so many things r true...

here i am, sneaking in the middle of wk 2 blog a bit...hee...juz reci a call fm an agent in China & realised my mandarin sux aft all...i am so used 2 singlish...i cldn't even maintain a proper conversation in Mandarin w/o blurting out some ang moh...oops...i got 2 wk on tat...aft all, i'm known as knowledgable in Chinese...hee =P

was toking 2 my insurance agent yday & realised i'm actually in a dangerous position 2 contract some illness bcoz it seems like i'm terribly stressed out...i also dun understand y so much things 2 do juz like others nt understanding wat r we being busy abt...sad case...bcoz u hv done nothing 2 solve the old pile & new stuffs keep coming in...i'm quite lost also...so many things happening & we always noe a bit here & there & hope others noe enough 2 piece up other...well, everything...as i will sum up...is juz a mess. i feel so tired & i hope my body cn last...i will treat u soon...pls hang on...

shd i say thks 2 Sleazy who was at 1st toking 2 me on msn...then calling me...hmm, i guess he muz be vy bored while waiting 2 c the doc...well, he's a 'nice' guy isn't it? haha...but juz like i told him, sometimes if u aren't in the situation, u wun understand...no matter hw hard u try 2 empathise or tot u wld understand...itz nt juz u perceive...so itz true, the adult world is complicated & a web of messy relationships.

i tin i'm quite unhappy...affected by things happening ard me...wat i saw...i shd try 2 clear off those stuffs & nt let them affect me but even i can hardly convince myself 2 be as unaffecting as possible. i believe i'm at the beginning of the end already.