3rd time lucky?

& i'm blogging at wk again...itz finally fri & i dun hav 2 go 4 class tonite. wat a relief...my study mates & i agree tat we r terribly shacked out by the sheer volume of the syllabus & no. of classes a week. nex mth will be worse as we will try 2 clear a lot of classes...pray tat i survive. not falling asleep in class is a major achievement in itself, i supposed any part-time student wld agree the 7.30 mark is the hardest 2 survive...once tat is over, u may awake once again or slack as usual. physically i'm there but sometimes mentally, i'm already somewhere else...dunno where...juz somewhere.

Dama sent us some of her co's opening party pics...no dashing guys (oops...haha), not even her much reputed MD, in fact i tin he looks a bit like chen sheng the singer...now tatz real oops...& our fren gets 2 speak 2 the minister! okay, maybe itz not tat fascinating 2 some but i do feel quite fascinated...sorry abt tat...haha.

& i'm watching Initial D 4 a record 3rd time tonite. i hav nvr watched a show even twice at a cinema, Initial D broke tat & now i'm actually gg 4 a 3rd time. watz wrong wif me? but i'm pondering: will i still get excited at the racing scenes? will i still feel like crying when jay did? will i laugh at the same jokes again? will i doze off? tonite shall provide all the ans. anyway, i'm still looking fwd 2 the thing bcoz itz this starlight cinema thing whereby u watch the movie under the stars (if it dun rain lah). watching jay under the stars...woo...not bad at all. ya, itz a vy romantic prospect but gg wif the wrong person tho, i shdn't complain coz it seems like shiling's pri sch mate's beloved fren is getting more initiative which is not bad at all. i tin he's sick of us nagging...hoho. wif shiling, it might hav been better bcoz we can gush at jay together (gal, u count this as a compliment? well, she's the supplier of the tix, so i hav 2 be nice)...hee.

The Peak? not sure...

HK disneyland is opening...& i'm reminded of my trip in mar...a pic of the Peak or at least some peaks near it. i dunno if itz nostalgia or wat. somehow i juz kept got reminded of my prev job. no, i dun wan 2 go back 2 it but there r some wonderful memories tat will stay etched in my mind forever. i was looking back at some old pics & the scenes tat provided the photos juz keep flashing back....the laughter, tears (frm laughing), everything & it sure doesn't help much aft the meet-up last fri. i do miss the time when therez always someone 2 tok 2 & how working hrs passes in a flash & i can only communicate wif them mostly via msn now. maybe i wun feel so stressed wif the odeon kakis ard...maybe. those 3 yrs formed a big part of my memories & i tin tatz the best environment any 1st job cld provide. had a VY gd laugh tho at the meet-up...it was getting a bit rowdy & RA (not juz darling's u-noe-where...Dama, i'm sure u noe where...winks...haha). pity Dama aka Ms Super Worker (this woman wks 7 days a week...gosh) cun mk it, if not it wld hav been rowdier & darling wld feel she had a worse nite...haha.

itz gd 2 actually noe we can still communicate real well despite not working tog. common topics r so impt...itz wat links ppl. sometimes i wonder wat will happen if topics run out amongst frens, then i decided it most likely wun bcoz we will be repeating the topics umpteenth time & can still laugh over it. tatz wat bonds us also bah...a language only We understand.

i scared myself again tdy but things aren't flowing tat well too...sigh (x many times)...i really wish my body can tok =/

felt like hvg mooncakes suddenly...felt like eating everytime...trying my vy best 2 curb my appetite. always feel like eating despite juz finishing a meal. rite, i shd juz drink water when tat happens. aft all, water is gd 4 health, skin & it can flush out the toxics (tin so). k...MORE WATER CAMPAIGN starts...=)

sometimes i refuse 2 tin abt certain things. it wks a day & maybe doesn't the nex day. haiz, i shd get a life. i hope 'march of the penguins' will still be on nex week.

mon cherie...

the ice mon cherie at tcc. itz this beautiful & VY sweet b4 stirring. looks like teh tarik aft stirring. beautiful drink tho...tatz wat gourmet coffee's all abt.

in angst again...

this is the 1st time i'm blogging in the morn since i started wk here...wat can i say except itz a tired tired morning again...slept ard 10+ last nite, hvn done tat 4 a long long time, yet i'm still tired. wat can i do 2 drive away all these exhaustion? holiday? exercise? i miss perhentian suddenly again, tat place has this serenity ard it & i hav nvr came out frm another vacation feeling better. vacations r meant 4 relaxing & resting, yet most of the time we feel more exhausted aft tat bcoz we attempted 2 get our money's worth of the place. i came back frm aus w/o my voice (thks 2 those fish & chips...gave a new meaning 2 chips), frm HK wif limbs tat felt like breaking (thks 2 the shopping & attempting 2 reach the Peak wif heels & shopping alone, buying souvenirs) but now i felt like gg back 2 both places...anywhere 2 get out of here...suffocating.

i ponder abt my future everyday bcoz therez pretty nothing much else 2 tin abt. if i dun get my future rite, wat else can i tin of? i tot abt doing auditing 4 a while but everyone in the profession noes auditing wk can be real tedious...dunno if i can take it.

itz teachers' day tdy...y cun it be a public holiday? i tin we shd hav more public holidays...our nex ones r in nov...biangz but Ms Tan shd be enjoying her long awaited break...hee.

if i'm still paying 4 the scv subscription, i might well juz scrap it bcoz it seems like they r not showing the italian league this season. Damn damn damn! those bloodsuckers who claim they r giving value 4 money! Wherez the value?! no Gilardino when therez already no Inzaghi! this is bad bad bad! maybe not much ppl cares but when itz a source of entertainment tat nvr fails 2 bring a smile 2 ur face, it sure stings in the heart. how do i complain & once again, like any other complaints u made here, does it matter?

DAMN...

damn it...the diarrhoea's back...i can only take it as my body's trying 2 clear off toxics since i'm trying 2 avoid sweating. how do i describe it? the damn thing juz wun come out once & 4 all. i simply dun wish 2 bother wif it but my brain is telling me: no, u cun...itz part of u & whose fault tat itz like tat? alrite, me me me okay?

damn it tat i'm broke now & i got no medical benefits 2 fall back on, so i'm plying 4 time 2 go 2 a polyclinic 2 attempt 2 c if i can use my medisave 4 all treatments.

damn damn...everything's not really gg the way they shd be. i hope my luck is still ard. i nid it at least 4 the exams.

damn damn, the tummy seems preparing itself 4 a storm...DAMN IT!!!

EQ

i realised my EQ is not as high as i like it 2 be. i do panic easily. much as i love 2 believe i'm a calm person, some incidents hav shown me i'm not as calm as tot 2 be. take this incident, my dear sister got some virus frm her fren thru msn, i nagged as i tried 2 solve the pro & it ended up wif wws solving the pro. i was totally lost & relied on anything he fed me & 2 a certain stage, i was hot, flustered bcoz i cun go & bath, eyes also gg blurry & a sudden exhaustion overcame me. i juz lost it. i was louder 2 my sis & i cun carry on the phonecall wif shunqing. ended up itz juz a 3rd party addon which is harmless...huh. is it low EQ or a combination of multiple factors? btw, i hav 2 thk wws, he is vy helpful as usual. i tin i delayed his sleeping time again....real paiseh.

i am sick of the way my tummy hav been gg 2 itz same old ways. i wish 2 reject all treatments & c how it goes, yet i cun help being worried abt it. i noe i shd go 4 a scan but i admit i do get afraid at the tot of wat they will find. oh well, i guess i will go 4 1 nex mth, i cun let this drag on...the exams r coming & i hav 2 be well 4 it & i do appreciate vy much the concern frm frens...thk u!

i hav no sch nex week...so happy...YAYEEE!!! finally, a long-awaited break & a vy precious one bcoz aft tat, got 2 chong all the way till exams liao. hope my body will be able 2 take it.

oh, i hvn got my white dress & matching shoes. the day is closing & therez a metro sale. i shd take some action but shopping is almost the last thing on my mind nowadays since i'm perpetually broke most of the time. i hav 2 pay 4 the exam fees, daily expenses, living expenses, entertainment fees (i entertain my frens & they entertain me...haha) & david tao's concert (hope he dun come during my exams bcoz it will the 2nd time he does & the 4th time my idols r doing this 2 me). i wish i cld moonlight...kidding...i shd rest =)

Shacked...Sick...Sian...

hvn been blogging 4 2 consecutive days 4 some time. hmm, therez only 1 word 2 describe myself now...SHACKED!!! now tat i hav class 3 times (sometimes 4-5 times) a week, i am normally half-dead by wed. a tiring class consists of endless copying, fast understanding & class is always conducted in such a fast manner tat u either copy or understand...of coz u hav 2 copy & try ur vy best 2 mk use of the limited time 2 understand. the break is always a pathetic 5 mins where u miss the start of the 2nd half if u wan 2 Q 4 the loo. i feel tired typing out the sequence too. therez class tmr aft =(

keep hvg this niggering discomfort in my tummy tdy...certainly hope itz still okay. the chinese physician told me tat my gastronomy is still weak & i got 2 watch carefully wat i ate. i hav 2 avoid spicy, sour & cold fd & tat meant cancelling out a lot of potential menus...i'm on a soupy diet now but i ate some french fries & some oily fan choy tdy...no gd ne. i simply cun curb myself sometimes but this is 4 my own gd...i got 2 bear wif it. the new medical formula is juz yucky...i hav got used 2 the prev one but the physician adjusted the formula aft i told her of the heatiness, the taste is juz terrible...wherez my sour plums.

realised i've been msn-ing quite a bit wif wws lately...we even tok thru msn...yes tok...using headphones. itz so amazing...he doesn't sound faraway & he's the only one i can frequently use my webcam but i dun bcoz i am normally vy dishevelled at home =P. i wonder if we will tok tat much face-2-face. sometimes itz juz tat unexplained, u can tok abt anything wif one on a phone or internet but u cun repeat tat when u meet face-2-face. itz tat awkward & u also dunno y. it used 2 happen wif the bankers & business associates, even some frens or acquaintances, i wld call them.

huh...seems tat everyone's out enjoying their friday while i cun wait 2 reach home aft sch. most ppl crave 4 fri 2 arrive sooner, i hope it end sooner bcoz it spells the end of a tiring week altho another one will start soon.

time oh time...

as i was walking 2 bugis mrt stn juz now, i saw the shop already selling lanterns...oh, tatz fast & i mean time. itz aug now. therez an old saying tat says a day passes by slowly but a year will go by vy quickly...i agree. itz amazing the rate time passes & itz so fast tat it seems tat therez not enough time 2 get things done.

the coming mooncake festival will be a busy day 4 me...my cousin's getting married on tat day & we r helping as the 姐妹, so i hav 2 go get a white dress & matching shoes...burning a hole in thy pocket again but itz my 1st time, shd be pretty exciting bah tho tiring.

tot i hav pretty much 2 say but all is lost by the time i sit here...sighz...i feel vy tired nowadays. the repeated falling sick & sch has zapped out most of my energy. i nid a break!!! i wan a break!!! & damn it tat i noe i will only get 1 in dec & i hav 2 get thru tat dreaded exam. oh, i feel so broke too...aft the settlement of all the bills, i will hav dig deep into the savings which i hate coz itz not tat much...f*** it. cun wait 4 all these 2 go away.

& i c the contradiction in all this, while i'm lambasting abt the fly-past of time, i'm hoping 4 time 2 pass faster, so tat i can end my current agony. we contradict ourselves all the time & yet hope we r not tat contradictory.

oh ya, david is attached. he dedicated 天天 2 his special fren at his shanghai concert. hmm, got 2 find another cancerian liao...haha. i ponder sometimes. wat is it tat mks us label ppl as gd, platonic or special. how gd, platonic or special? & bcoz such relationships r sometimes entwined wif the female/male relationship, so it lead 2 certain ppl's conclusion tat a male & female cun stay tat kinda frens. i believe in such pure friendships but shd i call him my gd, platonic or special fren? let me tin abt it...

i love charlie & the chocolate factory...Johnny Depp is fab & he's a Gemini =)

Happy Birthday, Singapore!

itz national day tdy & a public holiday, vy glad 4 the break...hmm, this yr the celebrations seem 2 be everywhere but i slacked at home...as usual...& itz a HOT HOT day again. itz so hard 2 predict our weather nowadays...it can rain vy hard 1 mo & the sun starts shining vy hard the nex. this weather condition is bad.

the news is full of reports on the celebrations...itz always times like this tat makes u feel patriotic. ever since i performed at ndp in 1996, i developed an interest 4 the parade...no, i din Q 4 the tix, juz find the parades more interesting but i din catch the main bulk of it tdy.

din hav anything particular 2 blog abt or i juz lost all of it aft trying 2 get some wind frm the fan...still feeling hot...tin i will continue reading deception point, my 3rd dan brown book. oh ya, i hvn mention...angels & demons blew me away & the novel was largely based in rome...hee.

my country turns 40 tdy & how will i be when i'm 40? i seriously dunno.

Imagine...

i shd be sleeping by now but cun seem 2 bear 2 sleep...maybe itz the freecell game or rather the songs...as i said b4, i will listen 2 all the sad songs once in a while 2 try releasing some suppressed emotions. something is still wrong wif my tummy...i'm experiencing some pain but also constipating a bit at the mo. when i tin on the bad side, i really start scaring myself...gg 2 c a chinese physician tmr...hope everything will be fine aft tat. this is affecting a lot of things, esp wk & studies r clashing due 2 it...off again on mon 4 make-up class, cun afford 2 miss again. i felt so lost juz aft missing 1 lesson, yes juz 1.

i once heard tat most ppl r only using less than 5% of our brains & geniuses r those who apparently used than tat...hmm...is it bcoz most of us use it 4 needless tots, tots which well, we might as well not tin abt it bcoz it nvr got sorted anyway & u ended up more confused aft tat. worse still, we imagine a lot. when we imagine abt the rite stuffs, itz call creativity but otherwise, it juz create a lot of other emotions which we dun nid. i actually do imagine a lot, imagine how things will be in future, imagine how ppl will react blah blah blah...imagine how i will react in certain situations in case i shd even met up wif them. some imaginations do turn up 2 be true tho...& some, sadly, doesn't or maybe it hasn't happen yet or it will nvr happen & shd stop imagining tat it ever will.

lately, i tried 2 be adamant in giving up certain things & realised tat old habits die hard, like i'm trying 2 eat healthily due 2 my stomach pros & am experiencing keeping a strict diet. altho i din abide by it sometimes (i'm juz human aft all...excuses!), generally still quite gd =). & my face, i shd stop my itchy hands frm doing anything 2 it unnecessary but sometimes i still do...no gd, no amt of beauty pdts will help if i cun curb it.

k...tin i really got 2 sleep liao. me, my body & skin nids the rest, so i shall give it now...ya & honey too..still sitting beside me, poor thing.

quite some Tots

had an urge 2 blog tonite...seems tat therez a lot on the mind yet some things r meant 2 be kept secret. wat shall i start wif?

watching 完全娱乐...they r toking abt horoscopes. which horoscopes shd girls go aft? mine is Cancer...hmm & my sis immediately reminded me tat david tao is a Cancerian...oh ya, gd gd...haha...got chance liao. i do quite 欣赏 him. i like his intellect & maturity altho he borders a little on preaching but i guess 1st i wld be memerised by his talent...haha. he can write a song 4 me...swoon (& daydreaming)...but he's 36...wonder if age will really pose a problem *fingers scratching chin*...as if i'm really gg aft him but itz really not a bad idea (still vy keen on the idea)...haha.

i'm doing some self-entertainment. maybe i'm feeling a bit deprived at the mo. i tok a lot when i reach home...maybe bcoz i hardly tok (u dun count msn-ing as toking) during the day. u can ask my sis...she's amazed i can laugh vy badly at any shows wif 吴宗宪...well, i find tat guy damn funny...loves watching his shows 2 relieve some stress...keke.

heard something yday tat i wld say i was quite shocked 2 hear...hmm, as bad as the circumstances may be, i nvr expect 2 hear tat. dunno wat 2 say but tat statement is still on my mind shows it does bother me a little. or is it sometimes u can say anything when u r not feeling ur best? am i finding excuses or juz perplexed abt something i shd not be? i also dunno.

had a mahjong game wif the usual ppl yday & i was the biggest loser. makes me wonder if the curse persists aft TAT game at my hse the last time. if i remember correctly, i nvr touch mahjong aft tat until yday & huh...& ya, shunqing fails his driving test. oh well, he can always wait till the nex test in nov but by then wws shd be back...hmm, spolit 4 choice...haha.

lastly, poor Dancing Q kana robbed of her hp last fri. come 2 tin of it, it was both a relief (tat she's fine & unhurt) & scary (imagine if something more unfortunate happens) encounter. goes 2 show we can nvr take safety 4 granted. much as s'pore is touted as vy safe but such things still happen & seems on the rise. huh, watz the problem wif society nowadays? anyway, glad she's unhurt.

i shd be copying my notes & i ended up here...tmr i hav 2 use my fastest speed liao. itz tues now...at least mon is over.

stomach problems GO AWAY plz...

chg the template bcoz i saw a prev comment frm shiling tat i'm using the same template as a certain sec sch mate i certainly dun wan 2 be associated wif...gulp...quickly change. the chinese fonts r real big man.

on mc tdy...the diarrhoea & stomach hav been on & on...4 quite long. i am getting worried & it got worse aft reading tat i hav the symptoms of some cancer types...real touchwood. hope all these will wear off soon. hope i will be able 2 savour the butter crayfish on sun. sighz...u get 1 problem solved & the other starts.

not gg 4 class tonite...guess i nid a break frm this crazy schedule. it has been real tiring & i sure hope i'm not getting stressed again. when i am, i get all sorts of warnings frm my body. shd try 2 relax & maybe everything will be better =)

therez 1 thing i can cfm abt myself lately, i hate 离别...tears juz welled up when i saw KF leaving, knowing tat we might well nvr meet again 4 the rest of my lives. Separation is inevitable in life. i noe it but i always get emotional during it. i juz feel sad when it takes place but it cnt not take place...1 not-so-nice aspect of life.

dunno wat 2 further write on, feeling lost. shd be the stomach problems affecting me or something else real boliao? i dunno & i juz wan 2 give my mind a break sometimes.

there were GD & bad...

finally written the email 2 KF, was at a loss of words. dun even dare re-read wat i've written...he probably tins it as rubbish...haha. nvm, i tot i hav done my best. ah, hate departures...always makes a person emotional esp when u noe such farewells might be forever. watever it is, he added warmth 2 the shrinking me during the notice period, i wish him well.

noticed some vy Singaporean (i tin so) traits while attending an IRAS workshop tdy.

1) Late.
Even the presenters r late...okay, they might be waiting 4 the latecomers b4 starting since they reckon there was too much time but how abt ppl who were punctual? maybe i will feel differently if i hav 2 go back 4 wk aft tat but cun ppl juz be punctual? spread a tot 4 those who r.

2) Repeating Qns
tatz it...we love not listening when others r toking, then asked the same qn. again, pls spare a tot 2 the ppl who hav answered & listened. sighz...

therez 1 gd thing tho...jelin's pregnant. some things juz cun be explained. decided 2 sms her as i was at her workplace & she told me abt the gd news. it hav been almost 7 mths since i attended her wedding & she's waiting 4 a new life 2 be bestowed 2 her arms. i can feel her happiness bcoz i noe i will be if i'm in her position. haha...getting carried away...imagining myself as a mom...but tat wld be so faraway =)

my birthday analysis

6月6日出生的人相当具有远见，这样的特质会展现在他们的专业、家庭事务、研究领域上，而且会影响他们生活的每个层面。对他们来说，实现远大的计划永远是第一要务，虽然偶尔会感到些许的寂寞；但是因为早已习惯将心事深深埋藏，所以即使是最亲近的人也很难分享他们内心深处的情感。

他们最大的危机就在于因为眼光过于远大，而使得言语或是行为表现太过极端，因此遭到伤害和失败，甚至造成生命的危险。因此，在这天出生的人应该要特别小心运用自己的天赋。

凡是两极化的事物，都相当吸引6月6日出生的人。他们不耐烦于要对人有所妥协，也不喜欢寻求中庸之道，最合他们心意的行事模式就是直截了当地去追求心中的目标 。

部分在这天出生的人，或许外表看业温和保守，但事实上内心却隐藏着强烈的情感。假使社会和环境强近他们过平凡的生活，他们仍旧会把那股冲劲转移到梦境和幻想之中。

这天出生的人女性看起来可能有些奇特，甚至有着怪异的倾向。不过，比起这天出生的男性可就不算什么了，他们才是真正的怪人。

6月6日出生的人当中发展较差的，会因为事前欠缺考虑，而做出荒诞不经的计划，当然也就无法实现。事实上，他们应该学着去认真规划人生的定们，为自己寻求合适的出路。不然，如果长期这样下去，常常处在极度不平衡的状态下，很可能会做出触犯法律或摧残心理的事来。
6月6日出生的人当中最成功的，就是运用他们高瞻远瞩的想法，使周遭的人有所开启、发展；通常，他们会以一些特殊的沟通方式达成，比方写作、演讲或非语言的表达方式等等，而那些了解他们的人，也的确可以因此获得灵感、得到某种启发。然而为了让更多人听得见他们的意见，他们偶尔也需要发表长篇大论，以确保自己的想法已经被清晰地传达，并且确定在他们与听众之间没有代沟存在。

此外，他们还具有革命的热忱，为了社会进步（从他们的角度看来），他们不异进行全面改造，所以“自由”对他们来说，其实只是个口号。

from a website recommended by shunqing...got a bit lost reading it...maybe bcoz itz something different. let me noe if itz accurate =)

the website: http://astro.lady.tom.com/script/birthday/birthday.php

another meaning of Chanea

tdy's big news is apparently my ex-boss (head of the white hair group...nice, DaMa?) tendering his resignation citing health reasons. he has told us abt it b4 i left, he did it finally which i tin is gd 4 in a way...he shdn't be subjected 2 such stress at his age & if we, at our age cldn't take it, it muz be vy bad 4 him. maybe will write him an email...he was quite nice aft all ;)

i actually went an engine search 4 'chanea' this aft in an attempt 2 find out if they will list this webby & i found out tat chanea is actually a town on a greek island & itz a beautiful place...wow, how dreamy. Athens becomes 1 of my destination cities aft watching an episode of globe trekkers, so somehow i find the link vy interesting. some ppl hav asked me abt the name. well, itz actually derived from Chanel & itz the name 4 some imaginary character, supposed 2 be french-sounding bcoz Chanel is, tot itz supposed 2 be 独一无二, so i was vy surprised 2 learn abt the greek town & itz actually ppl's name. so ya, itz not my christian name but i got quite inspired 2 name my daughter it nex time...hmm...not bad...something imaginary turns out 2 exist.

survived Class...

itz cfm...maybe i really cnt live w/o the com...i nvr tot 1 day this wld happen 2 me. i face the com whole day at wk, can still come back & continue using...juz like an addict...this is bad...esp 4 my eyes. hmm, muz try 2 curb myself...try...

& i survived my 1st class in 6 mths...it wasn't as tiring. maybe bcoz itz the 1st day bah. my mon, wed & fri r burnt till nov which i hav 2 start preparing 4 a horrible exam...pray everything will be smooth-flowing. i cun let this drag on. took the mrt wif lily juz now...juz recalled the last time we did it was a yr ago. & it juz simply reaffirms the fact tat time does fly...so much changes hav taken place but still a nice ride & we hav another half a yr 2 do it. lily is another fren i'm extremely confortable wif...can ki siao wif...haha & we can tok abt anything...nothing 2 hide juz tat we dun mit often if we r not having classes but not this sem, where we can even c each other 4 5 days a week. guess we can start puking at each other aft everything...haha.

was trying 2 tin of something 2 do 2 my hair. itz too dry & fizzy & ya, i'm too broke 2 afford 2 do anything too ex. i hav a few choices like 2 rebond it again which i figure is not worthed 2 do it now bcoz itz TOO HOT! but something funny happened, the hairstyle lily suggested 4 me was wat i wanted 2 do originally...hmm, i shd tin abt it again. meanwhile, a cut shall suffice. i hav other items waiting on my list...waiting 4 metro storewide 20% sale 2 get them...hope i dun hav 2 wait too long.

our Minister Mentor once said aircon is the greatest invention (i tin so...dun sue me 4 this)...i agree 2 a certain extent bcoz i do tin other inventions r great like even a ricepot (is tat wat itz called...gosh, i forgot abt tat too!) but in our climate, i shuddered 2 tin wat will it be like if therez no aircon. itz not juz a matter of being too used 2 it anymore. itz juz too hot...i hope i can escape 2 somewhere & somehow, it reminds me of aus again. nex yr...i will save up from now...like real...haha.

hope kim's com is fine...

decided 2 blog as i'm waiting 4 kim 2 come back...the minute i start, she's back. sometimes life's like this. it might hav nothing 2 do wif this statement but it juz came 2 my mind & tada, i typed it out.

juz ended an 'acct/g session' wif eliz's bro...eat ur heart out, shiling...haha...had 2 rack all my brains 2 mk sure i provided the right info. hope he passes his assignment or i hav 2 start hiding & perhaps, hide behind my ACCA cert in shame when i get it? haha...hopefully not but it was basically a gd exercise 2 refresh my memories...maybe even better if my notes r ard & tat reminded me 2 get my notes back from dancing Q. i will nid it in 3.5 & maybe 3.7.

speaking of it, i'm starting sch nex wk...how SAD! itz gg 2 be so tiring wif 3 evening classes every week. i hav no life officially 4 the nex half a yr & i'm gg 2 be a regular feature at Starhub Centre (not 2 look 4 shiling or ivy...sorry gals...haha).

lately some strange things happened. i will tone down my words & be more careful wif it...u nvr noe wat it will lead 2.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 Sister & Juliet! it also mean i hav 2 burn a hole in my pocket...heehee.

as i'm finishing this entry, kim is logged out again. i really hope her com is okay =)

i got a new watch

juz reci a gift from thy kakis...a watch...juz wat i wanted...been wanting 2 get 1 & always ended up not getting 1 & getting tonnes of other less impt stuffs. juz realised all my existing watches were gifts...interesting fact 4 myself...k, i will get myself a chain watch (2 complete the pro look...hee) erm, hopefully soon.

still waiting 4 hair 2 dry...darling & i actually stayed till almost 11 4 the bbq. tat was unexpected...we were enjoying our chats wif juliet's hb & i got 2 noe more abt insurance tdy. i guess i was previously quite lost on it. i only knew i nid 2 buy them & not much else. tok a lot wif darling tdy...hvn saw her 4 quite long...we were discussing issues tat were well, vy practical ones & wondering how we will be in the future. itz nice & suddenly, i really miss the times we worked tog, how therez always someone 2 tok 2 at all times & how i enjoyed being at wk. we both realised the chain of events tat resulted in the situation tdy & sometimes changes dun really mk ppl happier & perhaps tatz y we can be real perverse & resistant 2 it.

oh, i hvn mention Initial D...itz NICE & i'm watching a 2nd time. love the racing scenes & the movie was well-shot, of coz therez JAY!!! he seems 2 hav great complexion in the show...wonder if itz foundation doing the trick. ya, muz mention Edison too...he's cute...haha...& he's a Libra...things r getting more norm...geminis r typically more attracted 2 ppl of their own element like libra & aquarius but i hav been liking ppl like Jay (capricorn) & David (cancer) lately...vy not me (i'm getting irrelevant here) bcoz ppl of these horoscopes hav opposite characters & i juz realise they share the same horoscopes as my sisters. well, tat doesn't seem impt...haha!

我相信。。。

decided 2 blog...as i'm listening 2 david's I believe...song of the moment.

在我的视线有一个模糊的光芒
指引我追寻心里的梦想
每一天我需要多一点勇气
灌溉我的心让信心能继续

我知道这旅程一定会很艰难
必须面对这一切不管多累

i believe 我有一天
会能够让自己所有的梦想实现 wo yeah
我知道会有一天
生命中的希望会在我眼前出现 wo wo yeah
再也不用一直怀疑
因为爱存在我心里面
coz i believe
coz i believe

要看清楚很容易迷失了方向
追寻这个梦让未来发光
oh..不怕错只怕我知道不敢做
绝不能轻易把一切都放弃

i believe 就在今天
我一定让自己所有的梦想实现 wo

因为我相信
在眼前每一个梦想都实现
我看的清楚看的很清楚

i shd feel so inspired. Yes, i noe i can. feeling vy broke...i wonder how much of my savings will be left aft this 'break' but i find myself getting better at saving...only buying when i deem necessary, like skincare & haircare pdts...heehee. got my breakout treated tdy...i hope it wun happen frequently.

we r gg 4 Initial D tmr! Yay, we even hav the tix booked bcoz it looks like it will be a full hse. i tin it shd be enjoyable.

watched Madagascar yday...dinno a giraffe can be tat funny...haha. aft tat, we had a chat at kfc...went thru some topics as i inject some of my logics into shiling...haha...she tins i'm a vy logical person. maybe itz bcoz i'm in a/cs, suddenly i seem 2 understand y r ppl not seeing matters the way i am. they r not as logical. being logical has itz advantages, i get 2 point out facts but on the other hand, it might mean i'm too realistic. sometimes we nid dreams 2 move on, 2 convince us things can happen, give us courage but then again, it means i wun be daydreaming too much.

i cun seem 2 grasp how i feel nowadays. am i happy? i am laughing but somehow i do feel empty. do i noe wat contributes 2 this feeling or rather, do i wan 2 acknowledge the issue? y am i still bothering myself wif it when i dun seem 2 care anymore? maybe when sch starts, i will be more exhausted & hav lesser time 2 tin. my future will start nex yr, this yr i will concentrate on getting something tat will help my way 2 it.

i believe. Period.

will start remembering the name 'Gilardino'...

Alberto Gilardino...current Golden Boy of Italian football...might be at ac milan nex season (wat a salivating prospect...haha!)...only 22 yrs old (DOB: 05 Jul 1982) & ya, wat a hunk too!