b4 i switch off the com...

aft surfing a few websites, i tin i'll be spending $$$ on:

1) some Laneige loose powder;
2) Kose Junkisui foaming wash.

my face has been facing a breakout lately :(

no wonder the hairdresser tot i'm still schooling :(

so sad tat i spend quite a lot of $$$ on products but they dun seem 2 wk :(

but i got red hair now! altho the hairstyle still looks limpy & mks me feel old.

muz be the breakdown making me feel bad :X

thy BF has embarked on his 2-week vegetarian stint & i hope 2 join him sometimes coz itz time 2 cleanse my system too.

wk has kinda started 4 almost 2 wks le. everyday is busy learning new things. i hvn even had time 2 snoop on internal postings! i also feel better than i did last wk. perhaps i've really learnt 2 kinda let go :)

met some ex-co ppl working at current co 4 lunch today...itz supposed 2 be a nice gathering but it had 2 rain. imagine eating at top speed coz the rain was blowing at u every min & dunno y there were uncovered parts over the outdoor seats which we were in. so the lunch ended quickly & awkwardly & half the time they were mentioning names tat i dunno (yet).

i aspired 2 jog on sat...i shd really mk it happen. thy BF needs some exercise too :D

newbie jitteries

i tin itz the same wif all new jobs, the so-called newbie jitteries. hopefully things will get better & i will pass my stay peacefully & blissfully. When i woke up this morn, i actually missed ex-job a bit. i miss the flexibility of arranging my bedtime & arrival time at time, basically the freedom of time arrangement & at lunch, i miss my lunch kakis even tho we (if SC ever c this) juz kept toking abt the same topic over & over again. i tin (& i hope) itz juz the newbie jitteries or itz gonna be hard 2 survive.


life is like a rollercoaster at times. i got 2 learn how 2 take & enjoy it in the process. Can the ride not be so bumpy tho? haha :P

btw, i miss japan. i miss anywhere lah. anywhere except here :x

1st day of short Freedom...

it officially ended yday le. not much feelings except mild exhaustion & relief at a final break.

getting jitteries about the next. Can i fit, will i give up aft a while?

i was trying 2 sell my 'make the job interesting urself' thing juz now & i was asked y dun i try 2 mk audit interesting & stay on. i tot abt it juz now & came up wif the answer which i wld hav wanted it 2 be. I noe wat was i there 4 in the 1st place: 2 switch 2 the banking industry which ideally would have suited my element, so i hope it will be as blissful as my shipping expedition & itz damn hard 2 get in w/o relevant experience man. call me supersitious but i tot some of the things the fortune teller told me was amazing. i nvr like auditing during my study days, i struggled the most during audit papers & itz a miracle how i passed my acca audit papers, itz juz something i nvr tot i'll do. I made a transfer 2 the right dept i was 2 be in if i wan 2 fulfill my trf of industry aft knowing my then-dept wun offer me wat i wan.

i like this. it reminds me of wat i can be made of & i still hav a clear mind at the end of the day.

okay, i did sight thy BF & mommy as reasons y i wan 2 go. i'm a vy family person. i'm the kind who will wan 2 break down at 2am upon receiving mommy's call on y i still hav 2 wk so late. i tin i dun hav an appropriate answer & i feel quite sorry 2 her tat she has worried abt me all my life & still has 2 continue 2 until maybe i get married or something. Ya, u can quote the parents-will-always-love-their-child thing but we shdn't juz take it 4 granted. they shd hav an easier life bcoz as i grew older, i realised the past was hard. I nvr understood y i only earned a caning when i kept pestering 4 a barbie doll or the disgust on a relative's face when she complaint 2 her mum tat i'm playing wif her barbies. dad was hardworking but quiet & ppl juz took advantage of him 4 tat...dad has been working at same co but pay remained stagnant 4 10 yrs le bah & pay is pathetic, only higher than my 1st pay 4 HF. so now WE (thy sisters) muz wk hard, earn more $$$ so ppl can nvr look down on us again & parents can lift their heads high & say proudly abt us. tat past feeling was shity but it helped 2 spur me on & it prob shaped the person i am.

& thy poor BF who c me working, exhausted, sleeping, stressed, depressed or crying throughout the days shd be entitled 2 a day off this Friday (bcoz i'm off too & itz daddy's bday!) now tat his sufferings have tentatively ended 4 a while...if new job is okay, then he's off the hook. thks baby, u noe how impt it is 4 me 4 u 2 be there...bcoz i might hav lost shiling & eliz as frens wif the incessive self-indulgent depression & whining i had. trust me, i was irritated at myself at times...i tin i was too much. ah, i shd try 2 fix this but whining seems 2 hav become a part of me ley :P