i always tot my blog template is so bland but i dun bother 2 do much 2 it. basically i tin i'll make do wif something simple.
tired man...how can i outfight the chinatown crowds tmr? i shd try 2 convince my parents on gg somewhere, if not i tin aft the whole thing, i'll probably be too shacked out 2 join 4 the ktv...hmm but i'll give in 2 them if they really wan go bah...i can always siam earlier...heehee.
is life abt facing dilemmas? i dinno wat 2 do wif my career. hmm, i got 2 decide wat is it i wan b4 moving 2 the nex step. ideally, i wld love 2 join 1 of the big 4 (actually only pwc...keke) 2 do auditing but they r not calling me. eh, i did reci 1 frm ey asking abt an internship...sighz, y cun they tell me they r not employing me bcoz my results r not out...they sounded quite lame BUT if ey wans me aft tat, i reckon i'll still join them...haha. well, itz no use holding on 2 too much of tat thing called pride. pride is a hinderance 2 success. i hav no doubt therez so much i yearn 2 achieve & i noe my abilities...oh, i'm sounding super self-confident now it seems, so long itz not cocky. so long i keep my dignity. therez a diff between pride & dignity...dun believe? chk it.
juliet suggested tat we start doing part-time a/cs & when we r ready, we'll plunge into providing accounting services full-time...not a bad idea...suits my personal goal & the fortune-telling tat i wun be satisfied working 4 other ppl but i reckon i'm still too inexperienced. i shd give myself more time 2 gain experience in other areas. reci a call frm kelly rdg joining her company but we din manage 2 tok much tho. my concerns 4 gg there wld be itz a shipping company & japanese-owned again...hmm, but they r owned by mitsubishi corp tho, now tatz a diff matter altogether as mitsubishi is 1 of the top 3 firms in japan. i worry abt my accounting experience becoming too specialised & if itz anytime 2 join auditing, it wld be now. dilemma dilemma!!! i tin i dun hav 2 worry too much...take it as it comes...something i started 2 stand by nowadays.
this wk is a tiring one as i unintentionally went out every nite...hole in my pocket. caught 'Pride & Prejudice' on tues, itz a wonderful show. i love it. will get the dvd. the love story between lizzy & mr darcy is so SWEET...i was so disappointed when the show ended...i decided 2 finish the book =D went kushin bo wif eliz & wws on thurs. itz a vy belated bday treat 4 wws. anyway, eliz & i gorged on the fd, it was nice...love the paper steamboat but the most memorable's the song & bell...haha. as a result of gorging, i suffered frm the feeling of fullness & nausea the whole fri, i tin i hav nvr been this full b4 & we even went 2 mustafa 4 a walk 2 try ridding of the fullness. forced myself 2 eat dinner. we went 2 swensens & has a brainstorming tok abt the accounting venture. i tot we shd juz try it out & c how it is...like personally i hav nvr done it b4, we'll take a step at a time bah...while itz gd 2 plan 4 the future but sometimes u dun hav 2 tin so much...like i said: take it as it comes.
hav not got much 4 cny except a pair of shoes...i hvn been really shopping freely 4 a long long time. i dread 2 c my bills 4 nex mth tho =(
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Monday, January 16, 2006
16 days aft NY...
itz mon again...a normal wk week...sighz. i'm feeling lethargic as usual, so i tin i got 2 do something 2 at least drive it away a bit. not tat i feel there will be much use. it shd be something 2 do wif the bad sleep last nite. i'm facing sleeping problems...i cun sleep early & once i do, i cun wake up early...10 hrs sleep days r so common & i can still feel so sleepy aft tat which isn't gd when i tin of it. i shd start hvg earlier nites if possible.
the sun's out but i still miss the rain. being a 'hot' person, i tin i prefer colder days coz i can wear anything i wan tat way. looks like there will be much sunshine tdy, so mum might wash honey. i shuddered when mum described wat she will do 2 honey but honey really nids a wash. he's turning 2 blackie & smelling a bit...wahaha.
oh, i'm finally able 2 catch pride & prejudice in the theatres. hvg some difficulties understanding the book. itz like reading a literature textbook, i keep hvg 2 ponder the irony, flip to & fro 4 some explanations for word meanings, so i'm still stucked at chapter 8 as at yday. i tin i rather read the zhang xiao xian books. i noe i can finish it & despite the no. of times i've read it, i still feel vy touched & the nid 2 balance myself wif a happier book. zhang xiao xian has some vy gd quotes on love, the one i remembered the most was something like this:
我就站在你面前， 而你却不知道我爱你。
how true tat is sometimes. i believe so many ppl r in tat situation. is it due 2 initiative? initiative...itz so easily said but hard 2 do. i tin basically i'm still conservative, it will take quite a bit 4 me 2 take up the initiative. hmm, i'll probably drop subtle hints & tat brings me back 2 1 of my fave topics. how do u noe tat is it? wat if itz a misunderstanding? it doesn't mean tat when the other party's being nice, they r liking u. we do tin too much huh? sometimes therez really no nid 2 tin so much, juz take it as it comes lah.
my younger (who looks elder than me...wahaha) sis help dyed my hair yday & she did quite a gd job. she can consider an alternative career if she fails as an optometrist...haha. so i'll hav 2 give her a bigger bday prez 2 reward her...hoho. tat gal shares a bday wif jay okay...cun help mentioning tat & cun help being a bit jealous...haha.
lately ppl ard me has been adamant on 1 topic. itz weird...how did things get this way? i'm amazed too.
the sun's out but i still miss the rain. being a 'hot' person, i tin i prefer colder days coz i can wear anything i wan tat way. looks like there will be much sunshine tdy, so mum might wash honey. i shuddered when mum described wat she will do 2 honey but honey really nids a wash. he's turning 2 blackie & smelling a bit...wahaha.
oh, i'm finally able 2 catch pride & prejudice in the theatres. hvg some difficulties understanding the book. itz like reading a literature textbook, i keep hvg 2 ponder the irony, flip to & fro 4 some explanations for word meanings, so i'm still stucked at chapter 8 as at yday. i tin i rather read the zhang xiao xian books. i noe i can finish it & despite the no. of times i've read it, i still feel vy touched & the nid 2 balance myself wif a happier book. zhang xiao xian has some vy gd quotes on love, the one i remembered the most was something like this:
我就站在你面前， 而你却不知道我爱你。
how true tat is sometimes. i believe so many ppl r in tat situation. is it due 2 initiative? initiative...itz so easily said but hard 2 do. i tin basically i'm still conservative, it will take quite a bit 4 me 2 take up the initiative. hmm, i'll probably drop subtle hints & tat brings me back 2 1 of my fave topics. how do u noe tat is it? wat if itz a misunderstanding? it doesn't mean tat when the other party's being nice, they r liking u. we do tin too much huh? sometimes therez really no nid 2 tin so much, juz take it as it comes lah.
my younger (who looks elder than me...wahaha) sis help dyed my hair yday & she did quite a gd job. she can consider an alternative career if she fails as an optometrist...haha. so i'll hav 2 give her a bigger bday prez 2 reward her...hoho. tat gal shares a bday wif jay okay...cun help mentioning tat & cun help being a bit jealous...haha.
lately ppl ard me has been adamant on 1 topic. itz weird...how did things get this way? i'm amazed too.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
poor Small (Fat) Sister...
went 4 a haircut juz now...as usual, it looks like therez no cut but the funniest thing has got 2 be the hairdresser (a guy) mistaking my younger sister as my elder sister. at tat mo, we went into shocked mode. my younger sister is 5 yrs younger & taller than me, so it was a super sad thing 4 her, she was mocking at the thing aft tat. i can emphathise wif tat but cun help laughing. anyway, my sisters tot itz the way i asked them abt opinions 4 my fringe. well, they tin i'm vy gd at acting cute & innocent frm my phone-answering ways & other antics. i beg 2 differ! sometimes cuteness come frm the heart okay? wahaha.
& we came back 2 an exceptional quiet home juz now too. wonder if itz some usual petty squabble between my parents again. yes, they quarrelled abt amazing stuffs like how's the clothes 2 be hung, how do u place the pot cover. i can only say they r ard the age of menopause...shudders. my hse is normally a vy noisy affair...we love laughing over almost everything. 一日三大笑, i supposed we laugh so much more than tat.
btw, dunno watz wrong wif me. ever since the exams in mid-dec, i hav been sick on & off...still hvg a SORE throat...hopefully the 爱心菊花茶 will help...i had 2 cups...keke. i tin i cun let my mum noe i'm gg 4 ktv tmr, no one is really gg 2 pity me if they do. not tat i love being pitied but u do wan some concern when u r sick...not waking up 2 some chilli wanton mee & worse, curry chicken 4 the rest of the day.
i started visualising myself w/o a proper job. hav not been receiving much calls. okay, i'm choosy too. therez nothing wif wanting 2 wk in town. well, i might yield if i still dun get a job 3 mths later. getting a bit sian over all these job searches. like i told kim, i shd seriously contemplate getting a husband instead. ya rite, as if the feminist in me will allow me 2 do so.
lately some things hav been happening. it seems pleasant but i tot i shd give it a bit more time & tots. i dun wan the past 2 repeat itself.
& we came back 2 an exceptional quiet home juz now too. wonder if itz some usual petty squabble between my parents again. yes, they quarrelled abt amazing stuffs like how's the clothes 2 be hung, how do u place the pot cover. i can only say they r ard the age of menopause...shudders. my hse is normally a vy noisy affair...we love laughing over almost everything. 一日三大笑, i supposed we laugh so much more than tat.
btw, dunno watz wrong wif me. ever since the exams in mid-dec, i hav been sick on & off...still hvg a SORE throat...hopefully the 爱心菊花茶 will help...i had 2 cups...keke. i tin i cun let my mum noe i'm gg 4 ktv tmr, no one is really gg 2 pity me if they do. not tat i love being pitied but u do wan some concern when u r sick...not waking up 2 some chilli wanton mee & worse, curry chicken 4 the rest of the day.
i started visualising myself w/o a proper job. hav not been receiving much calls. okay, i'm choosy too. therez nothing wif wanting 2 wk in town. well, i might yield if i still dun get a job 3 mths later. getting a bit sian over all these job searches. like i told kim, i shd seriously contemplate getting a husband instead. ya rite, as if the feminist in me will allow me 2 do so.
lately some things hav been happening. it seems pleasant but i tot i shd give it a bit more time & tots. i dun wan the past 2 repeat itself.
Friday, January 06, 2006
peace-loving...wherez the dove?
juz read some news stories over the asiaone website. the biggest one had 2 be the israeli PM being vy ill. i dunno the political turmoil in tat part of Middle East in detail but frm wat i read, he seems 2 hav done much 4 peace in tat region. i once saw a TV excerpt of a little palestinian boy watching his father being killed in front of him in a shootout. it shocks me tat while i'm living safely & nicely in my home, there r so much other more ppl suffering ard the world. i started 2 tin myself in the position of the little boy & shudders. no doubt there will be grief but will all this be the start of him harbouring hatred twds the 'enemy' & 1 day be embroiled in a shootout like them? revenge indeed.
i often wonder if i cld hav survived if u take me out of s'pore. much as i hate 2 admit, i'm such a spolit brat sometimes. the weather cun be too hot, cun walk too far...how abt those kids in Pakistan who had 2 battle the cold if not their lives, maybe already in shambles. i'm so ashamed of myself sometimes. wld i be strong enough 2 take all those battering? juz news tat a fren has got into kpmg & i had not even reci a call frm any of the big 4 kinda unsettles me...i started finding reasons when in the 1st place, i was saying i dun wan join them. guess i'm juz envious of her getting a job. it also spurns on me tat i'm not the job-seeker & most outstanding person out there. contradicting...since the nex mo when my boss' editing my resume, he says i dun sound confident & my resume & cover letter doesn't sell me. look, i'm trying 2 be humble but ya, therez really something wrong wif my CV...a chg has done it better. hope i'll get some calls =p
k...a bit out of point...i was juz also wondering tat itz said tat between love & hatred is juz a line, so once we cleared tat line, there will be peace? but during a lunch discussion, it was brought up tat all things r balanced, so tat means when therez love, hatred will be hovering somewhere too? then how do we achieve peace? it was also discussed y do ppl bother hating each other? quite true also, u get agitated (which might lead 2 unhappiness...who noes heart attack) whenever tat person's mentioned & 1 thing, r u sure he/she's the only one wif fault 4 wat had happened? but some ppl r really meant 2 be hated. their actions r totally intolerable. most of the time, i wld say i dislike the person. aft all, unless u r hard-hearted, u cun hate a thing 4 too long anyway & y bother wasting time & energy on hating? we shd be able 2 find better things 2 do. everything's easier said than done tho but if everyone cld be a little less selfish, put themselves in others' shoes b4 acting...maybe (i said maybe) we can get peace. i dunno y when contestants in beauty paegents is deemed hyprocritical or ran off the mill of ideas when they wan world peace? i believe there r ppl who genuinely wans it...looking ard watz happening in the world nowadays...i cun believe therez anyone who din tin of it but as usual, being human, u noe itz not gg 2 happen. no wonder nature r gathering their forces 2 get back at us. 2 fight ppl when they r most dis-united and they cun stand us anymore...sigh...they hate us, i suppose & i dun wan 2 argue abt this. we hav indeed done things we shd not and refuse 2 heed warnings.
i often wonder if i cld hav survived if u take me out of s'pore. much as i hate 2 admit, i'm such a spolit brat sometimes. the weather cun be too hot, cun walk too far...how abt those kids in Pakistan who had 2 battle the cold if not their lives, maybe already in shambles. i'm so ashamed of myself sometimes. wld i be strong enough 2 take all those battering? juz news tat a fren has got into kpmg & i had not even reci a call frm any of the big 4 kinda unsettles me...i started finding reasons when in the 1st place, i was saying i dun wan join them. guess i'm juz envious of her getting a job. it also spurns on me tat i'm not the job-seeker & most outstanding person out there. contradicting...since the nex mo when my boss' editing my resume, he says i dun sound confident & my resume & cover letter doesn't sell me. look, i'm trying 2 be humble but ya, therez really something wrong wif my CV...a chg has done it better. hope i'll get some calls =p
k...a bit out of point...i was juz also wondering tat itz said tat between love & hatred is juz a line, so once we cleared tat line, there will be peace? but during a lunch discussion, it was brought up tat all things r balanced, so tat means when therez love, hatred will be hovering somewhere too? then how do we achieve peace? it was also discussed y do ppl bother hating each other? quite true also, u get agitated (which might lead 2 unhappiness...who noes heart attack) whenever tat person's mentioned & 1 thing, r u sure he/she's the only one wif fault 4 wat had happened? but some ppl r really meant 2 be hated. their actions r totally intolerable. most of the time, i wld say i dislike the person. aft all, unless u r hard-hearted, u cun hate a thing 4 too long anyway & y bother wasting time & energy on hating? we shd be able 2 find better things 2 do. everything's easier said than done tho but if everyone cld be a little less selfish, put themselves in others' shoes b4 acting...maybe (i said maybe) we can get peace. i dunno y when contestants in beauty paegents is deemed hyprocritical or ran off the mill of ideas when they wan world peace? i believe there r ppl who genuinely wans it...looking ard watz happening in the world nowadays...i cun believe therez anyone who din tin of it but as usual, being human, u noe itz not gg 2 happen. no wonder nature r gathering their forces 2 get back at us. 2 fight ppl when they r most dis-united and they cun stand us anymore...sigh...they hate us, i suppose & i dun wan 2 argue abt this. we hav indeed done things we shd not and refuse 2 heed warnings.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
itz a New Year...
Happy New Year!!!
so fast...itz 2006 now...& it seems like only yday tat we hav celebrated the new Millenium? i feel old...old enough 2 not be squeezing wif the younger ppl & be reminded of how young i used 2 be. okay, i'm not terribly old now but at least older than wat i used 2 be & itz terrible seeing the signs, now u noe y all the ladies buy the entire set of sk-II skincare. i c my limbs more wrinkled...my acne scars taking vy long 2 heal...sighz, hav 2 spend more time on them liao.
as we r now OLDER than b4, we decided 2 avoid crowded places, then realised something which we r supposed 2 realise every yr: ppl r EVERYWHERE! so the restaurant was crowded, full of chattering until OLD ppl like us buay tahan...start thinking of ideas 2 escape & hav pro thinking of a place wif little ppl. finally we settled on a place which was deemed vy unlikely in the 1st place, then we set off 2 get our own fireworks: sparklers. hey, if u ever nid 2 get sparklers at ard 11pm, even on New Yr's Eve, go 2 clementi central. we were surprised we cld still get them at tat hr.
we went down 2 a secret location 4 light it...wahaha...itz nice...provides us wif unexpected fun. here's my partner wif the lighted sparklers:
& here's her trying 2 sell choya...keke. itz quite nice & i tot it tastes like red wine. choya & red wine...unlikely resemblance.
& the bottle of Margarita we cldn't open...it looks nice. too bad we cun open it but we will leave it 4 nex sat...hee
so itz a quiet quiet New Year & things got back 2 normal wif the 2 of us spending it alone again but minus the esplanade backdrop. heard the fireworks was nice but this yr is special is its own way...our way of spending it...keke. we hav slightly mapped out wat we'll do nex yr which aft more thinking, doesn't seem tat bad at all...haha!
so fast...itz 2006 now...& it seems like only yday tat we hav celebrated the new Millenium? i feel old...old enough 2 not be squeezing wif the younger ppl & be reminded of how young i used 2 be. okay, i'm not terribly old now but at least older than wat i used 2 be & itz terrible seeing the signs, now u noe y all the ladies buy the entire set of sk-II skincare. i c my limbs more wrinkled...my acne scars taking vy long 2 heal...sighz, hav 2 spend more time on them liao.
as we r now OLDER than b4, we decided 2 avoid crowded places, then realised something which we r supposed 2 realise every yr: ppl r EVERYWHERE! so the restaurant was crowded, full of chattering until OLD ppl like us buay tahan...start thinking of ideas 2 escape & hav pro thinking of a place wif little ppl. finally we settled on a place which was deemed vy unlikely in the 1st place, then we set off 2 get our own fireworks: sparklers. hey, if u ever nid 2 get sparklers at ard 11pm, even on New Yr's Eve, go 2 clementi central. we were surprised we cld still get them at tat hr.
we went down 2 a secret location 4 light it...wahaha...itz nice...provides us wif unexpected fun. here's my partner wif the lighted sparklers:
& here's her trying 2 sell choya...keke. itz quite nice & i tot it tastes like red wine. choya & red wine...unlikely resemblance.
& the bottle of Margarita we cldn't open...it looks nice. too bad we cun open it but we will leave it 4 nex sat...hee
so itz a quiet quiet New Year & things got back 2 normal wif the 2 of us spending it alone again but minus the esplanade backdrop. heard the fireworks was nice but this yr is special is its own way...our way of spending it...keke. we hav slightly mapped out wat we'll do nex yr which aft more thinking, doesn't seem tat bad at all...haha!
Hav u made ur wishes 4 2006? i hav made the usual ones. they r simple but impt =)
hope everyone will hav a great year! stay Happy & be Happy!
PS: my new year partner, dun blame me 4 posting ur pics...u took more...haha =b
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