found!!

after some relentless searching, i'm pleased 2 announce i found my prev payslips & i've e-filed! 1 lesser thing off my mind...Yay!!

itz almost 2am...itz gg 2 be another hard day & i had diarrhoea & gum-ache...so i shd dry my hair & hop onto bed...i dun care...i'll reach ard 10 later...sleep is more impt =P

i shd go 2 a place like this...

the sky is blue w/o any clouds...i can drive 4 40 mins & find a Calbee factory wif interesting favours. OOPs...hahahahhahahahah

btw, i took this pic...quite pro huh...heehee. maybe itz the place...no matter how u shoot, it will be like this =-)

wherez the payslips???!!!

where hav all my prev payslips gone? damn it!! i wanted 2 e-file tonite!! it isn't at where i tot it has always been at...damn it!! itz my own procrastination again...shit. now i hav 2 wait 4 the info again...damn...where can it be? i had the worst tots...it might be thrown away? or stacked in 1 of the boxes? but y r they even there in the 1st place? this is really shity. like the job i'm on now...the documents r everywhere & i felt so afraid of the filing room now...but they hav quite a nice pantry...reminds me of time at HF but i tin we were better then...we had so much more snacks & variety of drinks. & i saw my testimonial juz now...hmm, much as i miss the atmosphere there, i'm glad i've moved on bcoz maybe it wun get me anywhere.

i miss gg home on time. i miss being at home at the rite time. i miss sleeping at the rite time. i miss mommy's food. i miss my freedom of planning 4 anything i like. i miss hvg time 4 anything i like...when can things get back 2 normal?

news news

johnny the 'kpo'...hahaha...told me something shocking tdy...tat darling wans 2 chg bf again! big news...we'll all be shocked bcoz we still trying 2 ascertain whoz her bf in the 1st place...hahaha. messy woman. anyway, saw an email from her co saying they reci my appln. i'm a bit worried tat if they call 4 an interview & offers me the job, shd i accept? shipping lines & banks offer the best prospects & $$$...confused confused!! i dun wan stay in shipping all my life...ahhh. juz now i had a tot, 2 find SY & ask him 2 be my referee, maybe the banks might recognise him (as if) & i will stand a better chance...but i got a bit apprehensive thinking of wat happened b4. i admit i still get a bit sore & upset over the incident. it was like a total rejection altho there might be other reasons which i might nvr noe. i still like 2 believe he's a nice guy altho he's not predictable, he has a presence in my beautiful memories afterall (wif the ladies, bcoz we r too old 4 gals...haha). hope he's happy in aus...& dun get eaten by the sharks =P

i'm tired altho i'm learning...but doing too much is tiring...i got a taste of AIC, understood y they cun tahan...itz really a lot of shit. glad this job's ending but nex shit job's starting...i'm getting a knack checking the staff track vy often...i'm vy scared AIC will chg 2 some u-noe-whos. scary place...arrows shooting everywhere...i felt like hiding. i tin everytime someone at least 2 levels above me wan approach, i'll jump & wan scream.

i hope i'm meeting the acca gang 4 lunch later...i dun hav much time 4 frens lately...i hardly hav time 2 meet them. i got 3 bday prez outstanding (u noe who u r...haha). i nid 2 organise a family trip 2 HK 4 may. i'm trying 2 get FAT 2 be involved & thy BF, if he's gg...tatz the best. i'm trying 2 send resumes & increase chances of landing a new job soon. & sadly, i hav 2 do my job now. the thing working against me is time. i'm trying 2 handle all at the same time & itz really challenging at times. i hardly tok 2 my parents this wk. i wasn't home a day 4 dinner. i din spend more than 2 hrs everyday wif thy BF this wk which is rare...haha...so sticky...like superglue. as i'm typing, i realised i miss the gals, when was the last time we sat down 2 tok, laugh & made fun of each other? the same gals who were wif me thru highs & lows (sounds a bit mushy)...i'm trying 2 divert attention 4 not buying their bday prez yet...keke.

i'm quite excited abt the HK trip, abt gg abroad, abt hvg a break. it was a place wif rather nice memories aft all. my 1st time flying alone, staying in hotels alone, business travel, travelling wif the boss (tho he's in C class & me Y class), interacting wif overseas collz, enjoying the perks of being a guest, wanton mee, the peak wif no view (:x) yada yada yada.

i shd sleep tho. this is no gd 4 later since i reckon i'll be rushing ard a bit later. i wan my shopping, darling (the real one)! =P

bad cramp day...

oh my, itz a cold cold day & i'm on mc AGAIn...it has sort of became a once-in-a-mth ritual...i cun help it, i am really sick. i'm hvg the worst menstrual cramps of my life, so much so i tin i really wan 2 juz faint & die esp yday (eliz, i understand y take out the womb) & i had no choice but 2 resort 2 med bcoz i cun sustain anymore. itz still on tdy despite it being the 3rd day. i nid 2 exercise, i tot it was better when i did...i cun remember the last time i exercised, now tat is bad, esp now my lifestyle is so stressful. sometimes i tot, is it really tat stressful (some ppl seems okay but there r ppl who r really exhausted like me) or is it me? itz both bah. darling sent a seemingly-nice job appln 2 me...but i tot i wan try out 4 a bank 1st, it was y i got myself in this shit 1st. sometimes i was thinking: hvn i tot i dun like audit all along & y did i decide i will try it? the power of desparation is scary at times but i comfort myself all the time tat it was a move i had 2 take juz tat aft i took the move, things actually became easier 2 get 2 my desired destination...haiz. life's challenges 4 me...i will tin of happier stuffs. BUT i'm sad tat half of my mc day's gone...really sad coz i still hav 2 wk tmr...luckily itz fri & meeting S.U.L. later...btw, heard AIC 4 job where S.U.L grouped's leaving...somewhere i dun feel much...he's a nice guy but maybe he shd go coz itz too stressful. i got 2 update my CV but i tot my jobs aren't something 2 boast abt in tat...something i hated too. watz it wif the allocation tat jobs r so mismatched & u look at wat u've done so far...juz shit & nothing much...haiz. i got 2 live wif it, i learnt tat i dun ctrl anything & i shdn't care tat much.

thy BF has interviews tdy & tmr wif the same organisation...i hope he's successful yet i'm not sure if they r wat he wans. hope he's successful so tat prob ppl wun tin he's slacking at home & he gets stressed over it, i noe tat feeling but itz impt not 2 end up like his gf, got into somewhere she doesn't fit in & agonised herself & everyone ard her, esp him...haiz. i'm thinking, i wan 2 eat! crabs, buffets, dim sum, french toast frm kim gary, crystal jade porridge, bbq seafood, dou jiang you tiao, roasted stuffs, tomyam steamboat & food frm aus like spinach pizza (this one frm UQ is really nice), oportos (itz less sinful than kfc), tuna pasta (vy yummy frm melb), red rooster (nice peas...hee), lentil soup (a bit like tau suan but superb nice at apollo bay) & all the fd tat we cooked tog...ah, i wan 2 get away frm here. i shd watch some south park & eric cartman b4 i start nagging again. alrite, i'm sick, i shd be resting. 1 more thing, my com seems 2 cun mk it...the flickering on the lcd's getting worse...i got 2 be more thrifty again (i din get anything at the latest m)phosis sales & tdy's the last day of the sale altho i nid at least a new pair of slippers).

P.S: the above r disoriented tots like the one shiling had 4 her latest post =P

monday bluuueees...

itz been a month...& i'm still grumbling away (as usual)...DAMN DAMN DAMN!!! haha...i feel better! U. (part of S.U.L.) was updating me abt the sat job market situation...wahahaha. i seriously tin getting out wld be better 4 me, i BUAY TAHAN at times man. i had 2 keep convincing myself this is gd 4 my future while i'm really terribly miserable...no wonder i kept falling sick...haha...rubbish but i hav got something nice out of this like S.U.L. (which stands 4 Stupid Useless Loser). i'm L btw wif the hand gesture somemore...sometimes we r SULA (+ Ann aka Flying Killer who has left us 4 better life...wuwu). nice times they were...altho we were hvg tough moments, tat period was spent thru much laughter too (remember F.K. laughing in tears...haha, S being Stupid as usual & U being Useless...wahaha & of coz, TT!! the team's fave...wat a slacking team...no wonder we can stand each other...haha

time 4 bed...thy BF wun be too happy seeing this entry huh...heehee...itz juz monday blues. i tin i'll hav a fruitless morn tmr...got so much 2 do i dunno where 2 start man...hates it...forgive my incessant nagging & whining, i promise i will try 2 get out of all this soon hopefully...i find myself irritating at times even. well...hmm, 4 the better of myself & others, i shd give it a try...btw, i wan scold FAT & she avoided it by being not back yet, tat messy girl anyhow anyhow put my stuffs...she forgets i'm a dead volcano ready 2 erupt anytime man...duh (myself). i nid 2 sleep lah, i'm getting ridiculous.

koon...

i nid 2 sleep!

i wan 2 SLEEP!! but my hair is still wet...

i'm a groggy, grumpy fellow these days. itz not even PMS lor...it muz be the sleep. When can everyday be a non-working day? i'm only looking fwd 2 weekends nowadays & then grumbling abt the end of it starting sat nite, then sun morn...thy BF can vouch 2 it...every wk w/o fail, his silly gf will grumble...haha

went 4 a midnite casino royale last wk...itz not exactly the best choice since at times, i cun concentrate bcoz well, itz past bedtime...i'm getting old, i cun keep late nites like this...tsk.

i shan't blabber on like this...mabe some shopping therapy will do me good...hee

almost lost it =D

i got in!! i tot i've lost this blog bcoz i juz cun recall my gmail a/c when i actually got none...haha.

hvn been blogging 4 vy long lor...busy wif wk...a job i dun like...i can cfm it more & more by the day & i'm not attempting 2 hide it when ppl ask. it dipped my life 2 a all-new low. i nvr felt i'm so lousy b4 can. itz tat serious...haha. cun wait 4 jul...btw, we better get our salary reviewed, everyone's getting a bit disgruntled too, maybe not only a bit...dun count on us lor. been hearing ppl gg over 2 aus 2 wk, gg back aus, comes frm aus...i miss the place...thy BF & i hav been comparing some places 2 Southbank but therez seriously no fight...

so i decided 2 post this "2 become 1" wannabe pic...artistic ne. realised i din take much pics of the place despite being there quite a few times...hmm. haiz...i shall suggest a family trip there in 2 yrs' time...we'll go HK & maybe japan 1st.

i wan 2 get an evening bag...4 D&D...yes, i'm gg bcoz i've nvr been 2 one b4 (dun count the one in KL). i manage 2 scramble a dress frm sis, i suppose i'll wear an old pair of heels or the new pair i bought last sat, so i nid a bag. anyway, rumaging thru my stuffs mk me realise i nid more bags (i seriously cun even find a white or beige one...OMG), shoes (blacked covered, black slip-ons & many many other colours), clothes...as thy BF said, itz nvr gg 2 be enough...NEVER!! haha...CHRISTMAS is COMING!! (for someone ~~)

FAT wans an ipod 4 her bday can, so the vy nice me am waiting 4 her reply if she wans an ipod video or normal one (i seriously hope she chooses the cheaper one bcoz thy sister is getting broke...unless i get a pay raise) & i juz told her the prez is 4 2 yrs...haha...i enjoy the look on her face...wahahahaha

FAT bought a kinda weird cake 4 her bro juz now...itz his bday...it has this biscuit bit at the bottom...& the bday boy is too full 2 eat but she doesn't care...she wans eat...wat a stupid girl...haha. itz kelly's bday too & while frantically searching 4 my secondary email juz now, i found out itz another sec sch mate's bday...blimey...is it a gd day? 1 lesser day 2 staying at tat place...itz a gd day =P

blabberings typed out on 02 Nov 06, 0.30am

i shd be sleeping...but i decided 2 write something b4 i go off...

cheated by kelly...wahahaha...she din tok 2 me 4 more than 10 sentences b4 gg off...i hope she reads this tho she'll be prob too busy. i'm not advising her on gg or staying...dun wan 2 prove extra helpful again...keke.

itz thurs loh...how happy...the wk is ending!!! YAY!!!

i'm thinking whether 2 get the purple bag frm little matchgirl...itz nice & i like the colour ley...hmm, but i juz spent $30 eating at din tai fung...can u imagine? all johnny's fault...wahaha. worst still, in the end i still din get the tix 4 phantom...haiz...i hope we get decent seats. i dun wan 2 risk getting beaten =P

i hav quite a bit of paper cuts all over my fingers...i dinno auditor = labourer at times...the boxes r so damn heavy & i always knew paper is dangerous. i cun c my bruise at my back which i got frm knocking myself against a desk...i felt so miserable then. this job really sucks at times. haha...i manage 2 tok bad abt the job again...wahaha.

juz realised my new shoes gave me blisters =Z

blabberings typed out on 29 Oct 06, 6pm

sunday is ending soon...i noe nice times fly fast...can tat be said the same of my seemingly-sucky job now? i hav no qualms 2 say i hate it. i hate it bcoz i hate it. no offence to anything or anyone. period.

spent the day watching a bit of tv, cooking pasta & barley water, cleaning up the place...left the washing 4 now. hmm, i'm not training 2 be a housewife...juz fulfilling some filial piety thing. my parents r off 2 their fave holiday destination 4 the weekend, so everyone's helping out a little & since tdy is rather hot (& i'm getting heaty, bit my lips twice =Z), so i decided 2 cook the barley water which i hope is drinkable. had a tiring but enjoyable shopping trip yday, itz a sisters' day out & funny things kept happening. angela & i were off 2 c the doc tog...we delayed the trip so much we reached the clinic at 12.30pm, almost dying of hunger then. we happily gobbled our crystal jade (btw, the spinach bacon thing i ate was vy nice, so was fat's pizza bread) breads, thinking abt the sakae lunch treat from my sis coming up @#$#@$#%&^&, her world's-BEST-local-**** delayed her leaving time & left the 2 of us flabberglasted & badly needing a seat (coffee bean's closed), we ended up at pastamania & fat (always not full enough & wan 2 eat something) tins we shd order a pasta. then the pasta came seemingly-not-very-cooked. up 2 this point, i was feeling so sucky, hvg a bad headache frm the heat & juz felt like gg home. we went 2 seiyu aft tat, aft buying things, i recovered! so miraculous huh...hee. my sis finally arrived & she's hungry, so the 3 of us went 2 sakae (finally) at 4+...& kept staring the conveyor belt, thinking therez not much we wan eat...the worst part is fat getting a headache frm watching the conveyor belt too much...she's ridiculous as ever. shopping continues aft the meal but we seem lacklustre. & sis got hungry again ard 8 2 our surprise (& agony). fat & my mealtimes were vy irregular yday...so we headed to the foodcourt where we spent half an hr thinking wat my sis shd hav...the elderly couple beside muz tin the 3 of us siao...3 persons sharing a bowl of black-rice-porridge cnt decide on main course. itz sure tough deciding 4 3 persons bcoz therez nothing we all wan 2 hav & we nearly switched destinations. when we happily settled on korean ginseng chicken, it was sold out. so aft another 'long' round of discussion, my sis bought some chinese gyozas & some hot & spicy soup which wasn't nice -_"'. when we finally reached the busstop 2 head 4 home, we saw a stall of wanton mee which looks vy nice...^&&*&($$$##@ tat concludes the day but i love spending it wif my sisters =D

watched the departed on thurs...understood y andy lau had some comments abt the amt of vulgarity in the show. it gets irritating at a point i felt like giving up the show. i cun really stand vulgar language, so i tin the original was better. andy lau is better. i felt ridiculous abt the way his character died in departed. itz like they dun hav enough time 4 tat & juz hav him die anyway.

argh, i can feel the ulcers coming up. sian...i dun wan 2 miss my food nex wk...but i better watch out in order not 2 get a sore throat. it seems like a busy wk & 1 i'll happily pass thru. thy bf is coming back nex sat. i noe everyone tins i shd be vy happy but i cun help getting emotional at times coz it wasn't easy...esp thinking abt wat the past mths hav been like. things i hav been thinking abt 4 mths r finally gg 2 happen soon bah, juz spending time & doing simple (not silly hopefully) stuffs tog & i can nag 2 him abt all things sucky in person liao...YAY!!! sometimes tho, i do hope i'm the one gg over & we r gg 2 live over there bcoz i'm juz so tired of the place (tatz how a sucky job hais u) but of coz, we hav nothing 2 be there yet & my glutton of a bf cun wait 2 be back 2 eat...his savoury glands r vy active now. i can understand. i miss the variety of food here even tho i'm only there 4 2 wks+.

a discoherent heap of stuffs written again. i juz wan 2 be able 2 recollect these tots in some time 2 come coz i noe i'll forget. i nid memory pills at times. btw, anyone nids a webcam? mine has served its purpose 4 the last time juz now...YAY!! =P

b4 i wash up...keke

i'm blogging b4 i go wash up...*to someone in particular =P

lovely...tdy is fri!!! i'm quite a fiery person tdy...due 2 the cramp...& hormonal thing...*i wan chocolates!!!* i'm thinking of shopping in this state! i wan some belts, earrings, clothes & shoes!!! i wan a haircut! shd i go 4 shoulder length? i noe i'll regret when i c all the flyaways...but sometimes i'm so tired of seeing the same me in the mirror everyday. i feel so sian of dressing up...muz be the job =P

i keep thinking my suitability on the job...itz juz not vy me...yet this is wat i kept hawking 4...haiz...so my odeon darling was vy shocked when i asked her 2 keep a lookout of jobs 4 me...haha...i like teasing her...itz vy funny...wahaha.

i'm trying 2 cancel some membership thingy i got in my 1st job...PISSED...they nvr got back...damn it, i shdn't hav procrastinate...SIAN!!

my uncle is hvg a bday dinner tmr...so funny...maybe tatz the 1st time he even had such a celebration in his life, so we muz give face...but fat already fell sick...haiz...haha. sometimes i look at my uncle & tot itz so sad not 2 hav a family by him at his age, so i try 2 be nicer (when he doesn't go out of his way 2 irritate us when he noes we will be!) =)

okay...time 2 wash up :P

random (& messy) tots...=P

i'm supposed 2 sleep...but i guess i got all the time 2 do it during the technical update tmr...ha. was told itz real boring. my latest job group seems nice...but not everyone will be back 4 the finals tho...had fun chatting & joking ard...will remember the walkthrough joke...ha. i'm in an environment where everyone is quite open abt their non-intentions 2 stay 4 long & tatz something i hav 2 get used 2...was told i'm actually in a vy gossipy environment, so always dun only c things on the surface. lately i hav been thinking wat do i wan out of this job...a smoother path 2 the nex job? meet more ppl? somehow i feel i'm still out of the picture looking at things inside...no, i'm not imagining tat i'm not in the situation but somehow due 2 past experience, i ahh, dunno how 2 express it in words...am able 2 look at certain situations & laugh it off? i'll hav frens in the co but perhaps not close...hmm, do i mind tat? i dunno...altho it seems gd 2 be involved but sometimes i'm glad i dun hav tat many contacts, i'm not energetic (& rich) 4 so many entertainments. i sounded kuku when i told ppl i love gg home aft wk...an ex-jobs cultivation. nowhere is more comfortable than home bah...i love being at home, love my family, love honey, love my bed, love the comfort & sense of belonging...i'm blabbering...haha

i got my cds, some miscellaneous & a vy ugly necklace frm my uncle, they look those u chant wif...wonder how he got himself 2 buy tat & all the way frm taiwan somemore...waste money! i spent 5 days of isolation (not much actually) when they were. finally went 4 langyi's dad's claypot rice...it was nice! itz always fun hanging out wif the gals...altho i'm kinda paiseh 2 c them still making the effort 2 accompany despite being vy tired...thks thks! *bows...we hav many yrs of friendship, so NO no signboard lah...haha.

jay singing in bossa nova...altho critics tin itz kinda weird but i tin itz nice...thinking wat he'll do in the mtv & concert...some tango? david's is well, vy david but still nice. 2 someone (pirate) in particular, i hvn (& dunno if i will) upload the album into my com.

my sis juz told me how much i still owe her...OMG...it means curbing my spending 4 another 2 mths...huh...when can i start saving? i keep thinking i nid shoes lately...stop it!!! it gets so solemn thinking of my financial status & how i hav save 4 this & tat so i hope i'll be rather busy wif wk so tat i dun get 2 spend much. thinking back...i used most of my finance 2 get myself 2 vy enjoyable & memorable trips in aus this yr, so itz worthed it & someone shd start saving 4 our HK, Japan & NZ trips in future...haha...& i hvn mentioned taiwan,bangkok, greece, ITALY, tasmania & more 2 come...ha.

speaking abt bangkok...they r experiencing a military coup. nobody noes watz gg 2 happen frm there but i juz hope no bloodshed...itz depressing seeing such news everytime. i hvn been 2 thailand b4 & i do hope 2 go 2 1 tat i've heard fondly of =)

finally we got the chalet 4 dec...thks 2 yinghui...it has sort of become a yearly thing huh...how wld things be in 3, 5 or 10 yrs' time? i noe it wun remain the same...i realised i do like reminisicing the past. i cun resist changes but some things r best left where & how they r isn't it? the world wun slow down 4 anything but itz moving so fast tat prob most of us can hardly catch it?

alrite...bedtime...YAY...2 more days 2 weekends!!!!!! =D

*is there anything u wan 2 tell me 4 tdy?* =P

*is there anything i wan 2 tell u 4 tdy?* erm, all these silly stuffs? =b

i wan to be AWAY!!!

there were times i'm grateful of the position i'm in & there were times i simply hated the position i'm in. i wish i hav a more carefree life but i cun stay unemployed. i wish i'm happier yet i'm let down by my pressure & emotions again & again. where has my inner peace gone? i keep worrying & stressing myself up...this is not wat itz supposed 2 be...wat went wrong?

telling myself: itz wk, juz wk! all in the normal course of wk! stop brooding over it will u?!

am i depressed? i tin i am. dun ask me y i got it, i wished i knew.

dun hav 2 worry...

got in finally...some pros wif logging in juz now...

itz sep liao!!! finally...i managed 2 stay 4 a mth on the job! i tin i'm beginning 2 empathise wif shiling's job sense more & more (no...i'm not fighting wif her 2 be star***'s most LOYAL employee...haha). i dun really like the enviroment...itz like a sch...scary...an extension of a certain tertiary institution. i was so not used 2 it, then i found out i lack audit sense in my brains...i'm hvg the newcomer's syndrome...confused by all the doc & how they link...maybe i do nid some homework. i'm stressing myself up again, the work perfectionist in me...i guess i really nid 2 relax but peak period is up soon & anyway, my schedule is rather packed, i'll immense myself in wk bah & try not tin so much...then there will be no more insonmia, loss of appetite...siao ley me, wk until like tat & i dun earn much 4 all this...ha

i tin i had insonmia last nite bcoz i was thinking abt life & death last nite...i was vy surprised 2 read abt crocodile hunter, steve irwin's death...my last vivid memory of him was seeing him on tv telling us not 2 bring certain items into aus while clearing customs. i remember getting quite nervy seeing tat coz i was trying 2 bring in a lotus root (under eliz's advice) which was not allowed...wat a irony & final twist 2 his life. i juz simply felt vy sad upon reading the news...the meaning here once again is u cun take things 4 granted...wat or who might be here tdy might be not the nex day...so so sad yet itz an unavoidable aspect of life. i nvr like thinking how wld i feel if ppl dearest 2 me moved out of my life 1 day, i get totally upset & terrified wif the slightest tot...i remember crying myself 2 sleep when i tot of how ppl ard me wld leave me 1 day. i do quite dread being alone when my family goes away 4 their holidays. itz so much worse than 'if u got a choice 2 be alone & u chose it'...therez like no channel 2 drive away the loneliness...maybe bcoz i do feel rather lonely at wk now...yes, i hav ppl ard me but itz juz so so diff. miss hvg juliet, doris & kelly 2 tok 2 & we can tok abt anything, dun hav 2 withhold anything bcoz we understand each other. sometimes, i asked myself, y am i struggling 2 adapt? is it really tat bad or i juz simply dun wan 2 adapt? y do i constantly affect myself wif all these tots when i hav told myself 2 let go, be myself, be happy? but deep deep inside, i noe i'm unhappy...i broke down into tears vy often, i dunno when's the last time i've laughed really happily & i tin i'm at the unhappiest period of my life so far...yet sometimes i find it hard communicating 2 ppl on my feelings. they will prob tell me itz like this or look at me like some weirdo, thinking i'm a spoilt brat who cun stand the slightest stuffs. sometimes i tin perhaps my communication is not gd, ppl mistook my points & i do get tired of toking aft a while. is changing 2 adapt the only way 4 survival? wat happens 2 happiness? dun i nid 2 be happy, if not y do i survive at all? 2 mk ppl share my unhappiness? argh...i tin i'm getting carried away wif all these, btw, ppl at my workplace r quite nice so far but...therez always a but. i miss my buddies. maybe it wld be better if therez msn during wk, at least i dun feel so disconnected.

oh no, got 2 sleep liao...itz gonna be a long day tmr...gg 4 forbidden city, actually glad i'm meeting the gals...i nid sanity BUT i dun tin they will provide me wif tat...haha.

2 mths 2 go...maybe tatz when my sanity will come back...=P

getting busy soon...

hmm, my wk schedule is starting 2 c some additions...i'm gg 2 banks...as i wld hav liked altho i dun mind some variety...juz dun put me mainly in insurance. itz kinda scary when a collz starts showing me my schedule when i came back frm lunch bcoz it was still empty when i chk my staff trak in the morn...starting 2 anticipate how it'll be like...hope i meet a nice senior like sherly. she said i'm the nicest person she met in the co so far...blimey...but itz a compliment anyway...ha & i'll consider visiting jakarta since i'll hav a guide...haha . 1 gd thing i got being in this co is tat i get 2 mix wif ppl of diff nationalities & races...i felt multi-national & itz nice 2 noe multi-cultures =) btw, therez a nice fish soup stall at amoy fd centre...long Q tho but then, there seems like Qs everywhere there. lunch is normally a sweaty affair which urs truly definitely hates, esp when the weather is vy hot now.

met pauline last nite...we went 4 the crystal jade porridge as usual...wondered if she noticed it...we went 4 tat almost everytime we met. enjoyed the chat as usual...we r both talkative...haha...reminds me of poly days...the group is vy scattered now. i hav mainly acquaintances frm tat now.

i'm craving 4 fd now!!! i keep feeling i nid fd...haha...yet i dunno wat i wan 2 eat...a plate of fried vege wld be nice =P

so my family is gg 2 taiwan in 2 wks' time...i hav nvr sort been alone in the hse 4 so many days b4...really gg 2 feel weird bah...but i'll be on a job 4 the 1st few days of their trip, so i guess prob i wun feel tat much lonely & i'll be seeing the gals during the weekend...always nice seeing them...can tok abt anything under the sun...wif no restrictions too...oh ya, shiling, ur tarot cards...haha =D

T-I-R-E-D E-Y-E-S

itz sure is damn tiring 2 be staring at computer screens 4 8 hrs a day & i already did tat 4 2 days...i can feel my eyeballs getting all starry & i'm now quite afraid of computer screens. i dunno y i'm blogging here then...another day & it will be the weekends!!! YAY!!

true love prevails all

my sis was telling us how her poly fren has broken off wif her bf of 9 yrs due 2 religious differences, she had refused 2 convert 2 his religion. tat is so sad...while it remains 2 be seen if they will still be together in the end. so itz not true love will prevail all...this world can be vy realistic aft all...ppl fell out wif each other due 2 $$$ & the smallest thing u can tin of.

so thy bf might be coming back in nov instead. hmm, i'm actually vy happy tat the days r shortened again. being apart is vy tough aft all, i hav 2 admit but true love prevails all =)

everything is fine...

was at friendster juz now trying 2 add langyi & decided 2 look thru other ppl's profiles...got reminded of the past & realised how time flew & things changed...scary at times. sometimes i tin of my age & find the rate of growth horrible. i went 2 new job 2 find most new-joiners younger than me. hmm, there were once when i was the youngest among all but slowly slowly i'm not anymore...AHHHHHHH...i wan my youth!!! tat also meant my energy, drive & heck-care attitude. i hav became a slacker, lost some drive & worst, became a worrier. i tin i worry a lot, tin a lot & sometimes i hate myself 4 tat. it wasn't like this in the past...sighz...

david tao's releasing his album tmr...& i only knew when i read i-weekly...how un-updated...i tin i'm so detached frm current affairs nowadays, so in my own world.

heard frm FAT tat 恶作剧之吻 is gg 2 be shown on channel 56 soon...how nice...another idol drama 2 go aft aft 恶魔在身边, a vy nice & sweet show. oh, shiling is gonna meet he jun xiang in her job...hope she wun drool too much...haha & dun forget our pic!!

itz fri tmr!!! working is so tiring...ha...i wan 2 travel! i wan 2 go back 2 australia!! i wan 2 travel ard the world!!! i wan a clean clean break frm everything...sometimes i tot it wld be nice if i can go somewhere where absolutely no one noes me & i dun hav 2 get 2 noe them. c...i wan 2 live in my own world...i sure itz not 自闭症...dunno y i dun like crowds nowadays...i juz wan 2 be at somewhere quiet, hvg some peace of the mind. i muz be tired. i tin too much. everything is still fine. meeting the acca gang later...hope i wun fall sick...ha.

oh ya, david david...but the 1st single sounds a bit weird altho he's vy gd as usual...btw, his new hairstyle a bit weird =P

Harbourtown!!

ooh, Harbourtown 4 today!! dunno itz a coincidence or wat...i visited the same place on my last thurs here 4 last trip too...blimey...anyway, i'm gg there 4 a walk (hope & tin so...) BUT hope 2 get some cheap officewear...a CHEAP blazer suit wld be vy vy nice man...keke.

currently on a show called 'my name is earl' which is recommended by eliz to thy BF aka her stranger. 4 some strange (or silly) reasons, thy BF likes calling it 'a man called earl'...i guess he's too infatuated wif the story 'a man called Horse'...too many yrs of slavery 2 daph maybe...haha or Mr Carry's sleep-inducing literature class. anyway, tat show is nice...kinda different...hmm, perhaps the 1st english serial thing i tin i will be watching all episodes. itz basically abt this guy called earl gg wif a list 2 start making up 4 all the bad things he tin he did...hmm, how long wld my list be if i hav 1? maybe i shd ask angela abt it...i'm sure she will come up wif many of mine...oops =P

tdy i'm quite inspired BUT i hav 2 go bath now...thy BF will be back in another half an hr or so...there will be no Harbourtown if i continue nua-ing...

3 days b4 gg back sg...haiz.

time FReeZe....

i'm sure everyone hav moments when they wished time can be stopped in this spectrum. juz here, neither less nor more, juz here...if time stops at this moment, i will be in brisbane in 1 of my many lazy mornings...sometimes i'm surprised at how much i wan 2 stay here & not go back 2 s'pore (at least 4 a while). i feel vy relaxed here & it helps a lot tat itz winter now (cold tho...brrr...) while i hav 2 go back 2 face a new job & the HEAT...sian sian sian!! a week has passed w/o much notice...will someone give me the power 2 freeze time?

itz officially 6 mths!!

okay...time 2 tidy the room...hee =P

blabberin's,,,

i'm hvg a break...flying off tmr...Wooooh...how nice!!! sometimes i tot itz incredible tat this is the 3rd time i'm gg back (mum sure hopes therez no 4th time...wahaha). itz winter there! nvr experienced winter all my life...except genting & tat bit of wintry feeling in HK. I wan my red rooster, pancakes, pancakes, coles, woolsworth...& many more...whahahaahah. i already told someone tat many many times...hahaha.

listening to The Calling's Wherever You Go...i dun remember the full lyrics but listening 2 the chorus brought out a bit of the emotional me (again)...itz almost 6 mths...yet it always seems like itz still 6 mths ago sometimes.