happy April Fool's Day!

i decided 2 loaf 4 a while tonite altho we r pending MIC review on thurs & PIC review on fri. nice. we juz went into the job tdy. nicer. so i tot a gd rest 4 me wld be gd 4 this final (i hope itz final) rush. the toughest period seems 2 be over yday. i tot i'll die coz so many times thru it, i tot i cun sustain but this is a total new experience. clearing stuffs wif the Empress of our firm...i tot she will boot me out soon but it nvr happened & she was more patient than i tot. the rush was horrible tho...hvg 2 sustain 16-20 hrs days over a whole week inclusive of weekends + tiring (16-20) days frm b4...i've been leading this life almost all the time since like sep? i really tot i'll die altho there were some slacks in between but since nov, itz like ki siao working. the finale ended wif me running 2 the same place 3 times yday. wah kaoz...i was dead tired, & i meant really terribly exhausted tat i can lie down & dun even wan move again. i nearly reached breaking point a few times coz it was juz amending & amending & amending & worse, i had 2 face slave driver 4 a week straight. tat can really kill. discussing wif the client till 5 am sure isn't the best way 2 start the weekend & knowing u hav 2 go back wk on a sunday at 9pm on saturday when u tot everything shd be okay aft the discussion wif client (until they peng & really wan give in) really tears me apart. i had 2 admit i really cun handle the stress anymore, so imagine the relief when the go-ahead was given 4 binding until the run-3-times but itz all over! i survived thru the shit! & i tin i left a mess back 2 slave driver 2 do the final clearing up! haha.

another rushed week has started. reporting is nex mon. nice. so we got like 3 days 2 clear everything? oh no, it shd be 1 or the MIC has nothing on thurs. i decided 2 push it 2 the back of my mind...& let all the rush start tmr. do i dread all these? i dunno also at times bcoz coming back 2 tin of it, it was vy satisfying 2 c the end-product but gg thru it was hell. i will not deny tat it has went thru my mind many times wat wld the scenario be if i shd choose 2 stay but everytime the stress came 2 boiling pt, all i wan 2 do is 2 escape frm it bcoz it has reached a pt where i dunno how i could handle it anymore. i cun channel my frustration. i got upset when i din perform up 2 the standard i tot i could reach. itz juz so easy 2 get all frustrated & juz snapped. i hate me in tat moment. no matter wat, i tot i shd keep my cool & maintain a high EQ when it comes 2 wk but i juz cun. maybe the stress was really too high & i was facing a person i really dread working wif but r they valid excuses? u might meet wif this everywhere...i dunno. i tin i'm at a lost on how 2 resolve this & i finally can empathatise wif wat CP told me earlier on y she wan quit come aug. even the used-to-be-super-on ken is adapting a heck-care attitude & seems wan 2 leave...hmm, the firm shd pay S-L J even more 2 get him 2 spread more propaganda but he's vy not free now...haha.

i hope no one cancels on the japan trip again coz we need at least 10 ppl 2 make the trip. kaoz. i dun wan 2 miss it aft like literally begging 4 my leave. yes, itz tat pathetic. i had 2 tok my way 2 get the leave. itz like so precious. haiz...maybe i can comfort myself wif the fact i'm quite impt 2 the team so MIC was adamant i be ard...haha. now i feel better...hahaha.

tdy's april's fool day but no one ard me seems 2 be in the mood 4 tricks...i tin everyone's real exhausted. the ofc crowd shrunk by a bit aft yday. more magical than Q-ing 4 hello kiity. so i kept forgetting tat tdy's april's fool day.

i'm not gg 2 david tao's concert lo. i found a perfect excuse. we r celebrating mum's bday. there will be some travelling over the nex 2 wks in the family. Bro's gg KL on a business trip this weekend & Sis' gg Penang over nex weekend & we r edging closer 2 the japan trip (which hopefully will not be cancelled).

btw, a little secret...something seems 2 be developing between FAT & Magic Pills. itz a bit of joke & topic in our family altho i tin mum din really wan 2 tok abt it on the surface but secretly, she's kaypoh too...hahaha. Sis set a 4 layer check 4 the guy 2 pass if they shd ever mk it tog...i tin we r all a bit protective over the little sister. i tin i'll be real sceptical & the guy has 2 do a bit 2 win me over...i'm the 3rd layer wif Sis being the final one. it sounds a bit weird but itz like this in my family, if Sis' okay, mum & dad shd be okies too, so thy BF has been approved by her. poor FAT's future will hav 2 pass more layers of approval. can take a leaf out of thy BF's book tho :P