恶作剧

读着好友的网上日记时， 读到了这句：

我们常常花很多时间去找一个懂自己的人或自己要的人。
若真的有那样的一个人，自己却不是他想要的。

一句让我很有共鸣的话。。。我们通常花很多时间去找或等一个自己己预先设定的所谓梦中情人， 却忽略了既使让我们找到， 他不是理所当然属于自己的。 往往把自己弄得更加疲惫， 还有伤心， 因为终于找到了， 但却没有预想的完美结局。 可是至少事实己摆在眼前， 不得不面对。。。想想， 至少这代表解脱， 也给自己一个机会去看到别人。 经历多一件事情， 只会让自己往成长跨多一步， 也让自己了解自己要的是什么。

我相信上苍让我们经历每一件事情都是有原因的。

最近非常喜欢这首歌：

我找不到很好的原因 屈足等着一切的亲密
这感觉太奇异 我抱歉不能说明

我相信这爱情的定义 奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔的清晰 也许飘来好消息

一切新鲜有点冒险 请告诉我怎么走到终点
没有人了解 没有人像我和陌生人爱恋

我想我会开始想念你 可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
我想我已慢慢喜欢你 因为我拥有爱情的勇气
我任性投入你给的恶作剧 你给的恶作剧

我找不到很好的原因 屈足等着一切的亲密
这感觉太奇异 我抱歉不能说明

我相信这爱情的定义 奇迹会发生也不一定
风温柔的清晰 也许飘来好消息

我才发现 你很遥远请让我再嘲笑你的想念
没有人了解 没有人像我和陌生人爱恋

我想我会开始想念你 可是我刚刚才遇见了你
我怀疑这奇遇只是个恶作剧
我想我已慢慢喜欢你 因为我拥有爱情的勇气
我任性投入你给的恶作剧 你给的恶作剧

王蓝茵的恶作剧。。。是 melody 和 MTV 的猛打吧。。。但是真的很值得一听。

因为这首歌， 我很想看恶作剧之吻 =D

x'mas ah x'mas...

itz x'mas eve...& time really flies isn't it? my exams r over...sure hope itz the final one 4 my acca qualification & it was hell of 3 papers, the 1st time i wanted 2 cry & walk out on the paper halfway & it happened twice. hav 2 pray hard...keke

speaking of praying, i did visit the Guan Yin temple yday...2 pray 4 safety & gd luck in my job search. speaking abt job searches, it sure is mafan...send resumes, wait, then hav 2 go interview...nearly went changi south 4 interview...imagine working there...hoping 2 get into pwc, got 2 start working under cpa 2 achieve my ultimate objective: cpa status.

i was told tat my zodiac will 犯太岁 & i hav 2 go pray again if not it will be quite bad 4 me in the yr. hmm, tot abt my job search & decide 2 do juz tat. ya, u can call me superstitious but therez no harm taking precautions.

sometimes i feel rather lost, not much guidance on the nex step. i tin i'll hav 2 let nature take its course. had a lot of tots during the study period but blogging them wld be too long now, another day perhaps.

非常喜欢这句歌词：趁世界没发觉， 让我带着你离开。。。
有时真的很想逃离现在的世界， 有一种真的很疲惫的感觉。 太累了，人生如果都这么累，又怎能享受生活？

hey, i'm not suicidal hor...in case the words r too depressing. i still hav a lot of undone things...like gg 2 italy 4 my beloved inzaghi (blush...wahaha), get my results (yes, i wan it aft working so hard!), watch jay & david in concert again, faye's comeback, da vinci code the movie (but tom hanks looks a bit...), a trip back 2 aus (saw it on globetrekkers again last nite...sighz), send out the x'mas card 2 funayama-san (keep forgetting), eat langyi's claypot rice (hav been saying it 4 the longest time), buy a new phone (get job 1st), wash honey (he's turning 2 blackie soon...oops), tidy up my stuffs (tough task), buy a car (4 dad 2 drive, dun wan depend on certain ppl's car), treat my diarrhoea pros (popped out again lately...sianz), be a nicer person (always trying hard), taming the wicked mouth (sometimes itz quite hard...keke), not 2 get high pitched when i'm excited (i realised it runs in the family) & many more...gosh, so many things 2 be done...waisey...

btw, merry x'mas...better get started on funayama-san's card...itz already vy late...=b

meeting the nhss gang later, always happy meeting them...shd hav a lot of laughter...GD.

凌晨三点钟

i cun wait 4 all this 2 end yet i dun feel prepared 2 undertake the challenge yet.

i nid strength 2 hold on.

it has been too long.

i'm so so tired. when can i hav a proper sleep? & give my poor eyes a break? do wat i wan 2 do？

david's fab but even he cun save me frm the exhaustion. i hope u come by again soon.

happy birthday, Ryan Giggs, my fave Man U player. come back soon, itz tough seeing my fave footie team like this.

现在是凌晨三点钟，听着凌晨三点钟。。。突然觉得有点落寞。

持续下去需要一股力量，但有时它该从哪来才有用。。。

*&^&%$##^%^&&*&^

shacked...Shacked...SHACKED!!!

typical day goes like this: wake up, wash out, rush 2 nus, study till like 9pm, rush home, wash up, study again...finally sleep ard 1/2...& amazingly, the whole process juz repeats itself the nex day. i wonder if eliz & i will puke at each other aft all this. i tin we hav also planned enough 4 david's concert & the dec bbq.

speaking of the bbq, really looking fwd 2 it...hvn seen some ppl 4 like a yr...like the still-vy-silly wenwei (who's busy pursuing world peace & hunting down terrorists nowadays...wat a guy!), gungho joey (no kiss-the-cards game again pls...) & others lah...shd be fun.

anything shd be better than now. tin itz less than 30 days 2 exams now...& the syllabus is juz so large u hav pro gg thru all & worst, hav 2 memorise them. gg crazy...i'm at 3.6 last sat. i'm still at it as at tdy. i hope i wun be printing my past-yr papers 4 nothing (it costs $18...a lot 4 a no-income earner). ya, i'm getting broke...real broke...nvr felt like this 4 quite long. cun even take a cab home aft studying.

David Tao in another 13 days...suddenly i look vy fwd 2 the concert. he might strip. not exciting me at all.

AGAIN & AGAIN it happened!!!

i'm sick 2 hear how i juz hate such msn conversations & it juz let itself happen again & again...it nvr used 2 be like this...watz happening? getting on each other's nerves all the time & hvg 2 speak oh so carefully...but still ruffling each other.

i hate this. how do we end this?

38 days away frm freedom...

38 days away...in sheer agony...

life's abt strategic planning, advanced corporate reporting & strategic financial management till then...itz sad sad sad & i felt like puking aft staring at the notes 4 too long, yet i cun take too long a break...this might be my last blog 4 a long long time...nid 2 study in recluse frm thurs...no time 2 waste...=(((((((((

can i fast fwd the date 2 15 dec? i reckon i will feel vy vy happy tat day.

pray tat everything will be fine...

oh ya, david in 21 days...i cun help but not feel so excited...exams r really depressing...

十一月...gd or no gd?

tdy's hmm, shd be the 3rd liao...nov spells a lot of things but 1 of the most exciting one is jay's latest release: 十一月的萧邦. a long-awaited release! i tin as usual, on the 1st listen, nothing stands out but as u listen, the album will juz grow on u...this guy is real talented man. take a listen 2 his dig on paparazzi on 四面楚歌...the lyrics r so jay...oh my gosh...i dun wan david 4 now, give me JAY can???

speaking abt david (on a more down tone...wahaha), i actually paid $170 2 go watch david...when i buy (& when i watch), i was so excited. now as i'm getting broker (but still spending...amazing), i miss my $$$. been calculating a lot lately...& i've decided 2 go bangkok, haha, wat am i trying 2 do 2 myself? spend all i hav? i nid a job!!! so i hav 2 study hard, pass my exams & hopefully everything will flow smoothly frm there & i get a job soon. then i can start my yoga, getting a driving licence blah blah blah. u sure nid money 4 all these. damn damn, this world is so abt money sometimes.

while i was taking the bus 2 wk the other day, i saw students frm MINDS boarding the bus & making their way 2 little india 2 view the festivities of deepavali. i find it vy heartwarming. kudos 2 whoever tot of it. i saw the teacher & tot when i cld be like tat. i tin itz not easy 2 teach those students. u might nid a lot of patience but the satisfaction & joy cnt be matched bah. i hope therez 1 day i can be like them. i tin i like myself 2 be a kind person. u cun help but believe in karma sometimes. i hope i hav done enough kindness 2 accumulate enough karma 4 the coming exam...Pray...pray...

i finally saw a moving Gilardino this morn...he seems quite big sized. i din stay long enough 2 c his full view but i tin he is really handsome. looks exactly like frm the photo. sometimes itz hard 2 believe he's the same age as me & a mth younger somemore...i'm getting old...sob sob

so anyone wans 2 buy the $170 ticket frm me? i'll probably be kicking myself when the concert arrives tho. i hav already bought the 荧光棒, sometimes itz better not 2 be wif eliz too often, we start planning a lot & psycho each other 2 buy wat we dun nid...amazing friendship...haha.

no lah, of coz i still like david (26 nov is 3 wks away!) but itz jay's moment now...will i dream of him? (do i really wan 2?)

time 4 bed tho...got 2 start studying later...cun afford 2 delay it again...=(((((((

the postcard triggers...

i shd sleep...itz the time 2 but i juz picked up something unexpected. i dunno how long it has been laying there...suggests i shd look thru tat pile of letters more frequently. if i din tin of settling my debts tonite, i might hav juz missed it.

tdy's the 25th, wld hav been payday if i'm still at the old place...ya, missed my prev pay...hav 2 but in a way, i've learnt 2 be thrifty altho still spending tho. hence, all the bills & debts & i'm still thinking abt gg bangkok early jan, i really hav 2 do some serious planning. i worry abt not getting a job tho, then bangkok how? so many ppl hav gone there this yr & they all came back wif so much 战利品。how can a shopaholic not go there? i shuddered 2 tin wat eliz & i can tin of during our study period...we decide on the aus trip while studying tog a yr ago...hmm...we (at least me) dun hav enough 2 go further this yr.

i'm reminded of the ex-workplace bcoz i actually reci a postcard frm Funayama-san. i was vy vy surprised! i nvr tot i wld reci such a gesture frm him & he bothers 2 keep my address...oh dear, i was so touched. he still remembers me. i tin i will return the gesture wif a x'mas card...yes, i juz tot of it. luckily he wrote his add...hmm, does tat mean he's expecting something in return? sometimes when i tin back of some things at wk during the past 3 yrs, i will cringe & be a bit grudgy abt their treatment but surprisingly, itz always KF whom we hav much complaints abt, making me realise not all things r so bad.

the card mks my day. itz tat amazing sometimes. juliet was telling me abt the vacancy they r finally offering. i tin it will take a lot 4 me 2 convince myself abt gg back. i cun dun mind the shabby treatment given during the notice period & later part of my service 2 the co. but when it flashes back, it still hurts. something u given so much, wk so hard & yet this is all u get. i will also hav 2 learn frm my mistakes. i did commit quite a lot & wld only do well 4 myself 2 reflect on them.

2 quote my current boss:
it is all in ur head. U believe u can, u will

i will. 4 my exams & future. looking forward.

btw, Super Pippo scored last nite. how wonderful! tho sad i cun c it, at least i saw the repeat telecast last thurs. brightens my day. pls cut ur hair tho, Pippo. itz too long. =P

天气冷冷的。。。

十月十六日 雨天

今天下了一整天的雨。好冷，我想好久没下这么冷的雨了，那种冷得直打颤，恨不得马上冲进温暧。

天气是否会影响心情？ 雨天冷冷的， 是不是更容易想起伤心事？ 有些事真想永远记不起，记忆却一再唤起它。 有些事你还真很想记着，却怎么也想不起。 是因为悲伤一定比其他情绪深刻吗？ 就因为伤过，尝到痛的感觉，在告诉自己不会再重蹈覆撤的同时， 却己让此事烙印在心上。 每当遇上伤心事，就会用此事来提醒自己不会更糟了吧。

忘记哪有如此容易？ 如果真这么容易， 应该是因为不够刻苦铭心或爱的没那么的深吧。 也许我觉得是一个曾经几乎等于自己生命的人，何堪就此忘了？ 时间或许能冲淡感觉，但有些记忆却怎么也退不了。

发觉自己好久没用华文，所以才会写出此篇东西。。。有种语无伦次的感觉。。。哈哈。

Pippo oh Pippo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i shdn't be blogging now but i had 2 c this off the AC Milan website:

SUPERPIPPO WARMS UP

Pippo Inzaghi is ready to return. After a long injury, the striker of the 252 goals is set to take the pitch again in a ’real’ game. The official test for his return to competition will be the game against Legnano that the youth team coached by Franco Baresi will face on Saturday afternoon at home in Settimo Milanese for the second day of their championship. The training on Friday at Milanello gave the green light to the player who, if the weather is not bad, will wear again the Rossoneri shirt, even though that of the second team. The event is part of a consolidated tradition: it has often happened, and not only at Milan, that stars returning from long injuries have restarted from a game with the youngsters.

oh my gosh! oh my gosh! Pippo's coming back!

but damn oh damn, scv's not showing the Serie A this season. i hope he will be well enough 2 represent his national team at the World Cup nex yr.

Other than Pippo, we got the tix 4 david's upcoming Nov concert liao...wat an exciting morning! we r sitting at Row 11...tatz the most front i've ever sat at a concert. oh my gosh! oh my gosh!

i hope i can maintain my composure when it comes 2 them but i dun care!!! haha

Coundown to seeing Pippo: ... =(
Countdown to seeing David: 47 days =D

PS: the above in orange is extracted frm acmilan.com...in total excitement...keke

momo peach is better

i shd be sleeping...i feel vy sleepy, yet i muz wait 4 my hair 2 dry =(

juz back frm club momo. i wonder if therez a curse on clubs opened at tat place. went 2 sos yrs ago, it wasn't fun. it was the same tonite. i felt i wasted my time & money. i cld hav been at somewhere else where i felt my money & time well spent. in the end, i got more shacked out. it was so crowded i was scrambling 4 breath at times...bad...ppl keep knocking into me while dancing...worse...music u can hardly dance 2 or noe...worst. those raps juz completely zapped out my energy & i dun tin i will ever visit the club again.

not a fruitful trip esp aft i'm knocked off by the options, money mkts, futures...oh my gosh, there juz seem so much things needed 2 be known 4 the exams...if i'm already stressed, i am even more now. no gd at all. oh, & it brings 2 my visit 2 the specialist. well, itz juz a medical trainee i tin who attended 2 me who kept insisting i'm okay...i noe i'm better nowadays but cun i insist on the scan since i'm paying? i juz wan 2 mk sure i'm okay...quite irritated by her attitude tho, anyway, the scan is scheduled nex mth & there r quite a few procedures i hav 2 observe & poor mom hav 2 stay throughout wif me. she is trying 2 get my sis 2 accompany & sis was saying she can take leave...woo, all these is really getting a bit exagerrated.

i dinno i can still hear something quite depressing at this hr. i shd be happy. i'm gg 4 a ktv session wif my siblings...looking fwd 2 it =)

bluish mon...

something seems wrong wif the blogging screen...huh, everything seems 2 be gg crazy, the com, the weather, the ppl & everything else worthed mentioning.

there was another terrorist attack again & in Bali again. tot indonesia has the largest muslim population in the world & this is happening in their backyard. juz wat r ppl thinking? taking innocent lives 2 prove a point? they shd take it against ppl whom they r aft. when is this war gg 2 end? never. so long we r still bent on fulfilling our own selfish wishes & ignoring other ppl, never! this is a more dreadful disease than sars, aids, dengue fever, bird flu watever combined. look at wat our own kind can do 2 us. can someone help us? things r juz getting ridiculous.

next, the weather, i dun tin s'pore hav been this hot in oct b4...ya, itz oct now, i keep hvg this illusion we r only somewhere in may or jun which r the hottest mths. the weather chg is juz amazing...u hav the worst sunshine in 1 min & nex dark clouds start 2 gather & it rains, then the rain stops & the sunshine is back, all in the space of maybe half a hr? therez nature coming back 2 haunt us...we hav done too much evil, tatz y we r bestowed wif even more evil ard us...sighz...dun we always say there r better things & ways 2 live?

& i'm feeling lethargic as usual. when can i perk myself up? our taiwan trip seems postponed yet again & i started worrying abt not being able 2 find a job soon aft my exams. i nid 2 brush up my interaction skills, get ready 4 interviews & blah blah blah, there r so many things i nid 2 improve on. will i get a job? i nid coz i'm feeling broker than ever =(

itz mon again, tatz y i'm here nagging a bit b4 starting wk bcoz i'm suffering frm the post-weekend blues (i nvr fail 2 not get it tho). everyone shd leave me alone at least until the evening when i might feel slightly better. the heat has help make the blues worse :/ & oh, the tot of class, itz another 12hrs b4 i can reach home =(((((((

wat can perk me up? holiday? inzaghi? (YES YES YES!!!) food? (maybe...craving 4 gelato) slack?

& i noe: a trip 2 italy where i will c my beloved footie player & i can hav authentic gelato & slack at the same time while looking at hunks walking past but i wonder if i might feel they r too over. well, 1st i hav 2 save up & get there, then i'll noe =D

3rd time lucky?

& i'm blogging at wk again...itz finally fri & i dun hav 2 go 4 class tonite. wat a relief...my study mates & i agree tat we r terribly shacked out by the sheer volume of the syllabus & no. of classes a week. nex mth will be worse as we will try 2 clear a lot of classes...pray tat i survive. not falling asleep in class is a major achievement in itself, i supposed any part-time student wld agree the 7.30 mark is the hardest 2 survive...once tat is over, u may awake once again or slack as usual. physically i'm there but sometimes mentally, i'm already somewhere else...dunno where...juz somewhere.

Dama sent us some of her co's opening party pics...no dashing guys (oops...haha), not even her much reputed MD, in fact i tin he looks a bit like chen sheng the singer...now tatz real oops...& our fren gets 2 speak 2 the minister! okay, maybe itz not tat fascinating 2 some but i do feel quite fascinated...sorry abt tat...haha.

& i'm watching Initial D 4 a record 3rd time tonite. i hav nvr watched a show even twice at a cinema, Initial D broke tat & now i'm actually gg 4 a 3rd time. watz wrong wif me? but i'm pondering: will i still get excited at the racing scenes? will i still feel like crying when jay did? will i laugh at the same jokes again? will i doze off? tonite shall provide all the ans. anyway, i'm still looking fwd 2 the thing bcoz itz this starlight cinema thing whereby u watch the movie under the stars (if it dun rain lah). watching jay under the stars...woo...not bad at all. ya, itz a vy romantic prospect but gg wif the wrong person tho, i shdn't complain coz it seems like shiling's pri sch mate's beloved fren is getting more initiative which is not bad at all. i tin he's sick of us nagging...hoho. wif shiling, it might hav been better bcoz we can gush at jay together (gal, u count this as a compliment? well, she's the supplier of the tix, so i hav 2 be nice)...hee.

The Peak? not sure...

HK disneyland is opening...& i'm reminded of my trip in mar...a pic of the Peak or at least some peaks near it. i dunno if itz nostalgia or wat. somehow i juz kept got reminded of my prev job. no, i dun wan 2 go back 2 it but there r some wonderful memories tat will stay etched in my mind forever. i was looking back at some old pics & the scenes tat provided the photos juz keep flashing back....the laughter, tears (frm laughing), everything & it sure doesn't help much aft the meet-up last fri. i do miss the time when therez always someone 2 tok 2 & how working hrs passes in a flash & i can only communicate wif them mostly via msn now. maybe i wun feel so stressed wif the odeon kakis ard...maybe. those 3 yrs formed a big part of my memories & i tin tatz the best environment any 1st job cld provide. had a VY gd laugh tho at the meet-up...it was getting a bit rowdy & RA (not juz darling's u-noe-where...Dama, i'm sure u noe where...winks...haha). pity Dama aka Ms Super Worker (this woman wks 7 days a week...gosh) cun mk it, if not it wld hav been rowdier & darling wld feel she had a worse nite...haha.

itz gd 2 actually noe we can still communicate real well despite not working tog. common topics r so impt...itz wat links ppl. sometimes i wonder wat will happen if topics run out amongst frens, then i decided it most likely wun bcoz we will be repeating the topics umpteenth time & can still laugh over it. tatz wat bonds us also bah...a language only We understand.

i scared myself again tdy but things aren't flowing tat well too...sigh (x many times)...i really wish my body can tok =/

felt like hvg mooncakes suddenly...felt like eating everytime...trying my vy best 2 curb my appetite. always feel like eating despite juz finishing a meal. rite, i shd juz drink water when tat happens. aft all, water is gd 4 health, skin & it can flush out the toxics (tin so). k...MORE WATER CAMPAIGN starts...=)

sometimes i refuse 2 tin abt certain things. it wks a day & maybe doesn't the nex day. haiz, i shd get a life. i hope 'march of the penguins' will still be on nex week.

mon cherie...

the ice mon cherie at tcc. itz this beautiful & VY sweet b4 stirring. looks like teh tarik aft stirring. beautiful drink tho...tatz wat gourmet coffee's all abt.

in angst again...

this is the 1st time i'm blogging in the morn since i started wk here...wat can i say except itz a tired tired morning again...slept ard 10+ last nite, hvn done tat 4 a long long time, yet i'm still tired. wat can i do 2 drive away all these exhaustion? holiday? exercise? i miss perhentian suddenly again, tat place has this serenity ard it & i hav nvr came out frm another vacation feeling better. vacations r meant 4 relaxing & resting, yet most of the time we feel more exhausted aft tat bcoz we attempted 2 get our money's worth of the place. i came back frm aus w/o my voice (thks 2 those fish & chips...gave a new meaning 2 chips), frm HK wif limbs tat felt like breaking (thks 2 the shopping & attempting 2 reach the Peak wif heels & shopping alone, buying souvenirs) but now i felt like gg back 2 both places...anywhere 2 get out of here...suffocating.

i ponder abt my future everyday bcoz therez pretty nothing much else 2 tin abt. if i dun get my future rite, wat else can i tin of? i tot abt doing auditing 4 a while but everyone in the profession noes auditing wk can be real tedious...dunno if i can take it.

itz teachers' day tdy...y cun it be a public holiday? i tin we shd hav more public holidays...our nex ones r in nov...biangz but Ms Tan shd be enjoying her long awaited break...hee.

if i'm still paying 4 the scv subscription, i might well juz scrap it bcoz it seems like they r not showing the italian league this season. Damn damn damn! those bloodsuckers who claim they r giving value 4 money! Wherez the value?! no Gilardino when therez already no Inzaghi! this is bad bad bad! maybe not much ppl cares but when itz a source of entertainment tat nvr fails 2 bring a smile 2 ur face, it sure stings in the heart. how do i complain & once again, like any other complaints u made here, does it matter?

DAMN...

damn it...the diarrhoea's back...i can only take it as my body's trying 2 clear off toxics since i'm trying 2 avoid sweating. how do i describe it? the damn thing juz wun come out once & 4 all. i simply dun wish 2 bother wif it but my brain is telling me: no, u cun...itz part of u & whose fault tat itz like tat? alrite, me me me okay?

damn it tat i'm broke now & i got no medical benefits 2 fall back on, so i'm plying 4 time 2 go 2 a polyclinic 2 attempt 2 c if i can use my medisave 4 all treatments.

damn damn...everything's not really gg the way they shd be. i hope my luck is still ard. i nid it at least 4 the exams.

damn damn, the tummy seems preparing itself 4 a storm...DAMN IT!!!

EQ

i realised my EQ is not as high as i like it 2 be. i do panic easily. much as i love 2 believe i'm a calm person, some incidents hav shown me i'm not as calm as tot 2 be. take this incident, my dear sister got some virus frm her fren thru msn, i nagged as i tried 2 solve the pro & it ended up wif wws solving the pro. i was totally lost & relied on anything he fed me & 2 a certain stage, i was hot, flustered bcoz i cun go & bath, eyes also gg blurry & a sudden exhaustion overcame me. i juz lost it. i was louder 2 my sis & i cun carry on the phonecall wif shunqing. ended up itz juz a 3rd party addon which is harmless...huh. is it low EQ or a combination of multiple factors? btw, i hav 2 thk wws, he is vy helpful as usual. i tin i delayed his sleeping time again....real paiseh.

i am sick of the way my tummy hav been gg 2 itz same old ways. i wish 2 reject all treatments & c how it goes, yet i cun help being worried abt it. i noe i shd go 4 a scan but i admit i do get afraid at the tot of wat they will find. oh well, i guess i will go 4 1 nex mth, i cun let this drag on...the exams r coming & i hav 2 be well 4 it & i do appreciate vy much the concern frm frens...thk u!

i hav no sch nex week...so happy...YAYEEE!!! finally, a long-awaited break & a vy precious one bcoz aft tat, got 2 chong all the way till exams liao. hope my body will be able 2 take it.

oh, i hvn got my white dress & matching shoes. the day is closing & therez a metro sale. i shd take some action but shopping is almost the last thing on my mind nowadays since i'm perpetually broke most of the time. i hav 2 pay 4 the exam fees, daily expenses, living expenses, entertainment fees (i entertain my frens & they entertain me...haha) & david tao's concert (hope he dun come during my exams bcoz it will the 2nd time he does & the 4th time my idols r doing this 2 me). i wish i cld moonlight...kidding...i shd rest =)

Shacked...Sick...Sian...

hvn been blogging 4 2 consecutive days 4 some time. hmm, therez only 1 word 2 describe myself now...SHACKED!!! now tat i hav class 3 times (sometimes 4-5 times) a week, i am normally half-dead by wed. a tiring class consists of endless copying, fast understanding & class is always conducted in such a fast manner tat u either copy or understand...of coz u hav 2 copy & try ur vy best 2 mk use of the limited time 2 understand. the break is always a pathetic 5 mins where u miss the start of the 2nd half if u wan 2 Q 4 the loo. i feel tired typing out the sequence too. therez class tmr aft =(

keep hvg this niggering discomfort in my tummy tdy...certainly hope itz still okay. the chinese physician told me tat my gastronomy is still weak & i got 2 watch carefully wat i ate. i hav 2 avoid spicy, sour & cold fd & tat meant cancelling out a lot of potential menus...i'm on a soupy diet now but i ate some french fries & some oily fan choy tdy...no gd ne. i simply cun curb myself sometimes but this is 4 my own gd...i got 2 bear wif it. the new medical formula is juz yucky...i hav got used 2 the prev one but the physician adjusted the formula aft i told her of the heatiness, the taste is juz terrible...wherez my sour plums.

realised i've been msn-ing quite a bit wif wws lately...we even tok thru msn...yes tok...using headphones. itz so amazing...he doesn't sound faraway & he's the only one i can frequently use my webcam but i dun bcoz i am normally vy dishevelled at home =P. i wonder if we will tok tat much face-2-face. sometimes itz juz tat unexplained, u can tok abt anything wif one on a phone or internet but u cun repeat tat when u meet face-2-face. itz tat awkward & u also dunno y. it used 2 happen wif the bankers & business associates, even some frens or acquaintances, i wld call them.

huh...seems tat everyone's out enjoying their friday while i cun wait 2 reach home aft sch. most ppl crave 4 fri 2 arrive sooner, i hope it end sooner bcoz it spells the end of a tiring week altho another one will start soon.

time oh time...

as i was walking 2 bugis mrt stn juz now, i saw the shop already selling lanterns...oh, tatz fast & i mean time. itz aug now. therez an old saying tat says a day passes by slowly but a year will go by vy quickly...i agree. itz amazing the rate time passes & itz so fast tat it seems tat therez not enough time 2 get things done.

the coming mooncake festival will be a busy day 4 me...my cousin's getting married on tat day & we r helping as the 姐妹, so i hav 2 go get a white dress & matching shoes...burning a hole in thy pocket again but itz my 1st time, shd be pretty exciting bah tho tiring.

tot i hav pretty much 2 say but all is lost by the time i sit here...sighz...i feel vy tired nowadays. the repeated falling sick & sch has zapped out most of my energy. i nid a break!!! i wan a break!!! & damn it tat i noe i will only get 1 in dec & i hav 2 get thru tat dreaded exam. oh, i feel so broke too...aft the settlement of all the bills, i will hav dig deep into the savings which i hate coz itz not tat much...f*** it. cun wait 4 all these 2 go away.

& i c the contradiction in all this, while i'm lambasting abt the fly-past of time, i'm hoping 4 time 2 pass faster, so tat i can end my current agony. we contradict ourselves all the time & yet hope we r not tat contradictory.

oh ya, david is attached. he dedicated 天天 2 his special fren at his shanghai concert. hmm, got 2 find another cancerian liao...haha. i ponder sometimes. wat is it tat mks us label ppl as gd, platonic or special. how gd, platonic or special? & bcoz such relationships r sometimes entwined wif the female/male relationship, so it lead 2 certain ppl's conclusion tat a male & female cun stay tat kinda frens. i believe in such pure friendships but shd i call him my gd, platonic or special fren? let me tin abt it...

i love charlie & the chocolate factory...Johnny Depp is fab & he's a Gemini =)