oh my, itz a cold cold day & i'm on mc AGAIn...it has sort of became a once-in-a-mth ritual...i cun help it, i am really sick. i'm hvg the worst menstrual cramps of my life, so much so i tin i really wan 2 juz faint & die esp yday (eliz, i understand y take out the womb) & i had no choice but 2 resort 2 med bcoz i cun sustain anymore. itz still on tdy despite it being the 3rd day. i nid 2 exercise, i tot it was better when i did...i cun remember the last time i exercised, now tat is bad, esp now my lifestyle is so stressful. sometimes i tot, is it really tat stressful (some ppl seems okay but there r ppl who r really exhausted like me) or is it me? itz both bah. darling sent a seemingly-nice job appln 2 me...but i tot i wan try out 4 a bank 1st, it was y i got myself in this shit 1st. sometimes i was thinking: hvn i tot i dun like audit all along & y did i decide i will try it? the power of desparation is scary at times but i comfort myself all the time tat it was a move i had 2 take juz tat aft i took the move, things actually became easier 2 get 2 my desired destination...haiz. life's challenges 4 me...i will tin of happier stuffs. BUT i'm sad tat half of my mc day's gone...really sad coz i still hav 2 wk tmr...luckily itz fri & meeting S.U.L. later...btw, heard AIC 4 job where S.U.L grouped's leaving...somewhere i dun feel much...he's a nice guy but maybe he shd go coz itz too stressful. i got 2 update my CV but i tot my jobs aren't something 2 boast abt in tat...something i hated too. watz it wif the allocation tat jobs r so mismatched & u look at wat u've done so far...juz shit & nothing much...haiz. i got 2 live wif it, i learnt tat i dun ctrl anything & i shdn't care tat much.
thy BF has interviews tdy & tmr wif the same organisation...i hope he's successful yet i'm not sure if they r wat he wans. hope he's successful so tat prob ppl wun tin he's slacking at home & he gets stressed over it, i noe tat feeling but itz impt not 2 end up like his gf, got into somewhere she doesn't fit in & agonised herself & everyone ard her, esp him...haiz. i'm thinking, i wan 2 eat! crabs, buffets, dim sum, french toast frm kim gary, crystal jade porridge, bbq seafood, dou jiang you tiao, roasted stuffs, tomyam steamboat & food frm aus like spinach pizza (this one frm UQ is really nice), oportos (itz less sinful than kfc), tuna pasta (vy yummy frm melb), red rooster (nice peas...hee), lentil soup (a bit like tau suan but superb nice at apollo bay) & all the fd tat we cooked tog...ah, i wan 2 get away frm here. i shd watch some south park & eric cartman b4 i start nagging again. alrite, i'm sick, i shd be resting. 1 more thing, my com seems 2 cun mk it...the flickering on the lcd's getting worse...i got 2 be more thrifty again (i din get anything at the latest m)phosis sales & tdy's the last day of the sale altho i nid at least a new pair of slippers).
P.S: the above r disoriented tots like the one shiling had 4 her latest post =P
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