breakout :(

pimply face again!!!

depressed...depressed...& more depressed!!!
*thinks abt the hundred products or treatments i wan 2 buy or go 4...

juz saw news that thy co might be investigated & if a huge payout results from tat, then oh, i tin we'll have a nervy round of taps again.

juz ended half of a horrible system testing today. collz & i almost died of the problems tat kept cropping like only 2 us. nice. & we both tin we'll be dead by the time mgr c wat we have. tat will be on thurs. tok abt getting taps...& i feel so tired. at 1 juncture i felt the mad rush of like account signing date. +helping out at career fair (which i practically did nothing yet, not gd for 人缘) + another collz on core leave. i wish the mad May will end soon.

if may ends & june comes, i'll be getting older soon...haiz. watz new??

i tin i've been procrastinating on things. things tat i shd be thinking abt or do but i juz dun do or do everything else except them. hmm...i actually now dun remember wat they r...oops. r they impt aft all?

i tin my spoken grammer has degraded 2 the lowest possible level & it doesn't help tat i need 2 use them at wk quite a bit. i hope this instead will help me improve...PLS. maybe i shd get some grammer books 2 use in the 1st place & can prepare 4 coconut...LOL

i shd also seriously tin abt my ppl communication skills, it will really mk things easier but then, i tin i can be really harsh on myself at times. watz wrong wif being myself? watz wrong wif not being the person ppl wans me 2 be? prob i'm juz afraid i'm using tat as an excuse 2 not open up myself but then again, y shd i? these ppl dun care abt my existence & i would like 2 shout "i don't also! watz the big deal abt like working here only?" at times. okay, for thy $$'s sake, i will bear wif it. itz not bad sometimes, maybe it mks wat i wan clearer. the other day i was worrying over my career progression bcoz i noe i will nvr get THERE in this job & i'm already this old le, like been hopping ard a bit. i manage 2 comfort myself tho. i still have a great family, bf, frens & a lovely dog ard me. how 幸福...keke, so i dun wan 2 get all drama over this :D

time 2 sleep tho...i fear more breakouts.