FRI FRI FRI...yay!

itz fri tmr...YAY!!!

when u r working, u remember when all the public holidays r & look fwd 2 weekends all the time...haha.

i was trying 2 look 4 an old pair of specs...cldn't find it & as usual, i noe itz somewhere in my hse, juz dunno where...hee. letting Fat c my specs...u c...she's a budding optometrist so we r all vy gd practice material 4 her but my mum is proving vy tough 4 her bcoz she's giving ans tat well, u really wunno how 2 diagnose her...wahaha.

met wif 2 absurd matters at wk these 2 days. i cun help but feel relieved tat i'm leaving the place soon. i would like 2 clarify tat being quiet at wk doesn't mean i'm always tat quiet, not sociable & worst of all, hav no frens! OMG!!! i juz dun wan 2 socialise wif certain ppl when i dun c the need 2. ya, i noe these kinda ppl might be everywhere & even in new workplace but ppl here r so extreme i juz wan 2 stay away frm them. therez 1 thing tho, i shd brush up on my communication skills...will be taking this challenge 4 new job & looking fwd 2 it.

oh, i wish ppl wun say i'm rich when i speak abt plans of visiting aus again. u dun hav 2 empathise wif me & i'm not expecting everyone 2 understand but i'm not gg over bcoz i hav excess $$$ which i dunno where 2 spend on.

i'm interested in the new samsung E870...interested (only) bcoz i hav no budget 4 it...wahaha. actually the real thing doesn't look as nice or sleek as on the brochure...keke.

GSS is on & i'm proud 2 say i hav bought almost nothing yet...but soon (i feel itz soon) i'll be contributing 2 the economy...i wan a black working bag, covered shoes, suits, shirts, in general formal wear...when will there always be enough $$$ 4 all these?

oh ya, i donated blood 4 the 1st time last sun. the feeling of giving is gd. i'll be doing it again. how cld ppl not wan be kind & nice? doesn't doing a gd deed mks u so much happier than always thinking of ways 2 triumph over ur rivals? maybe itz bcoz we r human aft all.

NEW...

oh, gd morn! juz went 2 chk on my financial status & wat a sigh i had 2 give...seems tat i can only start saving frm jul...HAI HAI HAI! itz so so sad 2 c ur saving dwindling 2 the lowest point & realise my aim this yr wun be reached =(

other than the above which is actually a serious pro in my mind...i FINALLY got into where i wan 2 be & FINALLY i'm getting started on wat i've planned 4 & FINALLY leaving a place where the human factors r threatening 2 jeopardise serious wk...where ppl r rewarded 4 wat they hav not done...where some of the ridiculous stuffs unfold b4 ur eyes or ears...but itz a vy gd lesson on office politics...a real eye-opener. i muz say itz a relief when i got the call of offer...now anticipating the new job challenges & wat i noe my stint there will bring. itz gd 2 be 2 be anticipating a new phrase in life. u get more optimistic & suddenly everything seems so so bright & u hav an incredible amt of drive 2 achieve. gd gd...this is indeed gd.
while there were countless disappointments, the ending is still vy sweet...juz tat it wasn't easy & i'll treasure it more. i've learnt a lot of stuffs during this period & the support i've reci is so sweet & touching despite my constant whines & groans (i really whine a lot can...haha). the support frm the odeon gang is esp dear 2 the heart. frm them, i noe there can be genuinity among frens at wk, unlike the OP i heard abt in & hav 2 face in wk everyday now, i can sense the genuine happiness, wishes & support which re-affirms the fact tat frens r not by quantity but quality. i dun nid much frens juz a few who can share ups & downs will do. glad 2 say frens (& i dun mean acquaintances) ard me hav been patient in listening 2 my grouses...ha. oh, FAT & Da JIE too...sharing part of my 'miserable sufferings'...they suffer more bah...wahaha. finally, thy BF who suffered the worst, every tiny bit of complaints goes 2 him. so gd lah, itz over...4 now...until the new job starts...wahaha.

meeting pauline 2 SHOP later...i shd keep a hold on myself...juz get the shoes i wan & tatz enough. maybe suits since itz GSS & things r on sale...ARGH...u c, this is how it goes & the list juz grows...

7 mths 2 go...a lot of things 2 anticipate. when i tot i wun be so much affected again, there will always be stuffs 2 remind me tat i am...i noe y is tat so.

过敏

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸 怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线
一点一点 没知觉

泛红双眼 不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸 特效药也 无解
才发现 我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
OH过敏源 是对你的思念

我想我 才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变
是想念 没断线

泛红双眼 不成眠
它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸 特效药也 无解
才发现 我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
OH过敏源 是对你的思念

我想我 才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变 是想念 没断线

我想我 才发现
感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界
OH过敏源 是为你流的泪

我想我 才了解
就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变
是眼泪 弄湿脸

我想我 才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变 是想念 没断线
季节一直变
但我的心 没有变

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸 没知觉

still at wk...tin i'm falling sick soon...normally my throat will give way 1st. my poor body, tin i've been giving it too much pressure. i shd take better care of myself =P

***+++***

here i am...finally at home aft a long day...

went 4 an interview at ex-co...went back 2 a familiar yet unfamiliar environment & it might be an environment i hav 2 face everyday soon. & the SAME old ppl it seems...cun exactly describe the feeling...but i agree wif wat johnny said, i shd concentrate on earning some keep. when i'm lost on my career choices now, it is made worse when ppl attempt 2 give me advices...well, i do appreciate the fact tat they tried 2 give some opinions but they r not me & they dunno wat is gg thru me now, dunno how i'm feeling now, dunno wat is it i really really wan, so it gets tiring explaining y am i taking the path i am taking & the reaction u got when u told y am i doing all these. i'm really appreciative abt the concern & there might come a day i regret not taking the path i shd but every cloud has its silver lining & u nvr noe wat life has in store 4 u. most imptly, i understand tat itz prob hard 4 ppl 2 understand wat i'm gg thru when they hvn been thru it.

enough of heavy stuffs...sharing some pics taken in melb...


some demonstration thing outside the melb library...nvr seen tat b4 u c...suagu so take pic lor...anyway not i take...ha

the touristy Queen Victoria market...vy much like our pasar malams...a so-so place in my opinion. the wet market was nice tho...but i love the supermarkets in aus i guess...shd hav taken pics of coles & woolsworth...wahaha

the lovely clouds taken on board the flight 2 melb...we flew on jetstar btw & the cabin crew were showing the life-saving instructions live...eye-opener 4 the vy suagu me again...keke

weird...cun upload the other pics...another day liao...

got the academic dress 4 this sat's graduation...the hat looks so kuku & as usual, bcoz i hav a big head, so i nid a bigger one but the worst shock was when Fat said i shd take a bigger one...OMG! we were discussing tat we r not excited abt the ceremony at all. maybe the excitement will come on the day itself bah. went 2 thai express 4 dinner juz now, it was not bad...i tin thai desserts r so yummy albeit a bit too sweet...it will suit thy BF tho...Giant Coconut has a sweet tooth, unfortunately his gf is gd at cooking bland fd, so he better enjoys all tat he can now...haha. hmm, but at least i cook, altho nid more improvements...hee.

i shd Zzz soon...or i might end up sleeping at wk tmr...btw, wld u ever stay at a job 4 a LONG LONG time even tho u tin ur collz sucks? sometimes, ppl really amazed me...amazing.

P.I.M.P.L.E.S.

wif the aftermath of visiting a fabulous place & a wonderful trip came OMG...PIMPLES!!! tin the face is trying 2 adjust back 2 the surroundings & climate, so quite a few has popped up...SAD!!! hopefully itz only 4 the moment now...=S

aft 3rd day of wk, i still seem 2 hav no feelings twds new job. bad...haha. hopefully my ideal situation will happen. there r no jap shuai ges in the co...discussing it wif kelly this aft reminds me of IN of ex-co & of coz SY. now i appreciate them better...wahaha. well, the MD is not bad-looking but he sure has a fiery temper...he seems 2 wan blow up everyday...wonder when will i c the volcano erupting...heard itz quite scary...oh well. i c a diff working style in new co which is not bad at all...i can learn 2 c which r efficient & which r needless. new co has so many procedures tat i'm trying 2 adjust 2 & oh, so many undercurrents...nobody seems 2 like anybody...& everyone seem 2 hav worked there 4 long or VY long...佩服，佩服。

enough of wk. i nid shoes...i cun find shoes 4 wk. 2 pairs of slip-ons. itz time 2 get 2 back 2 heels. maybe i shd get suits also or a blazer jacket will do. hmm, when is iora hvg their sale?

oh ya, disclaimer, i hope my 'loyal' readers hav noticed tat i weren't the author 2 the last entry. itz not too me rite? i dun openly praise my bf & tin all my frens shd like him (2 pacify my frens) altho he's great, sweet, attentive...blah blah blah (not listing all in case my frens anti this blog but actually, itz mainly 2 pacify him) =P

大小姐日记 （2）

Time: 1850 (Brisbane time)

Time to departure: 5 more hours

心情： 好想哭

原因：can't bear to leave wws

The past 18 days

The past 18 days have been wonderful...spent most of my time on the bed...sleeping...and not to mention using computer...stupid wws...always go to school or sleep...no time for me :( BUT...he has been such a wonderful boyfriend to me. To all my female friends...get someone who is at least half as gd as him...and yah...you ppl must be blind not to go after him... :P

What can i say....breakfast in bed...no need to do anything...free driver...someone to ill-treat...in short, everything a woman can ask for...sigh...why do i have to leave so soon...*sob...

That sob reminded me...i've been crying for the past few nights...eyes swollen...if u see me, DO NOT ASK ME WHY!! i'll bite...

Oh well...time to enjoy his company once again...Cya back in spore!!

ps: think i will regret putting in this post (boost his ego) so i might remove or add in a disclaimer later...enjoy it while u can!!

大小姐日记 （1）

itz 9.06am brisbane time now which means itz only 7.06am in sg now, tat tells the pathetic state of msn.

ms 大小姐 aka myself actually noes how 2 use the microwave 2 heat up some donuts 4 breakfast but seeing the state the topping melts...hmm, sighz. wws aka Daddy or Giant Coconut has gone out till the aft, so his pathetic gf has 2 fend 4 herself during these hrs. wonder if i'll be able 2 sleep again later =P

juz came back here frm melb last nite. itz a COLD COLD place...wat a new experience. melb is more cosmopolitan & crowded & so confusing. we spent quite sometime finding our way ard: 2 hrs finding our accomodation, gg round the city countless times 2 find a destination...the street signs r so BIG u prob get ready a bino & it doesn't help tat sometimes we only hav a map which shows the main roads & streets & i still cnt recognise the streets w/o seeing the signs. despite all those minor hiccups, melb seems a great place, a mixture of modern cosmopolitan wif nature. their natural scenaries r breathtaking altho the wow factor dies down aft a while...therez lotsa amazing views starting frm bells beach, great ocean road where u can c the 12 apostles & london bridge. in my opinion, i was more awestruck wif london bridge...i juz tot the structure is majestic but the camera sadly cld only survive 1 pic there. it was mostly raining during our trip on the great ocean road & itz so freezingly cold, luckily i bought tat $3.90 gloves, it was so much used thru-out the melb trip. the nex day, we drove out 2 philip island by ourselves 2 watch the penguin parade. frankly speaking, i tot the walk back aft the parade was so much more interesting than the parade itself. u can c the penguins more upclose, they r so CUTE!!! had 2 resist 2 smuggle one back...haha. it was also freezingly cold there. & oh ya, i tin melb has better shopping, they hav some streets 4 budget shopping but i tot we were quite curbed, din exactly spend a lot...tin so...haha. now tat we r back here, i'm actually missing it a little...the weather bah...i dun wan go back sg liao...keke.

juz tot of some stuffs ms 大小姐 cld actually do...unpacking all the stuffs but cun wash the dirty clothes coz she amazingly doesn't noe how 2 use the washing machine. yes, she's tat spoilt & clueless. she prob spoilt the microwave 4 all she noes. or i cld upload the photos too...get ready 4 our supermarket shopping later...we r cooking in tonite! =b

ending here...doing something...dunno wat tho...sleep the most likely...haha =]

Same side of the moon

Same side of the moon

I'm looking out the window
Where we sat to watch the stars
There's a chill within the air
It makes my heart long for your touch
You may be miles away
But as I kneel to pray

I see the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all the tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

I picture you across the ocean
In your corner of the world
I pray the wind will blow my voice
And gently whisper in your ear
Your night may be my day
And though the seasons change

It's still the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all the tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

all courtesy of shiling...thks gal, my great buddy! sad 2 be missing the sex & the city 'party' during gd fri but we'll mk it up another day, i will pluck u some lavanders & give u a NEW koala bear keychain...haha.

1st heard this song when i was watching a taiwanese serial...tot it was vy nice...then caught it live at esplanade during 1 NY eve, listening 2 this song under the stars juz brings out the whole atmosphere...corrine may's voice is so so soothing...now i can totally relate 2 the lyrics. 2 only say itz nice wld be an understatement 2 the song. addicted 2 it now...=]

itz 7 days 2 THE trip...i anticipate yet dread...maybe i shdn't tin so much of when it ends. it dampens the mood a little. i shd start packing soon, judging by it seems tat i'll be bringing quite a bit of stuffs...hee.

一分钱，一分货

i believe in 一分钱，一分货. i bought 2 $5 items frm chinatown yday aft signing the appt letter (YES, i FINALLY get a job...). The bag's button already fell off this morn & i spent half of my bus journey trying 2 get it back, luckily i succeeded. i heard the colour will stick onto clothes too...so basically u spend $5, u get quality of $5. hope the shawl will at least last me 3 mths? oh ya, & itz YELLOW...hee. went shopping wif lily (we din wan 2 shop at 1st :P) ynite & i managed 2 curb myself quite a bit. here r my 'adventures':

1. i told myself i shd be able 2 get a decent pair of slippers frm my home collection, so i put back the one at m)phosis & decided 2 give my bag 2 my sis, then i dun hav 2 buy one 4 her...ha
2. i tin i dun hav a nice back, so i decided against the spaghetti straps & tubes at mango...keke
3. the Q was too long 4 a trial at Zara & dun hav my size, so ya nex time lah...
4. DKNY aft sale is still too ex...wahaha
5. din find the YELLOW cardigan i wanted at isetan or rather, i had wanted 2 go isetan scotts where there r more stuffs...maybe i'll find my YELLOW stuffs then...hee
6. i did not get the privilege card frm sis 4 shoes at charles & keith...hoho

i finally succumbed at forever 21 where i bought a turtleneck top again...it was really nice lah. i nearly bought somemore...& realised yday tat this shop has got nice clothes aft all...hmm, ya...haha! had the lettuce-wrap-meat 'burger' at mos again yday & it was such a mess...too much sauce...haha. had some fun wif tat ki siao woman too...haha...kinda missing sch days where all of us can ki siao tog...sadly, 4 the graduation ceremony nex mth, only half of the gang will be there...missed dancing Q esp...the 3 of us were supposed 2 be tog.

i realised i din get anything done mentioned in my last blog...i'm quite gd at gg out-of-point huh...no gd ne.

jetting off 2 brisbane in 2 wks' time...so excited & happy! =b we might be gg 2 melbourne, therez this great ocean road which seems vy nice...woo...i tin i might really wan stay there & not come back...which mom will surely not allow. my mommy is so afraid of her daughter getting into trouble wif the authorities wif the tax filing deadline & election coming up...had 2 keep reassuring her & made sure i settled all possible b4 moving off.

gossip can be so harmful yet entertaining at the same time...we can get hurt by it yet thrive on it. circle of life perhaps.

14 more days...woohoo!

itz 三八妇女节...

i tin i'm so capable of stressing myself all up. stressed over life, over being sort-of jobless...career blah blah blah. y do we like thinking so much sometimes? 4 a better future? bcoz every decision we make now might well affect wat might be a great future? so wat is a GREAT future? i attempt 2 lead my life my own way, then found tat sometimes i hav 2 succumb 2 reality. am i happy? do i wan things this way? i convinced myself accepting things the way it is & always nvr believe the surface of things but is it working? am i happy at the end of the day? Is ALL these seriously wat i really really wan? so wat is it tat i wan then? do i really really nid 2 noe wat is it tat i wan or i cld juz take things as they come, maybe i'll be happier tat way. serious. some ppl r wasting their lives away in other ppl's opinions but they r happy, so watz the balance here? so many ppl out there might not really noe they wan...like me, i hav chg my ideas & plans how many times since i ever came up wif one? so hvg a goal in life is like a guideline but 2 succeed, things hav 2 wk at the rite time, ppl & place wif an amt of luck.

so i got an job offer yday & i'm still asking myself: wat is it tat is holding me back frm working there? i find an inside force so strong within apparently telling me 2 hold back but reality tells me 2 go ahead. & wat is it i really wan? i also cun come up wif a certain ans: banking, finance or auditing? hopefully sy can really help lah. oh ya, this cute (wahaha) ex-boss gave us a treat at Keyaki last thurs. we chatted wif no restrains, it was a vy nice feeling, brings back fond memories of odeon towers. missing the lunch sessions, mad rush 4 sales, noisy office, bk breakfasts, birthday celebrations wif cakes frm furama, tokyo bananas, bitching together, mac meetings, eerie office, secrets sharing in the toilet, jap collz wif their funny english...& many else but sy asked me 2 go somewhere wif better salary, prospects blah blah blah. juliet was the most pitiful, it muz be terrible hearing the way 1 of the shareholders of the co tok abt itz pros & it reaffirms the fact tat he's really a businessman. wonder if he has vacancies in HK...hmm. btw, the sashimi at Keyaki rocks. it was so fresh, so sweet, so tasty i tin i do take sashimi now. cun wait 4 the jun treat now, if it ever happens...haha.

oh, speaking of wat i wan now:

1) saw 2 vy nice YELLOW knitwear & sweater at esprit yday.
2) a hair trim...shd be gg 4 it this sat.
3) get 2 more ear-holes (is tat wat u call tat? i forgot.).

ya, 4 now, these 3 shd suffice. i cun buy any skincare or comestic pdts coz my face is undergoing treatment. vy soon, i will look as nice as the photoshop pic...haha. oh, got somemore, the $5 bag & shawl which i can get frm chinatown. i shd chk those out...haha

meeting ivy later...hvn seen her pretty face 4 like...a yr? shd be since last cny. she's ALWAYS rejecting my dates...sob. i shd take a gd look at her later, if not it will be another yr soon...haha.

oh ya, Happy 三八妇女节! shiling reminded me of it juz now...we shd celebrate this day together...wahaha...OUR day...wahaha +eliz & kim...haha. btw gal, i do feel vy entertained reading ur blog but u seldom update it nowadays...so sad...when shall we go 4 the tea thing at seah st?

花儿般的坚强

爱在孤独中绝望 在绝望中坚强

忽然喜欢上这句歌词。。。就这么简单 ;)

blabberings...

the 1st thing i wan say in this post is:

I PASSED MY FINAL PAPERS!!!

yes, so i'm officially an ACCA affliate now...finally...aft 3 yrs which isn't bad at all...keke. i'm amazed even at myself...heard how bad the exams can get & i can tell u itz REALLY VY BAD, i cleared all w/o repeating! i tin i'm so lucky & muz thk the following ppl:

1. Family: everyone's cooperation & care helps a lot...mum's amulet water, sis' 爱心water, honey's SUPER late nites blah blah blah...my family ties r strong & tat says all.
2. My lovely Jap ex-boss: if not 4 the study leaves, i might not hav made it. despite all my whinings, he's still a nice boss...well, my home com, $500 brisbane allowance & other miscellaneous stuffs. i shd hav been nicer but tat was a younger me. lesson learnt & reminded.
3. Juliet: during my study leaves, she had 2 'tong' alone...thks! this is a friendship tat will bring us 2 greater heights =)
4. Johnny: THKS THKS THKS! a big part in me clearing my final papers...lessons in life & my counsellor too...this is something 4 life too.
5. acca kakis: thks 4 the support given all thru the period...u guys r great!
6. Mr Driver: thks 4 the rides but u got ur rewards liao so ya...hee
7. Friends: thks 4 all the gd luck msgs, prayers blah blah blah...it wks...haha

anyone i left out is purely incidental & not intentional...wahaha.

in the light of happiness, i hav more pimples popping out...ARGH!!! itz real frustrating but also gave me a chance 2 c how photoshop is used...amazing too. i decided...i'll c a doc 2 fix it if it continues...i cnt live wif it anymore...almost!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

but i was given a nokia 7600 (the look like a leaf one) 2 try out...ya, my once-lovely samsung x430 is peeling like mad but i'm still a samsung mobile phone supporter...i'm so used 2 its functions tat i tried using them on the 7600. not 2 say of coz i was cursing at how bad it is *i miss my samsung!!!* but i tin the phone is vy cute, so i shall bear wif it 1st lah & pls bear wif me 4 the SLow replies too...i hav 2 get used 2 the phone which obviously i'm hvg pros now.

so i can put off buying a hp 4 a while (yes, a while coz i still miss samsung u c...) but when's the metro 20% storewide discount thing coming again? my kose black mask is almost out...wonder if it can last me this sun...sob. been looking at masks nowadays...i'm interested in a cold mask which i can apply aft my own facial & other types of miscellaneous masks. oh ya, & those pimple plasters where u sticked overnite & the nex day it disappears...i NID tat too & urgently. i'm quite sure i did tin of getting something else too but dun remember now. oh, i wan a shawl...a nice golden yellowish one. yes, i love things yellow & green nowadays.

i'm gg 2 brisbane again...yes, i'm still thinking if i shd get the Maxfactor stuffs...i quite like this brand but itz not available in s'pore & i still hav the lip gloss i bought last yr which i used like once or twice? but the nail polish was nice. oh, i'll get 2 go 2 harbourtown this time...YAY!!! & it will be autumn when i go over...sounds vy nice...hee. hoping 2 c yellowish leaves & trees...u c them in autumn rite? *fingers crossed*

watched brokeback mountain last nite. i wld call it a nice show but itz so weird seeing 2 guys in love & them kissing & even sexual scenes, it was juz hard 2 get emotionally involved in the show...hmm & it doesn't help tat shiling cracked something abt the guys beside her & i tot of the guys ARD us...ya, u noe who lah...haha. no offence meant tho.

lately i had 2 say quite a lot in 1 post...they juz came 2 my mind...ha.

Happy V-Day!

phew, juz finished wif my NEW resume & sent it 2 edwin 4 some reviews. it sure seems better now...hope it wks...*winks*

watched 'i not stupid too', itz nicer than i expected altho i find things getting dramatic twds the end & the ladies beside was laughing every possible moment, even the sad parts...wat a direct contrast 2 my 'lovely' younger sis who suffered frm swollen eyes aft tat...haha. on the way back on the bus, sis (elder one) & i were discussing abt parenting, parents & child issues...hmm, making me tin a bit.

i finally sort-of mapped out my future career plan but still subject 2 my results. oh ya, judgement day's nex mon...still pondering if shd take leave tat day coz in my best imagination, i tin i'll cry either way of the results. speaking of it really mks me nervy...sian.

Happy Valentines DAy! i'll be spending my evening wif 2 lovely ladies but we reckon itz gonna be super crowded everywhere & each yr, we complained abt the same old things...haha.

To: Mr U-noe-who-u-r-&-i-noe-U-r-reading,
nex yr, i tin i will love somewhere quiet & peaceful...keke & oh ya, something my sistas wld love 2 hear...the bill's on u 4 this yr too?

PS: pls dun drop any comments, u might well offend the ladies & i hav 2 spend tdy alone...=P

oh oh oh, INZAGHI scored a hat-trick yday & the other goal was scored by Gilardino. shucks, a match i wld relish watching but i decided 2 be more peaceful. wanted 2 upload a pic of them tog but itz not working...nvm, i shall save up 2 c them in person soon ;D

care care CARE!!!

juz watched 霍元甲...itz fab. the movie was vy fast-paced which was gd coz we wun fall asleep but it has a sort-of sad ending...soppy. we din wan 2 leave when the credits came coz jay's song hav not came out...wahaha & when it did, we REALLY dun feel like leaving...=P

i shd get the jay dvd soon but i'm planning my money vy carefully nowadays. not tat it wks most of the time...got myself a black turtleneck when i was waiting 4 shiling 2 reach juz now. ya, excuses...i tot itz suitable 4 my nex job...keke. this is watz happening...seriously, when i get a job, itz gg 2 pay 4 many things:

1) insurance (due in mar...my heart is bleeding...)
2) taiwan in aug/sep (my poor parents...the trip juz keep getting delayed due 2 me...sorry)

& other stuffs like:

3) new set of comestics
some of my stuffs were bought like yons ago...not even sure if itz safe 2 continue using...haha. i saw this brochure frm isetan abt paul & joe...sounds interesting (okay, i'm more interested in the free bag once u spend $120...itz really nice =P). stila is another interesting brand. so i decided: bodyshop's not bad & itz price will allow me 2 splurge on lancome & stila. anyone has any idea on gd WATERPROOF mascara? i dun wan 2 look like i've been punched everytime i use the current maybelline one but it sure lengthens the eyelashes...amazing. oh, i nid concealer too...the current mac one is not bad but shall c if therez any nicer ones...keke. too bad, prescriptives's not available now...juz when i decided 2 use it...sad. lately, i tin the face shop's not bad...i like their $2.50 nail polishes. i shd get a blue one since i hav pink, yellow, green...so little? oh, then i wan black, white, maroon...aiyoyo, so many stuffs & no money...SAD!

4) skincare products
okay, my 神奇水's running out...my fave lancome moisturiser's out yons ago...i'm vy sad! not tat the current loreal one is bad...itz gd too but the lancome one was fabulous. u can feel the moisture on ur face aft application. itz super absorbent & i can apply the sunblock rite aft. well, the price matters too. Sis juz bought the lancome SPF50 sunblock (2 my relief...dun wan freckles...) & the price has risen, so i tin itz the same 4 the moisturiser. if u even nid a long lasting eye serum, try clarins...my current one muz hav lasted me at least more than a yr...gulp & itz stopping me frm trying out my new SK-II eye treatment film...still new bcoz itz there lying 4 so many mths & i cun use it =( i quite like my current pdts but the acne lotion frm my facial place wld be vy nice coz it wks. hmm, origins & shu uemura seems nice but i'm sticking wif my lancome, clarins & SK-II 4 now. dun be mistaken, i also use ginvera cleanser & marvel gel, eversoft toner (swears by it!), loreal moisturiser & pore refiner, za nose peel, blotters & exfoliator. too bad, i'm not a convincing spokesman of all the above pdts mentioned coz of my pimply face...i'm quite prone 2 them...SAD! tin i'll get the acne lotion once i can...dun wan 2 risk gg 4 facial now, i'm sure i'll spend more than i cld there.

so i'm a typical woman aft all. i find it vy scary aft writing out the stuffs but at least now i hav a clearer mind on wat i'm using...haha. this entry's basically a recollection so tat i'm not leaving anything out & not using. oh, i forgot the ever trusty & useful lip balm...like david tao, i bring them everywhere & apply anywhere coz u really feel the difference aft using them. hmm, i'm lacking care on my body, shall look into tat...OMG!!! am i sure i'm gg 2 spend almost all my $$$ on all this? itz worthed it...i hope i look 20 when i'm 30 =P

5) a bday prez 4 Small Fat...she wun give up the chance 2 'chop' me...hoho

6) bags...i promised i wld consider carefully b4 juz getting any bags...no impulse buys! bro juz came back frm bangkok w/o anything (YES, not even the bags i requested 4!) 4 me...had 2 pretend i din mind while Small Fat get like 2 FAKE adidas bags (hahaha...so u noe she's carrying a fake one if u c her...wahaha), 2 jackets, some necklaces. wait till i get there myself...hehe.

7) shoes...how can any outfit be complete w/o shoes? waiting 4 the m)phosis sale tho...their shoes r quite comfy & itz vy CHEAP during their sales & did i mention i saw this lovely dress there the other day & decided against splurging?

8) handphone...actually i shd ignore the rest & do something abt this 1st. my once-lovely samsung X430 is peeling & the phone juz looks like it really wans me 2 give up using it coz it was all vy well aft a few mths back...well, i'm eyeing another samsung phone, panasonic's fine too. samsung E770...seems not bad but shiling was telling me abt E760...tempting.

aft toking so much...i realised i shd get a job aft all. tat might solve all of the above...slowly but at least solving...hey, therez the $10m toto draw on fri...hope mum has bought 4 me...WISHING =)

远远在一起...

shiling was telling me abt this song last nite...

多一秒世界就会被淹没
你还像个巨人紧紧拥抱找
离开你变得渺小的自我
很想从此就卑微的渡过

失去真爱
只剩快乐残骸
已感觉不到任何的存在

还是爱着你
只是我们之间有了距离
远远爱着你
就算不能够在靠近
同样的天空下总会有你

站在时间面前没法撤退
我们像两颗告别的尘灰
记得拥抱时天地有多美
记得没有谁能将这摧毁

寻觅真爱
跌进人山人海
才发现没有线索可倚赖
不管我们之间什么距离
就算不能够再靠近
ha……
就算在不同国度里 有你

this was composed by david but i still prefer 再一次拥有 by the same singer but oh well...ya...=)

tired tired week...

i always tot my blog template is so bland but i dun bother 2 do much 2 it. basically i tin i'll make do wif something simple.

tired man...how can i outfight the chinatown crowds tmr? i shd try 2 convince my parents on gg somewhere, if not i tin aft the whole thing, i'll probably be too shacked out 2 join 4 the ktv...hmm but i'll give in 2 them if they really wan go bah...i can always siam earlier...heehee.

is life abt facing dilemmas? i dinno wat 2 do wif my career. hmm, i got 2 decide wat is it i wan b4 moving 2 the nex step. ideally, i wld love 2 join 1 of the big 4 (actually only pwc...keke) 2 do auditing but they r not calling me. eh, i did reci 1 frm ey asking abt an internship...sighz, y cun they tell me they r not employing me bcoz my results r not out...they sounded quite lame BUT if ey wans me aft tat, i reckon i'll still join them...haha. well, itz no use holding on 2 too much of tat thing called pride. pride is a hinderance 2 success. i hav no doubt therez so much i yearn 2 achieve & i noe my abilities...oh, i'm sounding super self-confident now it seems, so long itz not cocky. so long i keep my dignity. therez a diff between pride & dignity...dun believe? chk it.

juliet suggested tat we start doing part-time a/cs & when we r ready, we'll plunge into providing accounting services full-time...not a bad idea...suits my personal goal & the fortune-telling tat i wun be satisfied working 4 other ppl but i reckon i'm still too inexperienced. i shd give myself more time 2 gain experience in other areas. reci a call frm kelly rdg joining her company but we din manage 2 tok much tho. my concerns 4 gg there wld be itz a shipping company & japanese-owned again...hmm, but they r owned by mitsubishi corp tho, now tatz a diff matter altogether as mitsubishi is 1 of the top 3 firms in japan. i worry abt my accounting experience becoming too specialised & if itz anytime 2 join auditing, it wld be now. dilemma dilemma!!! i tin i dun hav 2 worry too much...take it as it comes...something i started 2 stand by nowadays.

this wk is a tiring one as i unintentionally went out every nite...hole in my pocket. caught 'Pride & Prejudice' on tues, itz a wonderful show. i love it. will get the dvd. the love story between lizzy & mr darcy is so SWEET...i was so disappointed when the show ended...i decided 2 finish the book =D went kushin bo wif eliz & wws on thurs. itz a vy belated bday treat 4 wws. anyway, eliz & i gorged on the fd, it was nice...love the paper steamboat but the most memorable's the song & bell...haha. as a result of gorging, i suffered frm the feeling of fullness & nausea the whole fri, i tin i hav nvr been this full b4 & we even went 2 mustafa 4 a walk 2 try ridding of the fullness. forced myself 2 eat dinner. we went 2 swensens & has a brainstorming tok abt the accounting venture. i tot we shd juz try it out & c how it is...like personally i hav nvr done it b4, we'll take a step at a time bah...while itz gd 2 plan 4 the future but sometimes u dun hav 2 tin so much...like i said: take it as it comes.

hav not got much 4 cny except a pair of shoes...i hvn been really shopping freely 4 a long long time. i dread 2 c my bills 4 nex mth tho =(

16 days aft NY...

itz mon again...a normal wk week...sighz. i'm feeling lethargic as usual, so i tin i got 2 do something 2 at least drive it away a bit. not tat i feel there will be much use. it shd be something 2 do wif the bad sleep last nite. i'm facing sleeping problems...i cun sleep early & once i do, i cun wake up early...10 hrs sleep days r so common & i can still feel so sleepy aft tat which isn't gd when i tin of it. i shd start hvg earlier nites if possible.

the sun's out but i still miss the rain. being a 'hot' person, i tin i prefer colder days coz i can wear anything i wan tat way. looks like there will be much sunshine tdy, so mum might wash honey. i shuddered when mum described wat she will do 2 honey but honey really nids a wash. he's turning 2 blackie & smelling a bit...wahaha.

oh, i'm finally able 2 catch pride & prejudice in the theatres. hvg some difficulties understanding the book. itz like reading a literature textbook, i keep hvg 2 ponder the irony, flip to & fro 4 some explanations for word meanings, so i'm still stucked at chapter 8 as at yday. i tin i rather read the zhang xiao xian books. i noe i can finish it & despite the no. of times i've read it, i still feel vy touched & the nid 2 balance myself wif a happier book. zhang xiao xian has some vy gd quotes on love, the one i remembered the most was something like this:

我就站在你面前， 而你却不知道我爱你。

how true tat is sometimes. i believe so many ppl r in tat situation. is it due 2 initiative? initiative...itz so easily said but hard 2 do. i tin basically i'm still conservative, it will take quite a bit 4 me 2 take up the initiative. hmm, i'll probably drop subtle hints & tat brings me back 2 1 of my fave topics. how do u noe tat is it? wat if itz a misunderstanding? it doesn't mean tat when the other party's being nice, they r liking u. we do tin too much huh? sometimes therez really no nid 2 tin so much, juz take it as it comes lah.

my younger (who looks elder than me...wahaha) sis help dyed my hair yday & she did quite a gd job. she can consider an alternative career if she fails as an optometrist...haha. so i'll hav 2 give her a bigger bday prez 2 reward her...hoho. tat gal shares a bday wif jay okay...cun help mentioning tat & cun help being a bit jealous...haha.

lately ppl ard me has been adamant on 1 topic. itz weird...how did things get this way? i'm amazed too.

poor Small (Fat) Sister...

went 4 a haircut juz now...as usual, it looks like therez no cut but the funniest thing has got 2 be the hairdresser (a guy) mistaking my younger sister as my elder sister. at tat mo, we went into shocked mode. my younger sister is 5 yrs younger & taller than me, so it was a super sad thing 4 her, she was mocking at the thing aft tat. i can emphathise wif tat but cun help laughing. anyway, my sisters tot itz the way i asked them abt opinions 4 my fringe. well, they tin i'm vy gd at acting cute & innocent frm my phone-answering ways & other antics. i beg 2 differ! sometimes cuteness come frm the heart okay? wahaha.

& we came back 2 an exceptional quiet home juz now too. wonder if itz some usual petty squabble between my parents again. yes, they quarrelled abt amazing stuffs like how's the clothes 2 be hung, how do u place the pot cover. i can only say they r ard the age of menopause...shudders. my hse is normally a vy noisy affair...we love laughing over almost everything. 一日三大笑, i supposed we laugh so much more than tat.

btw, dunno watz wrong wif me. ever since the exams in mid-dec, i hav been sick on & off...still hvg a SORE throat...hopefully the 爱心菊花茶 will help...i had 2 cups...keke. i tin i cun let my mum noe i'm gg 4 ktv tmr, no one is really gg 2 pity me if they do. not tat i love being pitied but u do wan some concern when u r sick...not waking up 2 some chilli wanton mee & worse, curry chicken 4 the rest of the day.

i started visualising myself w/o a proper job. hav not been receiving much calls. okay, i'm choosy too. therez nothing wif wanting 2 wk in town. well, i might yield if i still dun get a job 3 mths later. getting a bit sian over all these job searches. like i told kim, i shd seriously contemplate getting a husband instead. ya rite, as if the feminist in me will allow me 2 do so.

lately some things hav been happening. it seems pleasant but i tot i shd give it a bit more time & tots. i dun wan the past 2 repeat itself.

peace-loving...wherez the dove?

juz read some news stories over the asiaone website. the biggest one had 2 be the israeli PM being vy ill. i dunno the political turmoil in tat part of Middle East in detail but frm wat i read, he seems 2 hav done much 4 peace in tat region. i once saw a TV excerpt of a little palestinian boy watching his father being killed in front of him in a shootout. it shocks me tat while i'm living safely & nicely in my home, there r so much other more ppl suffering ard the world. i started 2 tin myself in the position of the little boy & shudders. no doubt there will be grief but will all this be the start of him harbouring hatred twds the 'enemy' & 1 day be embroiled in a shootout like them? revenge indeed.

i often wonder if i cld hav survived if u take me out of s'pore. much as i hate 2 admit, i'm such a spolit brat sometimes. the weather cun be too hot, cun walk too far...how abt those kids in Pakistan who had 2 battle the cold if not their lives, maybe already in shambles. i'm so ashamed of myself sometimes. wld i be strong enough 2 take all those battering? juz news tat a fren has got into kpmg & i had not even reci a call frm any of the big 4 kinda unsettles me...i started finding reasons when in the 1st place, i was saying i dun wan join them. guess i'm juz envious of her getting a job. it also spurns on me tat i'm not the job-seeker & most outstanding person out there. contradicting...since the nex mo when my boss' editing my resume, he says i dun sound confident & my resume & cover letter doesn't sell me. look, i'm trying 2 be humble but ya, therez really something wrong wif my CV...a chg has done it better. hope i'll get some calls =p

k...a bit out of point...i was juz also wondering tat itz said tat between love & hatred is juz a line, so once we cleared tat line, there will be peace? but during a lunch discussion, it was brought up tat all things r balanced, so tat means when therez love, hatred will be hovering somewhere too? then how do we achieve peace? it was also discussed y do ppl bother hating each other? quite true also, u get agitated (which might lead 2 unhappiness...who noes heart attack) whenever tat person's mentioned & 1 thing, r u sure he/she's the only one wif fault 4 wat had happened? but some ppl r really meant 2 be hated. their actions r totally intolerable. most of the time, i wld say i dislike the person. aft all, unless u r hard-hearted, u cun hate a thing 4 too long anyway & y bother wasting time & energy on hating? we shd be able 2 find better things 2 do. everything's easier said than done tho but if everyone cld be a little less selfish, put themselves in others' shoes b4 acting...maybe (i said maybe) we can get peace. i dunno y when contestants in beauty paegents is deemed hyprocritical or ran off the mill of ideas when they wan world peace? i believe there r ppl who genuinely wans it...looking ard watz happening in the world nowadays...i cun believe therez anyone who din tin of it but as usual, being human, u noe itz not gg 2 happen. no wonder nature r gathering their forces 2 get back at us. 2 fight ppl when they r most dis-united and they cun stand us anymore...sigh...they hate us, i suppose & i dun wan 2 argue abt this. we hav indeed done things we shd not and refuse 2 heed warnings.

itz a New Year...

Happy New Year!!!

so fast...itz 2006 now...& it seems like only yday tat we hav celebrated the new Millenium? i feel old...old enough 2 not be squeezing wif the younger ppl & be reminded of how young i used 2 be. okay, i'm not terribly old now but at least older than wat i used 2 be & itz terrible seeing the signs, now u noe y all the ladies buy the entire set of sk-II skincare. i c my limbs more wrinkled...my acne scars taking vy long 2 heal...sighz, hav 2 spend more time on them liao.

as we r now OLDER than b4, we decided 2 avoid crowded places, then realised something which we r supposed 2 realise every yr: ppl r EVERYWHERE! so the restaurant was crowded, full of chattering until OLD ppl like us buay tahan...start thinking of ideas 2 escape & hav pro thinking of a place wif little ppl. finally we settled on a place which was deemed vy unlikely in the 1st place, then we set off 2 get our own fireworks: sparklers. hey, if u ever nid 2 get sparklers at ard 11pm, even on New Yr's Eve, go 2 clementi central. we were surprised we cld still get them at tat hr.


we went down 2 a secret location 4 light it...wahaha...itz nice...provides us wif unexpected fun. here's my partner wif the lighted sparklers:


& here's her trying 2 sell choya...keke. itz quite nice & i tot it tastes like red wine. choya & red wine...unlikely resemblance.


& the bottle of Margarita we cldn't open...it looks nice. too bad we cun open it but we will leave it 4 nex sat...hee


so itz a quiet quiet New Year & things got back 2 normal wif the 2 of us spending it alone again but minus the esplanade backdrop. heard the fireworks was nice but this yr is special is its own way...our way of spending it...keke. we hav slightly mapped out wat we'll do nex yr which aft more thinking, doesn't seem tat bad at all...haha!

Hav u made ur wishes 4 2006? i hav made the usual ones. they r simple but impt =)

hope everyone will hav a great year! stay Happy & be Happy!

PS: my new year partner, dun blame me 4 posting ur pics...u took more...haha =b