juz had a small cup of instant noodles, my dinner, supper or breakfast. had an unhappy day. was already tired enough as it is by the proceedings of normal routine wk when the day juz went downhill coz slave driver is aft me again. & the day juz buang. tears started 2 flow, all the stress coming on. i decided 2 face all like normal wk but in the end CFA settled 4 me. wat a cool aic...i enjoyed her email...& immediately shared it wif one of my closest work confidiante, S-L J (dun say nvr share gd stuffs wif u...haha) & i hope it perked up his day altho it was a bit late...ha. wahaha...a bit bad of me. If i got the chance, i will paste wat i said 2 him here, i'm quite proud i stood up 2 him. wat an asshole. I tin i worked better aft tat altho still real slow. I tin i'm exhausted at this juncture...i bet i'll be late again later altho i'm stopping now so i can mk it 2 wk earlier later. still got a lot 2 go :(
sat's SC's bday...i tin i shd be more patient at times...i also dunno watz wrong at times but she's still being a nice collz or rather, fren & amazingly, we r still hanging out wif each other. sometimes i hope i'll leave earlier than her coz i dun hav much frens at wk & i'll be real lonely if she leaves 1st. selfish tots :P
not much of happenings except wk, wk & more wk! haiz...wat a sad life. by the time i am free frm wk, itz almost time 2 leave. quite nice too. anticipative.
tdy's grandma's 6th death anniversary. how how fast. i started 2 tin a bit of the past, how i wld happily walked frm her place 2 the nearest mac 2 buy some fries & got all happy & proud of myself coz i was only in Primary 2. how sleepy days were spent at her place while mum went 2 play mj at some place we dun like. how she took care of us when FAT was borne. how she always look sad & lonely twds the end of her life. how it felt the morning we knew she's gone. how i cried my heart out the day b4 her cremation. i'm not especially close 2 her but she's like a integral part of my memories. i tin i felt especially sad when i tot of how she was pushed ard by my uncles during the last days of her life. is tat wat she deserved aft working hard her whole life? watz the use of wah, so many children or grandchildren or great-grandchildren at her funeral when no one really wanted her when she was still alive? i tot she's better off gone...she shd be happier. ah ma, r u? altho uncle still doesn't noe how 2 take care of himself or rather, he's escaping frm reality at times. we have nagged & scolded all we can but haiz. ur eldest great-grandson is having a shotgun marriage. a person might live only 4 a while but the memories left behind can be so vivid.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Thursday, March 13, 2008
i felt i had 2 blog...
i was surfing the asiaone website when ya, i saw australia again. i've said 4 the umpteenth time i wan go tasmania & adelaide & i managed 2 convince Sister tat nex yr's big trip wld be aus but SCC wld prob be bored out in tasmania? i have beautiful memories there & in my own selfish tots, i do wan visit brisbane again altho it'll be my 4th time there but therez something tat will stay etched in ur memories again. So nex, i'll convince everyone 2 start the trip at bris...they wld wan go gold coast bah which means i can go surfers' paradise again! haha.
we finally settled on the japan trip! we r gg osaka/kyoto/mt fuji/tokyo. all in 5 days.
excited:
have been researching on the places we'll be visiting...i tin i'm dying 4 a break (& a new job too). have been researching on where can i get burberrys blue label (thks baby!). been researching on wat universal studios & disneyland has. told FAT we will surely overspend & she seems afraid coz i tin we will lose ctrl. the trip has dented a hole in my savings, so i hav 2 wk harder 2 curb spending frm now till even the bangkok trip or i'll be broke till the end of the yr. oh, i shd research on the hot spring thingy at mt fuji, i tin we r all quite anticipative of this. woo...cun wait till may...
i finally broke down in office last fri. it was unexpected but i wasn't really happy abt it coz news really travelled fast. ppl can tin wat they wan regarding this but they dunno the real reason 4 it happening & i prob cun explain it tat well. so i really wait till seeing thy BF b4 unleashing all the tears the minute i got on the car. sorry baby, i noe it was hard 4 u...2 c me this way again & again over wk ever since u came back. u dun deserve this. it will be over soon. i feel vy tired suddenly...like i've aged overnite. i wish i can go back 2 my old corner where i'm only surrounded by ppl i wan 2 c & tok 2. i miss being surrounded by familiarity. i feel more comfortable wif thy BF's dogs than most ppl. i will find myself missing esp Ah Girl (MY dog) not seeing her 4 a while but there r a lot of ppl i rather i dun hav 2 socialise wif. missed the nhss days where altho i was hanging wif the same old ppl like everyday but i nvr felt tat uncomfortable. slowly i tin i understand myself, wat i really wan. i nvr felt comfortable in my current surroundings. how can it be healthy when u juz felt like hiding whenever wk is mentioned. thks 2 tat i hate sundays.
toking abt lighter stuffs...thy BF's dad's family business might be gg public. i was shocked. the shock is those kinda if-u-look-at-him-i-nvr-felt-like-he's-a-director's-son & now he's gonna be the son-of-a-director-of-a-public-listed-co. i juz felt quite weird. will always remember eliz's director joke...how we had 2 plot vy hard 2 mk him dump his vy horrible schoolbag & i simply wun be able 2 associate his dad is a director. ha. maybe itz my own family fortunes...my dad has been in the same position like all his life & when young, we din hav the luxury like anyone else. when everyone was playing sega, my bro (he's vy whiny & idiotic then, keeping asking 4 one) got a lousy TV games console which hung all the time & other sucky stuffs. maybe tatz y my aunts looked down on us then (yes, deep in my heart, i tin they used 2 look down on us, like how my dad is gg 2 remain poor forever & mum nvr went 2 sch, so i nvr liked entertaining them. thks 4 planting the desire 2 excel tho). so watching too much tv serials, i tin directors (not the shoot film one) r like big shots & when thy BF's belongings look like they hav been wif him like 4 as long as dad stayed in his position, i just cun put the father & son together. i tot a director's son wld behave the way they do on tv shows. i tin the job as more glamourous than it ever was. baby, i tin u'll understand wat i mean?
david tao is coming 2 town again but i hav no $$$ 2 watch him 4 a 3rd time liao. hav i really aged overnite? where hav all the excitement of seeing my fave singers experienced previously gone? is it bcoz i've been seeing less of shiling 2 be affected? or maybe i'll be gg wif her 2 genting 2 c mayday soon? haha...sounds quite unlike me altho they r gd. i hvn even been seeing francis the magician online. his absence is felt as he used 2 be online during this kinda hrs in the past, so i can find someone 2 tok 2 at this wee hrs when i'm bored out by the wk. wk is boring enough & i'm further bored out, can imagine the gratitude when someone toks 2 me...haha. it seems like only a while ago we were meeting week in week out & shiling's psm loves speculating abt us all the time...haha. i tin i do really miss these buncha frens. i shd mk the effort 2 sleep less & meet them more often. or gals, if u c this, meet me k? haha. wld anyone still be interested in a chalet?
saw this frm a website: meaning of chanea: oak wood
huh? at least itz an elegant substance? maybe i shd drop cherie and name my daughter tat in future but i dunno the pronounciation exactly.
itz 8.23am & 12 degrees Celsius in Chanea, Crete, Greece now. tin i'll go dream i'm there now :P
we finally settled on the japan trip! we r gg osaka/kyoto/mt fuji/tokyo. all in 5 days.
excited:
have been researching on the places we'll be visiting...i tin i'm dying 4 a break (& a new job too). have been researching on where can i get burberrys blue label (thks baby!). been researching on wat universal studios & disneyland has. told FAT we will surely overspend & she seems afraid coz i tin we will lose ctrl. the trip has dented a hole in my savings, so i hav 2 wk harder 2 curb spending frm now till even the bangkok trip or i'll be broke till the end of the yr. oh, i shd research on the hot spring thingy at mt fuji, i tin we r all quite anticipative of this. woo...cun wait till may...
i finally broke down in office last fri. it was unexpected but i wasn't really happy abt it coz news really travelled fast. ppl can tin wat they wan regarding this but they dunno the real reason 4 it happening & i prob cun explain it tat well. so i really wait till seeing thy BF b4 unleashing all the tears the minute i got on the car. sorry baby, i noe it was hard 4 u...2 c me this way again & again over wk ever since u came back. u dun deserve this. it will be over soon. i feel vy tired suddenly...like i've aged overnite. i wish i can go back 2 my old corner where i'm only surrounded by ppl i wan 2 c & tok 2. i miss being surrounded by familiarity. i feel more comfortable wif thy BF's dogs than most ppl. i will find myself missing esp Ah Girl (MY dog) not seeing her 4 a while but there r a lot of ppl i rather i dun hav 2 socialise wif. missed the nhss days where altho i was hanging wif the same old ppl like everyday but i nvr felt tat uncomfortable. slowly i tin i understand myself, wat i really wan. i nvr felt comfortable in my current surroundings. how can it be healthy when u juz felt like hiding whenever wk is mentioned. thks 2 tat i hate sundays.
toking abt lighter stuffs...thy BF's dad's family business might be gg public. i was shocked. the shock is those kinda if-u-look-at-him-i-nvr-felt-like-he's-a-director's-son & now he's gonna be the son-of-a-director-of-a-public-listed-co. i juz felt quite weird. will always remember eliz's director joke...how we had 2 plot vy hard 2 mk him dump his vy horrible schoolbag & i simply wun be able 2 associate his dad is a director. ha. maybe itz my own family fortunes...my dad has been in the same position like all his life & when young, we din hav the luxury like anyone else. when everyone was playing sega, my bro (he's vy whiny & idiotic then, keeping asking 4 one) got a lousy TV games console which hung all the time & other sucky stuffs. maybe tatz y my aunts looked down on us then (yes, deep in my heart, i tin they used 2 look down on us, like how my dad is gg 2 remain poor forever & mum nvr went 2 sch, so i nvr liked entertaining them. thks 4 planting the desire 2 excel tho). so watching too much tv serials, i tin directors (not the shoot film one) r like big shots & when thy BF's belongings look like they hav been wif him like 4 as long as dad stayed in his position, i just cun put the father & son together. i tot a director's son wld behave the way they do on tv shows. i tin the job as more glamourous than it ever was. baby, i tin u'll understand wat i mean?
david tao is coming 2 town again but i hav no $$$ 2 watch him 4 a 3rd time liao. hav i really aged overnite? where hav all the excitement of seeing my fave singers experienced previously gone? is it bcoz i've been seeing less of shiling 2 be affected? or maybe i'll be gg wif her 2 genting 2 c mayday soon? haha...sounds quite unlike me altho they r gd. i hvn even been seeing francis the magician online. his absence is felt as he used 2 be online during this kinda hrs in the past, so i can find someone 2 tok 2 at this wee hrs when i'm bored out by the wk. wk is boring enough & i'm further bored out, can imagine the gratitude when someone toks 2 me...haha. it seems like only a while ago we were meeting week in week out & shiling's psm loves speculating abt us all the time...haha. i tin i do really miss these buncha frens. i shd mk the effort 2 sleep less & meet them more often. or gals, if u c this, meet me k? haha. wld anyone still be interested in a chalet?
saw this frm a website: meaning of chanea: oak wood
huh? at least itz an elegant substance? maybe i shd drop cherie and name my daughter tat in future but i dunno the pronounciation exactly.
itz 8.23am & 12 degrees Celsius in Chanea, Crete, Greece now. tin i'll go dream i'm there now :P
Thursday, March 06, 2008
BAS****
my better mood for the coming weekends was spoilt by this idiot, asshole, bastard or watever u can tin of. u cun get him on the phone 4 the whole day when u nid help. tat bastard doesn't noe therez no internet access at client's place & my hp had 2 go out of batt. he doesn't wan 2 reply on issues tat u nid him 2 solve & in the end, he pushes the thing 2 u back! juz bcoz he has got a lot of jobs doesn't mean he can behave like this, throwing stuffs like nobody's business & providing no guidance or assistance at all. who the hell ask him 2 take more than he can cope! & the firm can tolerate this kind of nonsense. no wonder everyone had 2 leave. i'm thinking of throwing him this letter when i quit:
Dear BASTARD,
it was hell working with u & itz not even fair 2 describe u come frm hell bcoz u r worse than that. u r really terrible as a superior, as a co-worker & as human. no wonder no one can really sympathise wif u if u really coughs out blood. no wonder everyone tries 2 avoid u like plague, yes plague, bcoz we r afraid of the germs & not U! u r pathetic really, dun u tin so? u shall get justification 4 all these or u hav already bcoz...always remember, someone is watching & judging by ur idiotic face, u wun hav ur way forever. lastly, i hope u live well & long, away frm everyone.
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i feel better.
Dear BASTARD,
it was hell working with u & itz not even fair 2 describe u come frm hell bcoz u r worse than that. u r really terrible as a superior, as a co-worker & as human. no wonder no one can really sympathise wif u if u really coughs out blood. no wonder everyone tries 2 avoid u like plague, yes plague, bcoz we r afraid of the germs & not U! u r pathetic really, dun u tin so? u shall get justification 4 all these or u hav already bcoz...always remember, someone is watching & judging by ur idiotic face, u wun hav ur way forever. lastly, i hope u live well & long, away frm everyone.
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i feel better.
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