual...wondered if she noticed it...we went 4 tat almost everytime we met. enjoyed the chat as usual...we r both talkative...haha...reminds me of poly days...the group is vy scattered now. i hav mainly acquaintances frm tat now.

i'm craving 4 fd now!!! i keep feeling i nid fd...haha...yet i dunno wat i wan 2 eat...a plate of fried vege wld be nice =P

so my family is gg 2 taiwan in 2 wks' time...i hav nvr sort been alone in the hse 4 so many days b4...really gg 2 feel weird bah...but i'll be on a job 4 the 1st few days of their trip, so i guess prob i wun feel tat much lonely & i'll be seeing the gals during the weekend...always nice seeing them...can tok abt anything under the sun...wif no restrictions too...oh ya, shiling, ur tarot cards...haha =D

T-I-R-E-D E-Y-E-S

itz sure is damn tiring 2 be staring at computer screens 4 8 hrs a day & i already did tat 4 2 days...i can feel my eyeballs getting all starry & i'm now quite afraid of computer screens. i dunno y i'm blogging here then...another day & it will be the weekends!!! YAY!!

true love prevails all

my sis was telling us how her poly fren has broken off wif her bf of 9 yrs due 2 religious differences, she had refused 2 convert 2 his religion. tat is so sad...while it remains 2 be seen if they will still be together in the end. so itz not true love will prevail all...this world can be vy realistic aft all...ppl fell out wif each other due 2 $$$ & the smallest thing u can tin of.

so thy bf might be coming back in nov instead. hmm, i'm actually vy happy tat the days r shortened again. being apart is vy tough aft all, i hav 2 admit but true love prevails all =)

everything is fine...

was at friendster juz now trying 2 add langyi & decided 2 look thru other ppl's profiles...got reminded of the past & realised how time flew & things changed...scary at times. sometimes i tin of my age & find the rate of growth horrible. i went 2 new job 2 find most new-joiners younger than me. hmm, there were once when i was the youngest among all but slowly slowly i'm not anymore...AHHHHHHH...i wan my youth!!! tat also meant my energy, drive & heck-care attitude. i hav became a slacker, lost some drive & worst, became a worrier. i tin i worry a lot, tin a lot & sometimes i hate myself 4 tat. it wasn't like this in the past...sighz...

david tao's releasing his album tmr...& i only knew when i read i-weekly...how un-updated...i tin i'm so detached frm current affairs nowadays, so in my own world.

heard frm FAT tat 恶作剧之吻 is gg 2 be shown on channel 56 soon...how nice...another idol drama 2 go aft aft 恶魔在身边, a vy nice & sweet show. oh, shiling is gonna meet he jun xiang in her job...hope she wun drool too much...haha & dun forget our pic!!

itz fri tmr!!! working is so tiring...ha...i wan 2 travel! i wan 2 go back 2 australia!! i wan 2 travel ard the world!!! i wan a clean clean break frm everything...sometimes i tot it wld be nice if i can go somewhere where absolutely no one noes me & i dun hav 2 get 2 noe them. c...i wan 2 live in my own world...i sure itz not 自闭症...dunno y i dun like crowds nowadays...i juz wan 2 be at somewhere quiet, hvg some peace of the mind. i muz be tired. i tin too much. everything is still fine. meeting the acca gang later...hope i wun fall sick...ha.

oh ya, david david...but the 1st single sounds a bit weird altho he's vy gd as usual...btw, his new hairstyle a bit weird =P

Harbourtown!!

ooh, Harbourtown 4 today!! dunno itz a coincidence or wat...i visited the same place on my last thurs here 4 last trip too...blimey...anyway, i'm gg there 4 a walk (hope & tin so...) BUT hope 2 get some cheap officewear...a CHEAP blazer suit wld be vy vy nice man...keke.

currently on a show called 'my name is earl' which is recommended by eliz to thy BF aka her stranger. 4 some strange (or silly) reasons, thy BF likes calling it 'a man called earl'...i guess he's too infatuated wif the story 'a man called Horse'...too many yrs of slavery 2 daph maybe...haha or Mr Carry's sleep-inducing literature class. anyway, tat show is nice...kinda different...hmm, perhaps the 1st english serial thing i tin i will be watching all episodes. itz basically abt this guy called earl gg wif a list 2 start making up 4 all the bad things he tin he did...hmm, how long wld my list be if i hav 1? maybe i shd ask angela abt it...i'm sure she will come up wif many of mine...oops =P

tdy i'm quite inspired BUT i hav 2 go bath now...thy BF will be back in another half an hr or so...there will be no Harbourtown if i continue nua-ing...

3 days b4 gg back sg...haiz.

time FReeZe....

i'm sure everyone hav moments when they wished time can be stopped in this spectrum. juz here, neither less nor more, juz here...if time stops at this moment, i will be in brisbane in 1 of my many lazy mornings...sometimes i'm surprised at how much i wan 2 stay here & not go back 2 s'pore (at least 4 a while). i feel vy relaxed here & it helps a lot tat itz winter now (cold tho...brrr...) while i hav 2 go back 2 face a new job & the HEAT...sian sian sian!! a week has passed w/o much notice...will someone give me the power 2 freeze time?

itz officially 6 mths!!

okay...time 2 tidy the room...hee =P

blabberin's,,,

i'm hvg a break...flying off tmr...Wooooh...how nice!!! sometimes i tot itz incredible tat this is the 3rd time i'm gg back (mum sure hopes therez no 4th time...wahaha). itz winter there! nvr experienced winter all my life...except genting & tat bit of wintry feeling in HK. I wan my red rooster, pancakes, pancakes, coles, woolsworth...& many more...whahahaahah. i already told someone tat many many times...hahaha.

listening to The Calling's Wherever You Go...i dun remember the full lyrics but listening 2 the chorus brought out a bit of the emotional me (again)...itz almost 6 mths...yet it always seems like itz still 6 mths ago sometimes.

missing eliz...

hmm, eliz muz be so busy in melb...juz wan 2 tell her TAT woman shifted out liao...but still @@#$$%$^$. sometimes it nvr pays 2 be kind & considerate, ppl juz take advantage of tat. @@##$%#^^ again...haha.

missing eliz (a little...hahaha)...wait till u r back...babe.

**~~^friday^~~**

so itz supposed 2 be lunchtime now...dunno where 2 lunch...u c how gd life is...u actually dunno wat 2 eat, where 2 eat while some ppl simply hav nothing 2 eat. i shall take my morn breakfast muffin 1st then...

i finally feel tired aft almost a wk of staying late...broke the record last nite: leaving the office at 12am...while i've stayed overnite 4 prev job b4, if i remembered correctly, i nvr stayed 4 consecutive this long 4 overtime. testing my mettle...coz nex job will be worse. spent most of my $$$ on cabfares...nvr taken so much cab all my life. hvg puffy eyes tho...dunno y...i juz woke up in the morn wif them & my concealer is finally proving itz worth again...trying hard 2 cover the eye problems...haha.

so the world cup has started & i hvn been able 2 catch my fave italy (actually 2 be more precise, it shd be Mr Filippo Inzaghi of the Italian team...wahaha) in action. i agree wif eliz tat Starhub (i hope a certain employee is reading this) shd dedicate a channel 2 filming the bench...wahaha. i watched some matches hoping in vain tat they will shoot the bench. of coz they did...giving us the coach...oh pls...give the other benchwarmers some credit can? give them some screentime...in this case, give Inzaghi more screentime i mean...wahaha. my fave player got into his team despite only coming back frm injury a while ago, tat prob deserve a mention somewhere? i better stop or in this semi-unconscious state of mind, i'm sure i can come up wif something sillier of ways 2 c Inzaghi. lately, i was telling my sisters tat Inzaghi prob cun wait 4 me 2 save up enough 2 go watch him...quite sad actually...it wld be some dream 2 c him in real person, in a way, we r growing old tog...oops...ha. the most ideal final shd involve italy & vy vy ideally, inzaghi 2 score the winner! hahaha...Fat can tell u i say this vy often...bcoz when this happens, inzaghi will hog the limelights & can c a lot of him everywhere! yay...haha

flying off 2 aus again nex mth...hope the travel agent got everything rite...this lady is quite funny but nice...hee. i had 2 explain watz an underscore 2 her & i still dun get my email...wahaha. itz winter season over there now...woh, 1st time experiencing winter...so exciting...keke.

itz fri...YAY!!! another week has passed! jun is turning out 2 be passing so fast, perhaps bcoz of the rain...itz so weird 2 c grey skies most of the time in this mth...mks u feel like u r already at the end of the yr =)

FRI FRI FRI...yay!

itz fri tmr...YAY!!!

when u r working, u remember when all the public holidays r & look fwd 2 weekends all the time...haha.

i was trying 2 look 4 an old pair of specs...cldn't find it & as usual, i noe itz somewhere in my hse, juz dunno where...hee. letting Fat c my specs...u c...she's a budding optometrist so we r all vy gd practice material 4 her but my mum is proving vy tough 4 her bcoz she's giving ans tat well, u really wunno how 2 diagnose her...wahaha.

met wif 2 absurd matters at wk these 2 days. i cun help but feel relieved tat i'm leaving the place soon. i would like 2 clarify tat being quiet at wk doesn't mean i'm always tat quiet, not sociable & worst of all, hav no frens! OMG!!! i juz dun wan 2 socialise wif certain ppl when i dun c the need 2. ya, i noe these kinda ppl might be everywhere & even in new workplace but ppl here r so extreme i juz wan 2 stay away frm them. therez 1 thing tho, i shd brush up on my communication skills...will be taking this challenge 4 new job & looking fwd 2 it.

oh, i wish ppl wun say i'm rich when i speak abt plans of visiting aus again. u dun hav 2 empathise wif me & i'm not expecting everyone 2 understand but i'm not gg over bcoz i hav excess $$$ which i dunno where 2 spend on.

i'm interested in the new samsung E870...interested (only) bcoz i hav no budget 4 it...wahaha. actually the real thing doesn't look as nice or sleek as on the brochure...keke.

GSS is on & i'm proud 2 say i hav bought almost nothing yet...but soon (i feel itz soon) i'll be contributing 2 the economy...i wan a black working bag, covered shoes, suits, shirts, in general formal wear...when will there always be enough $$$ 4 all these?

oh ya, i donated blood 4 the 1st time last sun. the feeling of giving is gd. i'll be doing it again. how cld ppl not wan be kind & nice? doesn't doing a gd deed mks u so much happier than always thinking of ways 2 triumph over ur rivals? maybe itz bcoz we r human aft all.

NEW...

oh, gd morn! juz went 2 chk on my financial status & wat a sigh i had 2 give...seems tat i can only start saving frm jul...HAI HAI HAI! itz so so sad 2 c ur saving dwindling 2 the lowest point & realise my aim this yr wun be reached =(

other than the above which is actually a serious pro in my mind...i FINALLY got into where i wan 2 be & FINALLY i'm getting started on wat i've planned 4 & FINALLY leaving a place where the human factors r threatening 2 jeopardise serious wk...where ppl r rewarded 4 wat they hav not done...where some of the ridiculous stuffs unfold b4 ur eyes or ears...but itz a vy gd lesson on office politics...a real eye-opener. i muz say itz a relief when i got the call of offer...now anticipating the new job challenges & wat i noe my stint there will bring. itz gd 2 be 2 be anticipating a new phrase in life. u get more optimistic & suddenly everything seems so so bright & u hav an incredible amt of drive 2 achieve. gd gd...this is indeed gd.
while there were countless disappointments, the ending is still vy sweet...juz tat it wasn't easy & i'll treasure it more. i've learnt a lot of stuffs during this period & the support i've reci is so sweet & touching despite my constant whines & groans (i really whine a lot can...haha). the support frm the odeon gang is esp dear 2 the heart. frm them, i noe there can be genuinity among frens at wk, unlike the OP i heard abt in & hav 2 face in wk everyday now, i can sense the genuine happiness, wishes & support which re-affirms the fact tat frens r not by quantity but quality. i dun nid much frens juz a few who can share ups & downs will do. glad 2 say frens (& i dun mean acquaintances) ard me hav been patient in listening 2 my grouses...ha. oh, FAT & Da JIE too...sharing part of my 'miserable sufferings'...they suffer more bah...wahaha. finally, thy BF who suffered the worst, every tiny bit of complaints goes 2 him. so gd lah, itz over...4 now...until the new job starts...wahaha.

meeting pauline 2 SHOP later...i shd keep a hold on myself...juz get the shoes i wan & tatz enough. maybe suits since itz GSS & things r on sale...ARGH...u c, this is how it goes & the list juz grows...

7 mths 2 go...a lot of things 2 anticipate. when i tot i wun be so much affected again, there will always be stuffs 2 remind me tat i am...i noe y is tat so.

过敏

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸 怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线
一点一点 没知觉

泛红双眼 不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸 特效药也 无解
才发现 我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
OH过敏源 是对你的思念

我想我 才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变
是想念 没断线

泛红双眼 不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸 特效药也 无解
才发现 我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
OH过敏源 是对你的思念

我想我 才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变 是想念 没断线

我想我 才发现
感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界
OH过敏源 是为你流的泪

我想我 才了解
就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变
是眼泪 弄湿脸

我想我 才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变 是想念 没断线
季节一直变
但我的心 没有变

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸 没知觉

still at wk...tin i'm falling sick soon...normally my throat will give way 1st. my poor body, tin i've been giving it too much pressure. i shd take better care of myself =P

***+++***

here i am...finally at home aft a long day...

went 4 an interview at ex-co...went back 2 a familiar yet unfamiliar environment & it might be an environment i hav 2 face everyday soon. & the SAME old ppl it seems...cun exactly describe the feeling...but i agree wif wat johnny said, i shd concentrate on earning some keep. when i'm lost on my career choices now, it is made worse when ppl attempt 2 give me advices...well, i do appreciate the fact tat they tried 2 give some opinions but they r not me & they dunno wat is gg thru me now, dunno how i'm feeling now, dunno wat is it i really really wan, so it gets tiring explaining y am i taking the path i am taking & the reaction u got when u told y am i doing all these. i'm really appreciative abt the concern & there might come a day i regret not taking the path i shd but every cloud has its silver lining & u nvr noe wat life has in store 4 u. most imptly, i understand tat itz prob hard 4 ppl 2 understand wat i'm gg thru when they hvn been thru it.

enough of heavy stuffs...sharing some pics taken in melb...


some demonstration thing outside the melb library...nvr seen tat b4 u c...suagu so take pic lor...anyway not i take...ha

the touristy Queen Victoria market...vy much like our pasar malams...a so-so place in my opinion. the wet market was nice tho...but i love the supermarkets in aus i guess...shd hav taken pics of coles & woolsworth...wahaha

the lovely clouds taken on board the flight 2 melb...we flew on jetstar btw & the cabin crew were showing the life-saving instructions live...eye-opener 4 the vy suagu me again...keke

weird...cun upload the other pics...another day liao...

got the academic dress 4 this sat's graduation...the hat looks so kuku & as usual, bcoz i hav a big head, so i nid a bigger one but the worst shock was when Fat said i shd take a bigger one...OMG! we were discussing tat we r not excited abt the ceremony at all. maybe the excitement will come on the day itself bah. went 2 thai express 4 dinner juz now, it was not bad...i tin thai desserts r so yummy albeit a bit too sweet...it will suit thy BF tho...Giant Coconut has a sweet tooth, unfortunately his gf is gd at cooking bland fd, so he better enjoys all tat he can now...haha. hmm, but at least i cook, altho nid more improvements...hee.

i shd Zzz soon...or i might end up sleeping at wk tmr...btw, wld u ever stay at a job 4 a LONG LONG time even tho u tin ur collz sucks? sometimes, ppl really amazed me...amazing.

P.I.M.P.L.E.S.

wif the aftermath of visiting a fabulous place & a wonderful trip came OMG...PIMPLES!!! tin the face is trying 2 adjust back 2 the surroundings & climate, so quite a few has popped up...SAD!!! hopefully itz only 4 the moment now...=S

aft 3rd day of wk, i still seem 2 hav no feelings twds new job. bad...haha. hopefully my ideal situation will happen. there r no jap shuai ges in the co...discussing it wif kelly this aft reminds me of IN of ex-co & of coz SY. now i appreciate them better...wahaha. well, the MD is not bad-looking but he sure has a fiery temper...he seems 2 wan blow up everyday...wonder when will i c the volcano erupting...heard itz quite scary...oh well. i c a diff working style in new co which is not bad at all...i can learn 2 c which r efficient & which r needless. new co has so many procedures tat i'm trying 2 adjust 2 & oh, so many undercurrents...nobody seems 2 like anybody...& everyone seem 2 hav worked there 4 long or VY long...佩服，佩服。

enough of wk. i nid shoes...i cun find shoes 4 wk. 2 pairs of slip-ons. itz time 2 get 2 back 2 heels. maybe i shd get suits also or a blazer jacket will do. hmm, when is iora hvg their sale?

oh ya, disclaimer, i hope my 'loyal' readers hav noticed tat i weren't the author 2 the last entry. itz not too me rite? i dun openly praise my bf & tin all my frens shd like him (2 pacify my frens) altho he's great, sweet, attentive...blah blah blah (not listing all in case my frens anti this blog but actually, itz mainly 2 pacify him) =P

大小姐日记 （2）

Time: 1850 (Brisbane time)

Time to departure: 5 more hours

心情： 好想哭

原因：can't bear to leave wws

The past 18 days

The past 18 days have been wonderful...spent most of my time on the bed...sleeping...and not to mention using computer...stupid wws...always go to school or sleep...no time for me :( BUT...he has been such a wonderful boyfriend to me. To all my female friends...get someone who is at least half as gd as him...and yah...you ppl must be blind not to go after him... :P

What can i say....breakfast in bed...no need to do anything...free driver...someone to ill-treat...in short, everything a woman can ask for...sigh...why do i have to leave so soon...*sob...

That sob reminded me...i've been crying for the past few nights...eyes swollen...if u see me, DO NOT ASK ME WHY!! i'll bite...

Oh well...time to enjoy his company once again...Cya back in spore!!

ps: think i will regret putting in this post (boost his ego) so i might remove or add in a disclaimer later...enjoy it while u can!!

大小姐日记 （1）

itz 9.06am brisbane time now which means itz only 7.06am in sg now, tat tells the pathetic state of msn.

ms 大小姐 aka myself actually noes how 2 use the microwave 2 heat up some donuts 4 breakfast but seeing the state the topping melts...hmm, sighz. wws aka Daddy or Giant Coconut has gone out till the aft, so his pathetic gf has 2 fend 4 herself during these hrs. wonder if i'll be able 2 sleep again later =P

juz came back here frm melb last nite. itz a COLD COLD place...wat a new experience. melb is more cosmopolitan & crowded & so confusing. we spent quite sometime finding our way ard: 2 hrs finding our accomodation, gg round the city countless times 2 find a destination...the street signs r so BIG u prob get ready a bino & it doesn't help tat sometimes we only hav a map which shows the main roads & streets & i still cnt recognise the streets w/o seeing the signs. despite all those minor hiccups, melb seems a great place, a mixture of modern cosmopolitan wif nature. their natural scenaries r breathtaking altho the wow factor dies down aft a while...therez lotsa amazing views starting frm bells beach, great ocean road where u can c the 12 apostles & london bridge. in my opinion, i was more awestruck wif london bridge...i juz tot the structure is majestic but the camera sadly cld only survive 1 pic there. it was mostly raining during our trip on the great ocean road & itz so freezingly cold, luckily i bought tat $3.90 gloves, it was so much used thru-out the melb trip. the nex day, we drove out 2 philip island by ourselves 2 watch the penguin parade. frankly speaking, i tot the walk back aft the parade was so much more interesting than the parade itself. u can c the penguins more upclose, they r so CUTE!!! had 2 resist 2 smuggle one back...haha. it was also freezingly cold there. & oh ya, i tin melb has better shopping, they hav some streets 4 budget shopping but i tot we were quite curbed, din exactly spend a lot...tin so...haha. now tat we r back here, i'm actually missing it a little...the weather bah...i dun wan go back sg liao...keke.

juz tot of some stuffs ms 大小姐 cld actually do...unpacking all the stuffs but cun wash the dirty clothes coz she amazingly doesn't noe how 2 use the washing machine. yes, she's tat spoilt & clueless. she prob spoilt the microwave 4 all she noes. or i cld upload the photos too...get ready 4 our supermarket shopping later...we r cooking in tonite! =b

ending here...doing something...dunno wat tho...sleep the most likely...haha =]

Same side of the moon

Same side of the moon

I'm looking out the window
Where we sat to watch the stars
There's a chill within the air
It makes my heart long for your touch
You may be miles away
But as I kneel to pray

I see the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all the tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

I picture you across the ocean
In your corner of the world
I pray the wind will blow my voice
And gently whisper in your ear
Your night may be my day
And though the seasons change

It's still the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all the tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

all courtesy of shiling...thks gal, my great buddy! sad 2 be missing the sex & the city 'party' during gd fri but we'll mk it up another day, i will pluck u some lavanders & give u a NEW koala bear keychain...haha.

1st heard this song when i was watching a taiwanese serial...tot it was vy nice...then caught it live at esplanade during 1 NY eve, listening 2 this song under the stars juz brings out the whole atmosphere...corrine may's voice is so so soothing...now i can totally relate 2 the lyrics. 2 only say itz nice wld be an understatement 2 the song. addicted 2 it now...=]

itz 7 days 2 THE trip...i anticipate yet dread...maybe i shdn't tin so much of when it ends. it dampens the mood a little. i shd start packing soon, judging by it seems tat i'll be bringing quite a bit of stuffs...hee.

一分钱，一分货

i believe in 一分钱，一分货. i bought 2 $5 items frm chinatown yday aft signing the appt letter (YES, i FINALLY get a job...). The bag's button already fell off this morn & i spent half of my bus journey trying 2 get it back, luckily i succeeded. i heard the colour will stick onto clothes too...so basically u spend $5, u get quality of $5. hope the shawl will at least last me 3 mths? oh ya, & itz YELLOW...hee. went shopping wif lily (we din wan 2 shop at 1st :P) ynite & i managed 2 curb myself quite a bit. here r my 'adventures':

1. i told myself i shd be able 2 get a decent pair of slippers frm my home collection, so i put back the one at m)phosis & decided 2 give my bag 2 my sis, then i dun hav 2 buy one 4 her...ha
2. i tin i dun hav a nice back, so i decided against the spaghetti straps & tubes at mango...keke
3. the Q was too long 4 a trial at Zara & dun hav my size, so ya nex time lah...
4. DKNY aft sale is still too ex...wahaha
5. din find the YELLOW cardigan i wanted at isetan or rather, i had wanted 2 go isetan scotts where there r more stuffs...maybe i'll find my YELLOW stuffs then...hee
6. i did not get the privilege card frm sis 4 shoes at charles & keith...hoho

i finally succumbed at forever 21 where i bought a turtleneck top again...it was really nice lah. i nearly bought somemore...& realised yday tat this shop has got nice clothes aft all...hmm, ya...haha! had the lettuce-wrap-meat 'burger' at mos again yday & it was such a mess...too much sauce...haha. had some fun wif tat ki siao woman too...haha...kinda missing sch days where all of us can ki siao tog...sadly, 4 the graduation ceremony nex mth, only half of the gang will be there...missed dancing Q esp...the 3 of us were supposed 2 be tog.

i realised i din get anything done mentioned in my last blog...i'm quite gd at gg out-of-point huh...no gd ne.

jetting off 2 brisbane in 2 wks' time...so excited & happy! =b we might be gg 2 melbourne, therez this great ocean road which seems vy nice...woo...i tin i might really wan stay there & not come back...which mom will surely not allow. my mommy is so afraid of her daughter getting into trouble wif the authorities wif the tax filing deadline & election coming up...had 2 keep reassuring her & made sure i settled all possible b4 moving off.

gossip can be so harmful yet entertaining at the same time...we can get hurt by it yet thrive on it. circle of life perhaps.

14 more days...woohoo!

itz 三八妇女节...

i tin i'm so capable of stressing myself all up. stressed over life, over being sort-of jobless...career blah blah blah. y do we like thinking so much sometimes? 4 a better future? bcoz every decision we make now might well affect wat might be a great future? so wat is a GREAT future? i attempt 2 lead my life my own way, then found tat sometimes i hav 2 succumb 2 reality. am i happy? do i wan things this way? i convinced myself accepting things the way it is & always nvr believe the surface of things but is it working? am i happy at the end of the day? Is ALL these seriously wat i really really wan? so wat is it tat i wan then? do i really really nid 2 noe wat is it tat i wan or i cld juz take things as they come, maybe i'll be happier tat way. serious. some ppl r wasting their lives away in other ppl's opinions but they r happy, so watz the balance here? so many ppl out there might not really noe they wan...like me, i hav chg my ideas & plans how many times since i ever came up wif one? so hvg a goal in life is like a guideline but 2 succeed, things hav 2 wk at the rite time, ppl & place wif an amt of luck.

so i got an job offer yday & i'm still asking myself: wat is it tat is holding me back frm working there? i find an inside force so strong within apparently telling me 2 hold back but reality tells me 2 go ahead. & wat is it i really wan? i also cun come up wif a certain ans: banking, finance or auditing? hopefully sy can really help lah. oh ya, this cute (wahaha) ex-boss gave us a treat at Keyaki last thurs. we chatted wif no restrains, it was a vy nice feeling, brings back fond memories of odeon towers. missing the lunch sessions, mad rush 4 sales, noisy office, bk breakfasts, birthday celebrations wif cakes frm furama, tokyo bananas, bitching together, mac meetings, eerie office, secrets sharing in the toilet, jap collz wif their funny english...& many else but sy asked me 2 go somewhere wif better salary, prospects blah blah blah. juliet was the most pitiful, it muz be terrible hearing the way 1 of the shareholders of the co tok abt itz pros & it reaffirms the fact tat he's really a businessman. wonder if he has vacancies in HK...hmm. btw, the sashimi at Keyaki rocks. it was so fresh, so sweet, so tasty i tin i do take sashimi now. cun wait 4 the jun treat now, if it ever happens...haha.

oh, speaking of wat i wan now:

1) saw 2 vy nice YELLOW knitwear & sweater at esprit yday.
2) a hair trim...shd be gg 4 it this sat.
3) get 2 more ear-holes (is tat wat u call tat? i forgot.).

ya, 4 now, these 3 shd suffice. i cun buy any skincare or comestic pdts coz my face is undergoing treatment. vy soon, i will look as nice as the photoshop pic...haha. oh, got somemore, the $5 bag & shawl which i can get frm chinatown. i shd chk those out...haha

meeting ivy later...hvn seen her pretty face 4 like...a yr? shd be since last cny. she's ALWAYS rejecting my dates...sob. i shd take a gd look at her later, if not it will be another yr soon...haha.

oh ya, Happy 三八妇女节! shiling reminded me of it juz now...we shd celebrate this day together...wahaha...OUR day...wahaha +eliz & kim...haha. btw gal, i do feel vy entertained reading ur blog but u seldom update it nowadays...so sad...when shall we go 4 the tea thing at seah st?

花儿般的坚强

爱在孤独中绝望 在绝望中坚强

忽然喜欢上这句歌词。。。就这么简单 ;)

blabberings...

the 1st thing i wan say in this post is:

I PASSED MY FINAL PAPERS!!!

yes, so i'm officially an ACCA affliate now...finally...aft 3 yrs which isn't bad at all...keke. i'm amazed even at myself...heard how bad the exams can get & i can tell u itz REALLY VY BAD, i cleared all w/o repeating! i tin i'm so lucky & muz thk the following ppl:

1. Family: everyone's cooperation & care helps a lot...mum's amulet water, sis' 爱心water, honey's SUPER late nites blah blah blah...my family ties r strong & tat says all.
2. My lovely Jap ex-boss: if not 4 the study leaves, i might not hav made it. despite all my whinings, he's still a nice boss...well, my home com, $500 brisbane allowance & other miscellaneous stuffs. i shd hav been nicer but tat was a younger me. lesson learnt & reminded.
3. Juliet: during my study leaves, she had 2 'tong' alone...thks! this is a friendship tat will bring us 2 greater heights =)
4. Johnny: THKS THKS THKS! a big part in me clearing my final papers...lessons in life & my counsellor too...this is something 4 life too.
5. acca kakis: thks 4 the support given all thru the period...u guys r great!
6. Mr Driver: thks 4 the rides but u got ur rewards liao so ya...hee
7. Friends: thks 4 all the gd luck msgs, prayers blah blah blah...it wks...haha

anyone i left out is purely incidental & not intentional...wahaha.

in the light of happiness, i hav more pimples popping out...ARGH!!! itz real frustrating but also gave me a chance 2 c how photoshop is used...amazing too. i decided...i'll c a doc 2 fix it if it continues...i cnt live wif it anymore...almost!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

but i was given a nokia 7600 (the look like a leaf one) 2 try out...ya, my once-lovely samsung x430 is peeling like mad but i'm still a samsung mobile phone supporter...i'm so used 2 its functions tat i tried using them on the 7600. not 2 say of coz i was cursing at how bad it is *i miss my samsung!!!* but i tin the phone is vy cute, so i shall bear wif it 1st lah & pls bear wif me 4 the SLow replies too...i hav 2 get used 2 the phone which obviously i'm hvg pros now.

so i can put off buying a hp 4 a while (yes, a while coz i still miss samsung u c...) but when's the metro 20% storewide discount thing coming again? my kose black mask is almost out...wonder if it can last me this sun...sob. been looking at masks nowadays...i'm interested in a cold mask which i can apply aft my own facial & other types of miscellaneous masks. oh ya, & those pimple plasters where u sticked overnite & the nex day it disappears...i NID tat too & urgently. i'm quite sure i did tin of getting something else too but dun remember now. oh, i wan a shawl...a nice golden yellowish one. yes, i love things yellow & green nowadays.

i'm gg 2 brisbane again...yes, i'm still thinking if i shd get the Maxfactor stuffs...i quite like this brand but itz not available in s'pore & i still hav the lip gloss i bought last yr which i used like once or twice? but the nail polish was nice. oh, i'll get 2 go 2 harbourtown this time...YAY!!! & it will be autumn when i go over...sounds vy nice...hee. hoping 2 c yellowish leaves & trees...u c them in autumn rite? *fingers crossed*

watched brokeback mountain last nite. i wld call it a nice show but itz so weird seeing 2 guys in love & them kissing & even sexual scenes, it was juz hard 2 get emotionally involved in the show...hmm & it doesn't help tat shiling cracked something abt the guys beside her & i tot of the guys ARD us...ya, u noe who lah...haha. no offence meant tho.

lately i had 2 say quite a lot in 1 post...they juz came 2 my mind...ha.

Happy V-Day!

phew, juz finished wif my NEW resume & sent it 2 edwin 4 some reviews. it sure seems better now...hope it wks...*winks*

watched 'i not stupid too', itz nicer than i expected altho i find things getting dramatic twds the end & the ladies beside was laughing every possible moment, even the sad parts...wat a direct contrast 2 my 'lovely' younger sis who suffered frm swollen eyes aft tat...haha. on the way back on the bus, sis (elder one) & i were discussing abt parenting, parents & child issues...hmm, making me tin a bit.

i finally sort-of mapped out my future career plan but still subject 2 my results. oh ya, judgement day's nex mon...still pondering if shd take leave tat day coz in my best imagination, i tin i'll cry either way of the results. speaking of it really mks me nervy...sian.

Happy Valentines DAy! i'll be spending my evening wif 2 lovely ladies but we reckon itz gonna be super crowded everywhere & each yr, we complained abt the same old things...haha.

To: Mr U-noe-who-u-r-&-i-noe-U-r-reading,
nex yr, i tin i will love somewhere quiet & peaceful...keke & oh ya, something my sistas wld love 2 hear...the bill's on u 4 this yr too?

PS: pls dun drop any comments, u might well offend the ladies & i hav 2 spend tdy alone...=P

oh oh oh, INZAGHI scored a hat-trick yday & the other goal was scored by Gilardino. shucks, a match i wld relish watching but i decided 2 be more peaceful. wanted 2 upload a pic of them tog but itz not working...nvm, i shall save up 2 c them in person soon ;D

care care CARE!!!

juz watched 霍元甲...itz fab. the movie was vy fast-paced which was gd coz we wun fall asleep but it has a sort-of sad ending...soppy. we din wan 2 leave when the credits came coz jay's song hav not came out...wahaha & when it did, we REALLY dun feel like leaving...=P

i shd get the jay dvd soon but i'm planning my money vy carefully nowadays. not tat it wks most of the time...got myself a black turtleneck when i was waiting 4 shiling 2 reach juz now. ya, excuses...i tot itz suitable 4 my nex job...keke. this is watz happening...seriously, when i get a job, itz gg 2 pay 4 many things:

1) insurance (due in mar...my heart is bleeding...)
2) taiwan in aug/sep (my poor parents...the trip juz keep getting delayed due 2 me...sorry)

& other stuffs like:

3) new set of comestics
some of my stuffs were bought like yons ago...not even sure if itz safe 2 continue using...haha. i saw this brochure frm isetan abt paul & joe...sounds interesting (okay, i'm more interested in the free bag once u spend $120...itz really nice =P). stila is another interesting brand. so i decided: bodyshop's not bad & itz price will allow me 2 splurge on lancome & stila. anyone has any idea on gd WATERPROOF mascara? i dun wan 2 look like i've been punched everytime i use the current maybelline one but it sure lengthens the eyelashes...amazing. oh, i nid concealer too...the current mac one is not bad but shall c if therez any nicer ones...keke. too bad, prescriptives's not available now...juz when i decided 2 use it...sad. lately, i tin the face shop's not bad...i like their $2.50 nail polishes. i shd get a blue one since i hav pink, yellow, green...so little? oh, then i wan black, white, maroon...aiyoyo, so many stuffs & no money...SAD!

4) skincare products
okay, my 神奇水's running out...my fave lancome moisturiser's out yons ago...i'm vy sad! not tat the current loreal one is bad...itz gd too but the lancome one was fabulous. u can feel the moisture on ur face aft application. itz super absorbent & i can apply the sunblock rite aft. well, the price matters too. Sis juz bought the lancome SPF50 sunblock (2 my relief...dun wan freckles...) & the price has risen, so i tin itz the same 4 the moisturiser. if u even nid a long lasting eye serum, try clarins...my current one muz hav lasted me at least more than a yr...gulp & itz stopping me frm trying out my new SK-II eye treatment film...still new bcoz itz there lying 4 so many mths & i cun use it =( i quite like my current pdts but the acne lotion frm my facial place wld be vy nice coz it wks. hmm, origins & shu uemura seems nice but i'm sticking wif my lancome, clarins & SK-II 4 now. dun be mistaken, i also use ginvera cleanser & marvel gel, eversoft toner (swears by it!), loreal moisturiser & pore refiner, za nose peel, blotters & exfoliator. too bad, i'm not a convincing spokesman of all the above pdts mentioned coz of my pimply face...i'm quite prone 2 them...SAD! tin i'll get the acne lotion once i can...dun wan 2 risk gg 4 facial now, i'm sure i'll spend more than i cld there.

so i'm a typical woman aft all. i find it vy scary aft writing out the stuffs but at least now i hav a clearer mind on wat i'm using...haha. this entry's basically a recollection so tat i'm not leaving anything out & not using. oh, i forgot the ever trusty & useful lip balm...like david tao, i bring them everywhere & apply anywhere coz u really feel the difference aft using them. hmm, i'm lacking care on my body, shall look into tat...OMG!!! am i sure i'm gg 2 spend almost all my $$$ on all this? itz worthed it...i hope i look 20 when i'm 30 =P

5) a bday prez 4 Small Fat...she wun give up the chance 2 'chop' me...hoho

6) bags...i promised i wld consider carefully b4 juz getting any bags...no impulse buys! bro juz came back frm bangkok w/o anything (YES, not even the bags i requested 4!) 4 me...had 2 pretend i din mind while Small Fat get like 2 FAKE adidas bags (hahaha...so u noe she's carrying a fake one if u c her...wahaha), 2 jackets, some necklaces. wait till i get there myself...hehe.

7) shoes...how can any outfit be complete w/o shoes? waiting 4 the m)phosis sale tho...their shoes r quite comfy & itz vy CHEAP during their sales & did i mention i saw this lovely dress there the other day & decided against splurging?

8) handphone...actually i shd ignore the rest & do something abt this 1st. my once-lovely samsung X430 is peeling & the phone juz looks like it really wans me 2 give up using it coz it was all vy well aft a few mths back...well, i'm eyeing another samsung phone, panasonic's fine too. samsung E770...seems not bad but shiling was telling me abt E760...tempting.

aft toking so much...i realised i shd get a job aft all. tat might solve all of the above...slowly but at least solving...hey, therez the $10m toto draw on fri...hope mum has bought 4 me...WISHING =)

远远在一起...

shiling was telling me abt this song last nite...

多一秒世界就会被淹没
你还像个巨人紧紧拥抱找
离开你变得渺小的自我
很想从此就卑微的渡过

失去真爱
只剩快乐残骸
已感觉不到任何的存在

还是爱着你
只是我们之间有了距离
远远爱着你
就算不能够在靠近
同样的天空下总会有你

站在时间面前没法撤退
我们像两颗告别的尘灰
记得拥抱时天地有多美
记得没有谁能将这摧毁

寻觅真爱
跌进人山人海
才发现没有线索可倚赖
不管我们之间什么距离
就算不能够再靠近
ha……
就算在不同国度里 有你

this was composed by david but i still prefer 再一次拥有 by the same singer but oh well...ya...=)

tired tired week...

i always tot my blog template is so bland but i dun bother 2 do much 2 it. basically i tin i'll make do wif something simple.

tired man...how can i outfight the chinatown crowds tmr? i shd try 2 convince my parents on gg somewhere, if not i tin aft the whole thing, i'll probably be too shacked out 2 join 4 the ktv...hmm but i'll give in 2 them if they really wan go bah...i can always siam earlier...heehee.

is life abt facing dilemmas? i dinno wat 2 do wif my career. hmm, i got 2 decide wat is it i wan b4 moving 2 the nex step. ideally, i wld love 2 join 1 of the big 4 (actually only pwc...keke) 2 do auditing but they r not calling me. eh, i did reci 1 frm ey asking abt an internship...sighz, y cun they tell me they r not employing me bcoz my results r not out...they sounded quite lame BUT if ey wans me aft tat, i reckon i'll still join them...haha. well, itz no use holding on 2 too much of tat thing called pride. pride is a hinderance 2 success. i hav no doubt therez so much i yearn 2 achieve & i noe my abilities...oh, i'm sounding super self-confident now it seems, so long itz not cocky. so long i keep my dignity. therez a diff between pride & dignity...dun believe? chk it.

juliet suggested tat we start doing part-time a/cs & when we r ready, we'll plunge into providing accounting services full-time...not a bad idea...suits my personal goal & the fortune-telling tat i wun be satisfied working 4 other ppl but i reckon i'm still too inexperienced. i shd give myself more time 2 gain experience in other areas. reci a call frm kelly rdg joining her company but we din manage 2 tok much tho. my concerns 4 gg there wld be itz a shipping company & japanese-owned again...hmm, but they r owned by mitsubishi corp tho, now tatz a diff matter altogether as mitsubishi is 1 of the top 3 firms in japan. i worry abt my accounting experience becoming too specialised & if itz anytime 2 join auditing, it wld be now. dilemma dilemma!!! i tin i dun hav 2 worry too much...take it as it comes...something i started 2 stand by nowadays.

this wk is a tiring one as i unintentionally went out every nite...hole in my pocket. caught 'Pride & Prejudice' on tues, itz a wonderful show. i love it. will get the dvd. the love story between lizzy & mr darcy is so SWEET...i was so disappointed when the show ended...i decided 2 finish the book =D went kushin bo wif eliz & wws on thurs. itz a vy belated bday treat 4 wws. anyway, eliz & i gorged on the fd, it was nice...love the paper steamboat but the most memorable's the song & bell...haha. as a result of gorging, i suffered frm the feeling of fullness & nausea the whole fri, i tin i hav nvr been this full b4 & we even went 2 mustafa 4 a walk 2 try ridding of the fullness. forced myself 2 eat dinner. we went 2 swensens & has a brainstorming tok abt the accounting venture. i tot we shd juz try it out & c how it is...like personally i hav nvr done it b4, we'll take a step at a time bah...while itz gd 2 plan 4 the future but sometimes u dun hav 2 tin so much...like i said: take it as it comes.

hav not got much 4 cny except a pair of shoes...i hvn been really shopping freely 4 a long long time. i dread 2 c my bills 4 nex mth tho =(

16 days aft NY...

itz mon again...a normal wk week...sighz. i'm feeling lethargic as usual, so i tin i got 2 do something 2 at least drive it away a bit. not tat i feel there will be much use. it shd be something 2 do wif the bad sleep last nite. i'm facing sleeping problems...i cun sleep early & once i do, i cun wake up early...10 hrs sleep days r so common & i can still feel so sleepy aft tat which isn't gd when i tin of it. i shd start hvg earlier nites if possible.

the sun's out but i still miss the rain. being a 'hot' person, i tin i prefer colder days coz i can wear anything i wan tat way. looks like there will be much sunshine tdy, so mum might wash honey. i shuddered when mum described wat she will do 2 honey but honey really nids a wash. he's turning 2 blackie & smelling a bit...wahaha.

oh, i'm finally able 2 catch pride & prejudice in the theatres. hvg some difficulties understanding the book. itz like reading a literature textbook, i keep hvg 2 ponder the irony, flip to & fro 4 some explanations for word meanings, so i'm still stucked at chapter 8 as at yday. i tin i rather read the zhang xiao xian books. i noe i can finish it & despite the no. of times i've read it, i still feel vy touched & the nid 2 balance myself wif a happier book. zhang xiao xian has some vy gd quotes on love, the one i remembered the most was something like this:

我就站在你面前， 而你却不知道我爱你。

how true tat is sometimes. i believe so many ppl r in tat situation. is it due 2 initiative? initiative...itz so easily said but hard 2 do. i tin basically i'm still conservative, it will take quite a bit 4 me 2 take up the initiative. hmm, i'll probably drop subtle hints & tat brings me back 2 1 of my fave topics. how do u noe tat is it? wat if itz a misunderstanding? it doesn't mean tat when the other party's being nice, they r liking u. we do tin too much huh? sometimes therez really no nid 2 tin so much, juz take it as it comes lah.

my younger (who looks elder than me...wahaha) sis help dyed my hair yday & she did quite a gd job. she can consider an alternative career if she fails as an optometrist...haha. so i'll hav 2 give her a bigger bday prez 2 reward her...hoho. tat gal shares a bday wif jay okay...cun help mentioning tat & cun help being a bit jealous...haha.

lately ppl ard me has been adamant on 1 topic. itz weird...how did things get this way? i'm amazed too.

poor Small (Fat) Sister...

went 4 a haircut juz now...as usual, it looks like therez no cut but the funniest thing has got 2 be the hairdresser (a guy) mistaking my younger sister as my elder sister. at tat mo, we went into shocked mode. my younger sister is 5 yrs younger & taller than me, so it was a super sad thing 4 her, she was mocking at the thing aft tat. i can emphathise wif tat but cun help laughing. anyway, my sisters tot itz the way i asked them abt opinions 4 my fringe. well, they tin i'm vy gd at acting cute & innocent frm my phone-answering ways & other antics. i beg 2 differ! sometimes cuteness come frm the heart okay? wahaha.

& we came back 2 an exceptional quiet home juz now too. wonder if itz some usual petty squabble between my parents again. yes, they quarrelled abt amazing stuffs like how's the clothes 2 be hung, how do u place the pot cover. i can only say they r ard the age of menopause...shudders. my hse is normally a vy noisy affair...we love laughing over almost everything. 一日三大笑, i supposed we laugh so much more than tat.

btw, dunno watz wrong wif me. ever since the exams in mid-dec, i hav been sick on & off...still hvg a SORE throat...hopefully the 爱心菊花茶 will help...i had 2 cups...keke. i tin i cun let my mum noe i'm gg 4 ktv tmr, no one is really gg 2 pity me if they do. not tat i love being pitied but u do wan some concern when u r sick...not waking up 2 some chilli wanton mee & worse, curry chicken 4 the rest of the day.

i started visualising myself w/o a proper job. hav not been receiving much calls. okay, i'm choosy too. therez nothing wif wanting 2 wk in town. well, i might yield if i still dun get a job 3 mths later. getting a bit sian over all these job searches. like i told kim, i shd seriously contemplate getting a husband instead. ya rite, as if the feminist in me will allow me 2 do so.

lately some things hav been happening. it seems pleasant but i tot i shd give it a bit more time & tots. i dun wan the past 2 repeat itself.

peace-loving...wherez the dove?

juz read some news stories over the asiaone website. the biggest one had 2 be the israeli PM being vy ill. i dunno the political turmoil in tat part of Middle East in detail but frm wat i read, he seems 2 hav done much 4 peace in tat region. i once saw a TV excerpt of a little palestinian boy watching his father being killed in front of him in a shootout. it shocks me tat while i'm living safely & nicely in my home, there r so much other more ppl suffering ard the world. i started 2 tin myself in the position of the little boy & shudders. no doubt there will be grief but will all this be the start of him harbouring hatred twds the 'enemy' & 1 day be embroiled in a shootout like them? revenge indeed.

i often wonder if i cld hav survived if u take me out of s'pore. much as i hate 2 admit, i'm such a spolit brat sometimes. the weather cun be too hot, cun walk too far...how abt those kids in Pakistan who had 2 battle the cold if not their lives, maybe already in shambles. i'm so ashamed of myself sometimes. wld i be strong enough 2 take all those battering? juz news tat a fren has got into kpmg & i had not even reci a call frm any of the big 4 kinda unsettles me...i started finding reasons when in the 1st place, i was saying i dun wan join them. guess i'm juz envious of her getting a job. it also spurns on me tat i'm not the job-seeker & most outstanding person out there. contradicting...since the nex mo when my boss' editing my resume, he says i dun sound confident & my resume & cover letter doesn't sell me. look, i'm trying 2 be humble but ya, therez really something wrong wif my CV...a chg has done it better. hope i'll get some calls =p

k...a bit out of point...i was juz also wondering tat itz said tat between love & hatred is juz a line, so once we cleared tat line, there will be peace? but during a lunch discussion, it was brought up tat all things r balanced, so tat means when therez love, hatred will be hovering somewhere too? then how do we achieve peace? it was also discussed y do ppl bother hating each other? quite true also, u get agitated (which might lead 2 unhappiness...who noes heart attack) whenever tat person's mentioned & 1 thing, r u sure he/she's the only one wif fault 4 wat had happened? but some ppl r really meant 2 be hated. their actions r totally intolerable. most of the time, i wld say i dislike the person. aft all, unless u r hard-hearted, u cun hate a thing 4 too long anyway & y bother wasting time & energy on hating? we shd be able 2 find better things 2 do. everything's easier said than done tho but if everyone cld be a little less selfish, put themselves in others' shoes b4 acting...maybe (i said maybe) we can get peace. i dunno y when contestants in beauty paegents is deemed hyprocritical or ran off the mill of ideas when they wan world peace? i believe there r ppl who genuinely wans it...looking ard watz happening in the world nowadays...i cun believe therez anyone who din tin of it but as usual, being human, u noe itz not gg 2 happen. no wonder nature r gathering their forces 2 get back at us. 2 fight ppl when they r most dis-united and they cun stand us anymore...sigh...they hate us, i suppose & i dun wan 2 argue abt this. we hav indeed done things we shd not and refuse 2 heed warnings.

itz a New Year...

Happy New Year!!!

so fast...itz 2006 now...& it seems like only yday tat we hav celebrated the new Millenium? i feel old...old enough 2 not be squeezing wif the younger ppl & be reminded of how young i used 2 be. okay, i'm not terribly old now but at least older than wat i used 2 be & itz terrible seeing the signs, now u noe y all the ladies buy the entire set of sk-II skincare. i c my limbs more wrinkled...my acne scars taking vy long 2 heal...sighz, hav 2 spend more time on them liao.

as we r now OLDER than b4, we decided 2 avoid crowded places, then realised something which we r supposed 2 realise every yr: ppl r EVERYWHERE! so the restaurant was crowded, full of chattering until OLD ppl like us buay tahan...start thinking of ideas 2 escape & hav pro thinking of a place wif little ppl. finally we settled on a place which was deemed vy unlikely in the 1st place, then we set off 2 get our own fireworks: sparklers. hey, if u ever nid 2 get sparklers at ard 11pm, even on New Yr's Eve, go 2 clementi central. we were surprised we cld still get them at tat hr.


we went down 2 a secret location 4 light it...wahaha...itz nice...provides us wif unexpected fun. here's my partner wif the lighted sparklers:


& here's her trying 2 sell choya...keke. itz quite nice & i tot it tastes like red wine. choya & red wine...unlikely resemblance.


& the bottle of Margarita we cldn't open...it looks nice. too bad we cun open it but we will leave it 4 nex sat...hee


so itz a quiet quiet New Year & things got back 2 normal wif the 2 of us spending it alone again but minus the esplanade backdrop. heard the fireworks was nice but this yr is special is its own way...our way of spending it...keke. we hav slightly mapped out wat we'll do nex yr which aft more thinking, doesn't seem tat bad at all...haha!

Hav u made ur wishes 4 2006? i hav made the usual ones. they r simple but impt =)

hope everyone will hav a great year! stay Happy & be Happy!

PS: my new year partner, dun blame me 4 posting ur pics...u took more...haha =b