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johnny the 'kpo'...hahaha...told me something shocking tdy...tat darling wans 2 chg bf again! big news...we'll all be shocked bcoz we still trying 2 ascertain whoz her bf in the 1st place...hahaha. messy woman. anyway, saw an email from her co saying they reci my appln. i'm a bit worried tat if they call 4 an interview & offers me the job, shd i accept? shipping lines & banks offer the best prospects & $$$...confused confused!! i dun wan stay in shipping all my life...ahhh. juz now i had a tot, 2 find SY & ask him 2 be my referee, maybe the banks might recognise him (as if) & i will stand a better chance...but i got a bit apprehensive thinking of wat happened b4. i admit i still get a bit sore & upset over the incident. it was like a total rejection altho there might be other reasons which i might nvr noe. i still like 2 believe he's a nice guy altho he's not predictable, he has a presence in my beautiful memories afterall (wif the ladies, bcoz we r too old 4 gals...haha). hope he's happy in aus...& dun get eaten by the sharks =P

i'm tired altho i'm learning...but doing too much is tiring...i got a taste of AIC, understood y they cun tahan...itz really a lot of shit. glad this job's ending but nex shit job's starting...i'm getting a knack checking the staff track vy often...i'm vy scared AIC will chg 2 some u-noe-whos. scary place...arrows shooting everywhere...i felt like hiding. i tin everytime someone at least 2 levels above me wan approach, i'll jump & wan scream.

i hope i'm meeting the acca gang 4 lunch later...i dun hav much time 4 frens lately...i hardly hav time 2 meet them. i got 3 bday prez outstanding (u noe who u r...haha). i nid 2 organise a family trip 2 HK 4 may. i'm trying 2 get FAT 2 be involved & thy BF, if he's gg...tatz the best. i'm trying 2 send resumes & increase chances of landing a new job soon. & sadly, i hav 2 do my job now. the thing working against me is time. i'm trying 2 handle all at the same time & itz really challenging at times. i hardly tok 2 my parents this wk. i wasn't home a day 4 dinner. i din spend more than 2 hrs everyday wif thy BF this wk which is rare...haha...so sticky...like superglue. as i'm typing, i realised i miss the gals, when was the last time we sat down 2 tok, laugh & made fun of each other? the same gals who were wif me thru highs & lows (sounds a bit mushy)...i'm trying 2 divert attention 4 not buying their bday prez yet...keke.

i'm quite excited abt the HK trip, abt gg abroad, abt hvg a break. it was a place wif rather nice memories aft all. my 1st time flying alone, staying in hotels alone, business travel, travelling wif the boss (tho he's in C class & me Y class), interacting wif overseas collz, enjoying the perks of being a guest, wanton mee, the peak wif no view (:x) yada yada yada.

i shd sleep tho. this is no gd 4 later since i reckon i'll be rushing ard a bit later. i wan my shopping, darling (the real one)! =P

bad cramp day...

oh my, itz a cold cold day & i'm on mc AGAIn...it has sort of became a once-in-a-mth ritual...i cun help it, i am really sick. i'm hvg the worst menstrual cramps of my life, so much so i tin i really wan 2 juz faint & die esp yday (eliz, i understand y take out the womb) & i had no choice but 2 resort 2 med bcoz i cun sustain anymore. itz still on tdy despite it being the 3rd day. i nid 2 exercise, i tot it was better when i did...i cun remember the last time i exercised, now tat is bad, esp now my lifestyle is so stressful. sometimes i tot, is it really tat stressful (some ppl seems okay but there r ppl who r really exhausted like me) or is it me? itz both bah. darling sent a seemingly-nice job appln 2 me...but i tot i wan try out 4 a bank 1st, it was y i got myself in this shit 1st. sometimes i was thinking: hvn i tot i dun like audit all along & y did i decide i will try it? the power of desparation is scary at times but i comfort myself all the time tat it was a move i had 2 take juz tat aft i took the move, things actually became easier 2 get 2 my desired destination...haiz. life's challenges 4 me...i will tin of happier stuffs. BUT i'm sad tat half of my mc day's gone...really sad coz i still hav 2 wk tmr...luckily itz fri & meeting S.U.L. later...btw, heard AIC 4 job where S.U.L grouped's leaving...somewhere i dun feel much...he's a nice guy but maybe he shd go coz itz too stressful. i got 2 update my CV but i tot my jobs aren't something 2 boast abt in tat...something i hated too. watz it wif the allocation tat jobs r so mismatched & u look at wat u've done so far...juz shit & nothing much...haiz. i got 2 live wif it, i learnt tat i dun ctrl anything & i shdn't care tat much.

thy BF has interviews tdy & tmr wif the same organisation...i hope he's successful yet i'm not sure if they r wat he wans. hope he's successful so tat prob ppl wun tin he's slacking at home & he gets stressed over it, i noe tat feeling but itz impt not 2 end up like his gf, got into somewhere she doesn't fit in & agonised herself & everyone ard her, esp him...haiz. i'm thinking, i wan 2 eat! crabs, buffets, dim sum, french toast frm kim gary, crystal jade porridge, bbq seafood, dou jiang you tiao, roasted stuffs, tomyam steamboat & food frm aus like spinach pizza (this one frm UQ is really nice), oportos (itz less sinful than kfc), tuna pasta (vy yummy frm melb), red rooster (nice peas...hee), lentil soup (a bit like tau suan but superb nice at apollo bay) & all the fd tat we cooked tog...ah, i wan 2 get away frm here. i shd watch some south park & eric cartman b4 i start nagging again. alrite, i'm sick, i shd be resting. 1 more thing, my com seems 2 cun mk it...the flickering on the lcd's getting worse...i got 2 be more thrifty again (i din get anything at the latest m)phosis sales & tdy's the last day of the sale altho i nid at least a new pair of slippers).

P.S: the above r disoriented tots like the one shiling had 4 her latest post =P